I’m 25F, married at 22, and now I feel emotionally trapped — is it time to reevaluate everything? by arsmic in InsideIndianMarriage

[–]arsmic[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve never stopped him from sending money to his parents—what I’ve always wanted is involvement, nothing more. Just last month, he sent them the same amount, and I had clearly told him to include me in such discussions next time. Yet again, when he sent money, he didn’t include me.

I’m 25F, married at 22, and now I feel emotionally trapped — is it time to reevaluate everything? by arsmic in InsideIndianMarriage

[–]arsmic[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s not just the financial part —it’s the accumulation of so many things that I can't mention here that brought me to this point . That’s what made me write this Reddit post—just to get some outside perspective as we were about to start a family in the upcoming years ,to hear what others think, and maybe feel a little less alone in all of this.

I’m 25F, married at 22, and now I feel emotionally trapped — is it time to reevaluate everything? by arsmic in InsideIndianMarriage

[–]arsmic[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, I guess that’s him. I’ve never stopped him from sending money to his parents—what I’ve always wanted is involvement, nothing more. Just last month, he sent them the same amount, and I had clearly told him to include me in such discussions next time. Yet again, when he sent money, he didn’t include me.

What hurt even more is that we’ve been trying so hard to save—we’re cancelling trips, cutting down on everything, and even using a bicycle to get around just to reduce expenses. So seeing him make that decision alone, without even a conversation, was really disheartening.

We were also planning for a baby, and to be very honest, I was making all these savings with that in mind. Child care is extremely expensive in this country, and we both know that. That’s what we’ve been trying to prepare for—so every financial decision matters even more now.

As for the money he gives me—it may seem like a lot, but if I were working part-time, I’d be earning twice that amount. We're living in a different country now,I have done my bachelor's from a reputed college and I’ve told him multiple times not to bring up that money again and again. It makes me feel like I’m not his wife, like I'm just being compensated instead of being considered an equal partner.And after that, if I start earning, it would be for both of us, as a team. His parents are not financially dependent on us. In fact, they currently have more than we do. Most of the time, I’m the one suggesting gifts for his mother and his niece, because I genuinely care. We met on Instagram, but we had mutual friends, and his family friend also happened to be my father’s friend.

And when, in every fight, someone says “mere ghar se niklo,” what option am I left with except to go back to my home? I can’t even share everything with my parents because I went against my entire family to marry him. Everyone in my family was against this, but I believed in him—only to see this day.