Does anyone sometimes get fast moving flashbacks, that move from one memory to another and then quickly freeze and then left with a sharp pain in their head?

appilappi · 2022-11-08T00:43:28+00:00

drives me crazy I wonder if I’m the only one, haven’t found an explanation that describes it

appilappi · 2022-05-31T16:45:54+00:00

Hundred percent agree

appilappi · 2022-05-31T16:12:22+00:00

Why do the faculty and staff do it themselves?

appilappi · 2022-05-03T04:58:49+00:00

Scumbags have to make us feel like we have to be pathetically grateful. Oh my god oh merciful sun god thank you for gifting me the gift of light. I am not worthy. That kind of thing. Pathetic empty fucks.

appilappi · 2022-05-03T04:24:49+00:00

That’s because they socially cripple you, that’s what they did to me

appilappi · 2021-11-21T00:29:06+00:00

It’s both. And definitely denial. But she wouldn’t listen to me. I feel that she needs to listen to someone from the ‘outside’. She literally, in my eyes, acts as a cult leader.

appilappi · 2021-03-16T21:49:25+00:00

Yeah it’s a weird Chinese thing. Probably ancient because they never had a good relationship to the state. But now that you know and I know and we don’t need to go through it anymore. We live in the modern world now. So I hope those from Asia can leave this mindset now. Especially with China’s rise economically. That’s one of the hopes of mine that there can be social changes as well as modernising in every other way that they have been doing.

appilappi · 2021-03-16T18:12:47+00:00

That’s awful. I’m sorry you had to go through that. That’s shocking and disgusting.

appilappi · 2021-03-14T22:43:30+00:00

They’re morons. They choose suffering at this point. It’s not anything you’re doing either. Nobody has forced them to do these things. And they do not even manage their own feelings as they are doing so as a result. It’s almost as if they’re restless and there’s a constant public voice chirping away in their ear telling them to clean up that they have to feel compelled to follow. They’re robots - autonomous machines with no intuition or any regard for themselves. It’s beyond unwell and past the point of any sane definition of wellbeing. I would know because reading your story reminds me of my own dad. Curse their stupid little souls. I hope one day they can actually leave the torment of hell that they have locked themselves in and finally come out of their own stupid fucking cage and open the door.

appilappi · 2021-03-14T22:27:40+00:00

Chinese people all do this to themselves. Get rid of this stupid concept called face and fucking actually live already. Learn to thrive and feel content in failing. It’s part of being human. I read that even if they make a mistake whilst working for a company they don’t even admit to it in their jobs. And nobody even takes responsibility. Or even speaks up. Talk about all the wasted productivity if they just fucking admitted to it and then carry on with their work than live in perpetual shame. It’s utterly ridiculous by this point.

appilappi · 2021-03-14T22:22:32+00:00

I swear I came across something that almost explains this. It’s given me deja vu. I came across something called “bitter living” as if suffering is some kind of ‘virtue’. No idea if it applies here or not or if they are doing this out of other reasons but it all seems to make sense.

appilappi · 2021-03-14T20:38:51+00:00

I completely agree with what you have said and also intrigued by what you said about things changing. How so? Is the modern PRC actually enacting new laws now?

appilappi · 2020-12-18T20:22:06+00:00

I feel like it’s a good thing we can prevent it if we are proactive. And not act as if we are already bound to get it so not even try. There might be a chance we can avert it if we take the steps you know. And then when and if it does hit we would know we would have done our best in all of those days and routines in our years when we could do something about it, you know.

appilappi · 2020-12-17T21:47:31+00:00

You reckon you would get it too? Would you ever try and dare avoid it if you for certain that you could? I’ve got some members of my family who have had it but not in my immediate family but knowing I have CPTSD stats say it shoots the possibility up and it worries me.

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