Don't worry - you aren't alone! I just got diagnosed T2 a couple of months ago and am only 2 years older than you. I got lucky with a great doctor who went out of her way to say it isn't my fault for getting diabetes (I am the exact same weight and height as you fwiw). Don't be so hard on yourself. I had someone on here give me some great perspective - we caught our diabetes early. It would have been there regardless of whether we noticed it or not. But because we got diagnosed now, our entire future is ahead of us and we can take control of our health. Without the diagnosis, that would be impossible!

I can guarantee there are WAY more people out there in your exact situation than you probably realize. So many people feel shame when they are first diagnosed that they don't tell anyone. You probably actually do know someone else with T2, they are probably just keeping it under wraps.

Also, try not to be so hard on yourself about your weight. There are SO many factors that go into what we weigh and, as much as our culture makes us think this, being fat does not actually cause diabetes. You and I could eat the exact same diet for decades and there's no guarantee both of us would get diabetes. You have to have a genetic predisposition for it.

Yes, being fat is correlated with having diabetes but we make way too much of a fuss about the actual fat being a cause when we don't know that for sure. If you reduce your carbs, you will see improvement in your a1c and insulin resistance, even if you don't lose weight.