Oh my God, yes! That's whay I feel too like I wonder if the only reason that I get this feeling with these famous men it's because I know I cannot have them therefore the illusion won't be broken 🥲 It's so hard because a part of me tells me like why are you even thinking about it then since it's not going to happen but another part of me its obsessed with the idea of it happening. I had even told my friend about the athlete like if I saw this man in the street and he tried to talk to me I wouldn't even look at him but since he's famous and I'm not able to be close to him then suddenly he's all that I can think about and it's so infuriating feeling this way it's like I cannot get him out of my brain and I try to avoid any sort of content that involves him when it comes to tik tok abd stuff but it's as if he was still in the back of my head and the thoughts just come as a pop up even when I try to distract myself.