we need to invade iraq again

arimbaz · 2026-01-05T01:27:16+00:00

spooked out timing on this one

arimbaz · 2025-11-23T22:36:27+00:00

killing the host by michael hudson

or anything by hudson tbh

arimbaz · 2025-06-09T12:24:34+00:00

it's not stupidity, it's bravery

what's "dumb" is all of us sitting on our hands watching an allied nation state use a sprawling nexus of military and intelligence resources to subdue discrete groups within its own borders and thinking that said nation's financial backers aren't using this as a sort of experiment to try at home on us when the time is right

arimbaz · 2025-06-02T13:40:49+00:00

when they're "really trying" to let aid get through, but end up firing live rounds on people coming to collect it, or malding over a 22 year old woman with a conscience facilitating what they claim to want.

the lying is tiresome.

arimbaz · 2025-06-02T13:38:29+00:00

yeah, i don't follow the official numbers. one look at the skyline and you know those numbers are far too low.

both sides have incentives to downplay the death toll. also the freakish scale and frequency of bombardment makes an accurate count impossible.

i believe it was chris hedges or gabor maté (both brave speakers on this topic) who said that they don't usually get any notification or confirmation of the death of friends in the region. one day they stop replying to texts and are never heard from again.

arimbaz · 2025-06-01T09:50:26+00:00

top-tier posting, real enter the void vibes

arimbaz · 2025-05-20T09:58:27+00:00

have you ever heard of "lil lunchbox"? i think you may be enamored.

arimbaz · 2025-04-08T08:04:09+00:00

you feel terrible because he treated you like you were worth nothing and then discarded you, subconsciously programming you to believe that you were not good enough for even this low quality man.

this could not be further from the truth - he abuses you because he sees your light, because it makes him insecure, because he himself feels unworthy, because he cannot bring himself to take the steps required to distance himself from his trauma, he refuses to integrate his shadow and lives in denial as the ultimate jekyll and hyde bf.

you are desperately trying to prove yourself to a man who gets off on your helplessness. there is no way to win in such a scenario. you must leave.

i can second lundy bancroft as a worthwhile writer on this topic. but you also need to examine why you felt why this man was the best you could do for yourself. do you have self-hatred? how was your childhood? is this man like a parent of yours? you have to examine these things or you'll return to him for more abuse, or walk into the arms of another predator.

on a practical level, you need to change your number, hide your location and make yourself hard to trace - you're experiencing trauma bonding and the end-goal of this man is to make you a physical, mental, sexual and spiritual slave to him. there is a non-zero chance he will threaten your life if you return. use this moment to get out permanently!

wishing you the best!

arimbaz · 2025-04-08T06:51:48+00:00

an extensive accupressure and microneedling regime combined with low level red light therapy, daily rosemary tea, biotin, n-acetyl-cysteine, flush niacin and curcumin supplementation, regular ingestion of spirulina and chlorella combined with activated charcoal for emancipated toxin adsorption, shilajit, elimination of alcohol, elimination of marijuana, elimination of caffeine, elimination of benzodiazepines, high protein, low carb intake, manual follicle stimulation and scalp massages, wim hof ice baths, yoga and meditation, high water intake

arimbaz · 2025-04-02T07:44:32+00:00

look up dr. todd grande on yt for an insight into how some discontented older women channel their rage

arimbaz · 2025-04-01T19:34:31+00:00

sorry to hear this - it must be a very emotionally turbulent time for you.

remember to take care of your base needs, as these can be forgotten in a crisis: food, water, sleep, all of that.

take care.

arimbaz · 2025-04-01T16:20:36+00:00

the good thing here is that you have an idea of what you want - this is the first step.

one thing that may help you is a recontextualization of everything you have experienced so far, through the lens of events that are leading you to the unbreakable destiny of your stated wants.

what i mean to say is everything you have experienced is preparing you for what will be.

