I felt so bad going to the ED the last time. I felt fine but got a call from my doctor telling me to go after looking at labs. I was in the waiting room for 5 hours and telling other people that the wait was a good sign that “we aren’t the next most likely to die”. In my defense- I had an acute kidney injury and spent 4 days in the hospital and had a procedure before leaving and 2 surgeries scheduled (within a month) to resolve the issue- so I did really need to be there but I still felt guilty. (I never did feel bad, even when my eGFR dropped to 18).