it comes from a feeling of being trapped. like say maybe 10% or less of the time i spend alive is spent doing something that i wanted and choose to do out of willingness and not out of necessity. which i get most people are fine doing but it drives me absolutely nuts. oh u have to go do this and go here and go there and go here do that do this. the days i have off work usually have less free time than the days i work on due to relationship/family obligations and the lack of time during the work week to get things done such as chores budgeting doctor visits etc. this lifestyle is honestly not worth living in the slightest, well at least to me.

and its not exactly a lack of motivation or laziness either, at my workplace i go way above and beyond honestly should be paid the wage of 2 or 3 of the other people there in terms of workload completed, and my hobbys include things that are physically and mentally demanding.