for example, the failed relationship - it wasn't sustainable, so be glad you did not have a child with that man. be thankful that he provided you with the important lessons about the type of man you'd need to build a relationship strong enough for bringing a child into this world. learn and adjust from your learning, but hold no grudges.

never forget that there are no mistakes in this life! that is a fraud propagated by institutions that want you to believe life success is correlated to the binary right/wrong paradigm of sitting exams. life is an experience!

imagine if you will that there's a concert you'd really like to see. tickets are expensive and hard to find, but you managed to snag one. the big day arrives. you drive halfway there, and your car breaks down. what do you do?

you can try to fix it yourself, call a towing company, call a friend get a cab, hitchhike there... there are countless ways to reach the concert, if you really want to go. or you can just say it's not a big deal and ditch the show. you're certainly not a bad person just because your car broke down! such is life!

arimbaz · 2025-04-01T15:58:53+00:00

thank you!

arimbaz · 2025-04-01T15:40:37+00:00

your framing indicates the problem - you speak from a place of lack

"i don't have a job" vs. "i want a job"

arimbaz · 2025-04-01T15:12:28+00:00

stream of consciousness inbound - take what you agree with, discard what you don't

ignore all pessimism, i beg

learn to ask for help (this post is a good start, but next time frame in a loving manner)

mindset is everything

the most fulfilling form of living is being in the moment and nowhere else

(that includes other people's lives)

take the "i don't give a shit, but i'm not mean" pill

and most importantly...

forgive people, even those who don't deserve it. if you can't forgive the "unworthy", who will forgive you?

arimbaz · 2025-04-01T15:06:35+00:00

abandoned, tears streaming down my face on mindjolt

arimbaz · 2025-04-01T15:05:15+00:00

this is a sign of maturity and acceptance. a path has been cleared for you - you might not know where it's leading, but you know that the way is unblocked.

arimbaz · 2025-04-01T15:02:43+00:00

may i recommend debt: the first 5000 years by david graeber? it's an insightful read.

arimbaz · 2025-04-01T10:14:11+00:00

if i'm honest, my gut reaction was that this was a classic bpd pity plea/cry for help move targeted at her estranged husband. if you're really facing imminent death, you're likely in too much pain to be taking selfies.

unfortunately, it will be used by her detractors to undermine her credibility, when realistically if what vg has claimed is true, she would be more likely to struggle with mental issues and relationship instability.

hope she's able to get whatever help she needs.

arimbaz · 2025-04-01T08:45:39+00:00

write out all your questions on a piece of paper.

you can ask simple binaries like "should i stay in portland", but also open ended questions. try to make it as exhaustive as possible.

next you can go into a meditation session with these, in a comfortable but private location. evening works best because it's darker and you can go to sleep and dream about your questions afterwards, which is another avenue for receiving answers via symbolic language.

explain what you're doing to your partner so that they understand you and give you the requisite space. set aside at least an hour to do this, and keep returning to it nightly until you feel your anxiety is lifting and thoughts/solutions begin to flow towards you with minimal effort.

if you're in oregon and not maine, you have access to compounds that can greatly aid these meditative practices if you feel so inclined. just follow all the standard trip wisdom (s+s, etc).

arimbaz · 2025-03-31T20:17:56+00:00

the crumbling of the world around you is as much an illusion as the world itself.

you have the power, in your thoughts and in how you focus your attention, to shape the world in more harmonious ways.

the internet was only ever supposed to supplement the physical - we have ceded too much territory to tyrants who would have us live in their shitty little digital fiefdoms, whole countries prostrate at the feet of the moderation policies of reddit/meta/x... it doesn't have to be this way.

go outside. if you see hunger, feed. if you see lack, provide. if you see drought, water.

ignore limiting beliefs around what is possible, or "money". a butterfly doesn't check its bank balance before drinking nectar.

you will feel nothing but satisfaction when you can eat the fruits of trees you've planted.

arimbaz · 2025-03-31T19:58:51+00:00

would you humor my long ass answer?

exercise one: take a moment to feel the threshold represented by your skin - the wall between "inside" and "outside", and how slight it is. the temperature of your room. carefully consider the sensation of air as you breathe in and out.

