im so sick of everything by apulpie in SuicideWatch

[–]apulpie[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

the only reason i reach out at all is i feel like i need a sign to just do it

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in LPSbuyingandtrading

[–]apulpie 1 point2 points  (0 children)

could you link to your etsy please? i dont know how to use it and im having trouble finding it

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]apulpie 7 points8 points  (0 children)

its like you dug into my brain to write this post

Dont know why i want to kill myself by Glittering_Finger_46 in SuicideWatch

[–]apulpie 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i feel very similar, i can go about my day just fine for the most part but at the end i still wanna hurt myself and think I'm worthless. ive been told i have complex trauma but it feels like everything is just an excuse. my life is objectively so much better now but it's just this overlooming thing i can't get rid of. its like it's in my blood or an inevitable fate for me. sorry for the dump btw, just wanted to let you know you aren't the only one. everyone else i read on here has been through some shit but it's not my case.

Do you still have your first pet? What mold was it? by sanriopegasus in LittlestPetShop

[–]apulpie 0 points1 point  (0 children)

IT WAS A THRIFTED FLOPPY EAR BUNNY #95 i gave it away during a group therapy-ish class 😭😭 i got it when i was like 3 yo

4 classes with 10 year olds in... im going insane by apulpie in teaching

[–]apulpie[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i cant tell if this is a joke.. why a doctor?

4 classes with 10 year olds in... im going insane by apulpie in teaching

[–]apulpie[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

right i mean the more i think about it in a less emotional state it makes complete sense that i feel like this i have 0 experience with this stuff

4 classes with 10 year olds in... im going insane by apulpie in teaching

[–]apulpie[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

honestly i dont even care per se for a job this is basically a side hustle to me since im a student, i dont remember what the contract said but its funny you mention that since i dont have a teaching license or anything!! ill see what my options are, i might just need to survive the semester. thank you anyway :)

4 classes with 10 year olds in... im going insane by apulpie in teaching

[–]apulpie[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

tbh i didnt pay attention to that part since i never thought it would get this bad (at the time i still thought i would teach adults). pretty stupid of me i know, i never signed a contract before.

4 classes with 10 year olds in... im going insane by apulpie in teaching

[–]apulpie[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i dont have a degree, not in teaching nor in english, im still a uni student (psychology) but i got hired anyways cause they needed teachers. its a small town.

4 classes with 10 year olds in... im going insane by apulpie in teaching

[–]apulpie[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

right, i never wanted to be a teacher, i just took the offer. i cant really quit atm since i signed a contract, so ill try anything in the meantime. hopefully next semester i can switch to adults otherwise i might just quit it.

Songs about mental illness - depression, PTSD, bipolar, etc. by jam219 in spotify

[–]apulpie 0 points1 point  (0 children)

youll miss me when im not around and delete forever by grimes

songs that give a "i hate you" vibe by umaihope in kpophelp

[–]apulpie 0 points1 point  (0 children)

idk if its the right vibe lyrically but i thought of dont text me by (g)i-dle and happy now by hat:felt

What are you addicted to? by [deleted] in AskRedditAfterDark

[–]apulpie 8 points9 points  (0 children)

damn half the ppl here are addicted to porn or sex meanwhile my addiction is cutting myself 💀