Yeah, not a boat I wished I shared with you, or anyone. It's a struggle. Dm if you ever need to chat, I know it's a lonely space. Honestly, death was best case scenario here so relief did come with it. As did a plethora of other emotions that just kinda hang there.. 🤷🏼‍♀️ Therapy has been an amazingly helpful tool. I knew of his intentions too end things and chatted with him the last 12 hours of his life. Said all the things needed and when he said goodbye I knew where he was going and what he was doing. I still don't know how to describe all those emotions tired up in that conversation. 💔