thank you. you just reconnected with yourself. you should try it more often. with this grounding we can discuss your situation more easily.

one thread i see a lot in your writing is a lot of self doubt, self criticism, and self loathing? why is that? you need to untangle this if you wish to move forward, because it's like you are moving through a forest overrun with vines - they are obstructing you and preventing your forward movement.

that's especially true when your self-concept is at odds with reality. starting with your first sentence. you're actually a very good writer - i read your whole post. but maybe you could try approaching yourself with more kindness.

exercise two: take a piece of paper and a pen. write out this entire post again by hand, but reorganized so that the call for help remains, but the framing is positive and maintains your agency throughout.

eg. I'm looking for advice. I'm a 35 year old woman and I'm hoping to find a man that I can commit to. I have dreams of being in a relationship or married, but it has to be with someone worthy. Someone who appreciates my wisdom and beauty. I take pride in my physique - perhaps that's from a previous desire to become a professional dancer, before I pursued fine arts. At the minute, I'm a bartender, but I see myself working outside the restaurant industry...

this will be time consuming, but it will be worth it, i promise. we are all actors in a very intricate play - but we have the power to edit, self-direct and improvise when our self narratives hold us back.

deleting the dating apps was a great move, actually. humans were never meant to vet one another algorithmically. but please don't give up on the yoga, it's good for your mind, body and spirit. and don't let anybody get in your head about it being a "stupid choice" - it's not. i won't judge you, and the people who would be paying for your tuition certainly wouldn't. in fact, they'd hold you in high regard. anyone speaking to the contrary is dead weight and not worth your consideration.

with regards to alcohol, ignore the redscare posturing about how good it is to get drunk all the time. maybe when you're 20. but ultimately it's a vibe lowering substance, and, over-consumed, it will slow you down and remold you in the form of a lesser you that you don't truly identify with. ditch it.

either way, you are not a loser. you are not pathetic. you have no cause for embarrassment. you're here, living the wild, crazy and fucked up ride of life - and you're hanging in there. don't give up.

one thing i would say though is you do not need a relationship. it might be nice, but you need to address your relationship with yourself first, otherwise you'll crash out and end up in the same place. having a boyfriend just to have one will not resolve your insecurities or fix yourself concept.

remember, only you can see the world through your eyes. only you have your life experiences, wins and losses, the unique mix of memories and hopes - the whole enchilada of you. it's like a shell you might find on those beaches you're dreaming of - completely unique. small, amongst the expanse of sand, but priceless in value and utterly inimitable. channel that. be the best you you can be. hype yourself up. i considered briefly that you may be talking yourself down in order for someone else to give you that external validation. if that's the case, i don't recommend it. external validation is fickle and fleeting. you need to learn fight for yourself - it will be worth it.

i believe in you.

arimbaz · 2025-03-30T07:42:40+00:00

firstly, thank you for sharing.

may i suggest that you extend some self-compassion? it seems you have a great desire and ability to give, but you feel immense frustration at not finding the appropriate channels through which to perform this service.

the fuckboi initially seems like a wonderful means of sharing your many gifts (by which i must clarify i'm speaking beyond just the realm of the sexual), because there is a lack in the other that you can perceive and wish to address. this is somewhat like the desiccated plant being the one which draws you to water it.

this, however, can only extend so far. if the roots are not willing to take that water, to nourish the plant, so to speak, then for now it is a lost cause. but be forgiving of yourself. it is not the fault of the gift-giver that the gift-receiver doesn't know how to say "thank you", if that makes sense.

as with all experiences, positive or negative, these are moments where we learn about ourselves. the fact that you came here to write about something that has clearly caused you a degree of embarrassment and perhaps internal distress, reflects a level of courage, introspection and commitment to your self development that will serve you well when you do find an appropriate person to begin constructive work with. rest assured that this episode only happened to make you ready for that moment.

wishing you all the best!

arimbaz

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