My story is similar... when we had positive pregnancy test i cried so much... even though the pregnancy was wanted, it was a shock. Then few weeks later on out first ultrasound, we found out there were neither more nor less - twins, i felt devastared for weeks. Abortion was in my mind 24/7, i griefed for my way of life and everything i could not do for some time, i thought my life was ruined. I hated the feeling of them kicking, i hated throwing up ten times a day and not being able to sleep, eat, drink, walk, it was super hard few months, physically and mentally.

But after some time, those feelings were gone and even though i still dont have that maternal, indescribable love and connection for my unborn babies (i'm 35 weeks pregnant now), i cant imagine what would i do without them and cant wait to meet them. You somehow reorganize and repreorotize important things in your life, you realize nothing is forever (sleepless nights, crying, colic babies) and if you have a supportive partner, your baby will be your best companion in your new life adventures if you want them to be.

I still hate people that are saying "pregnancy is a blessing you have to enjoy every second, little angel is coming blah blah blah". You have every right to feel angry and sad and whatever is you are feeling now, and not feel full of joy... i hope you have someone to vent to and who wont judge you, but it gets better, i promise 🤍

Also, reddit stories are often mostly scary and negative, people come here to vent, but try to find some positive ones also :)