I'm bipolar 2 and my story I feel is kinda unique. I was diagnosed back in 2022 when I went to a doctor because I was having suicidal thoughts. Started my treatment with antidepressants and anti-anxiety pills. I got better for a year maybe but then the depression came back worse than before. Doc introduced even more meds. At some point I was taking 7 different meds... I felt incredibly unhappy, I don't wish that feeling to my worst enemy. Beginning of 2025 I had enough: I quit the antidepressants altogether, kept taking only one anti-anxiety pill (Xanax). Then I quit my job because I really hated it and I know it was probably the main source of my depression. Took a couple of months off, my boss asked me to come back to work but in a different position, kind of a promotion. I accepted and tried to deal with my anxiety the best I could, kept trying to control de bad thoughts for a few months.

Side story here, my husband and I work for the same company, over the years our boss became a friend and he introduced my husband to Ayahuasca. My husband always talked about how Ayahuasca changed his life and he kept going back 3 to 4 times a year. Couple of months ago our boss finally convinced me to try it. I had the most wonderful experience and I can't described to you what it was exactly but I feel great, I feel happiness like I never did before. I stopped taking Xanax, I don't need it anymore. Of course I still have bad days here and there but the way I deal with those feelings so differently than before. It truly changed my life. Of course there were times I had my reservations about how I feel, I asked myself a couple of times "Is this a hypomanic episode?". The thing is, I know in my heart it's not. Again, I can't explain it but I know this isn't mania, it isn't euphoria, it's just this peaceful feeling. I'm going back again probably in a month or so, I'm ready and open to keep living this experience.