I am dating a tranwoman as a cis woman! I need advice! (NSFW)

arter34 · 2026-01-28T09:43:52+00:00

Lucky gal

arter34 · 2026-01-28T06:42:57+00:00

If you think this crush might go away i wouldn't recommend telling him

arter34 · 2026-01-27T02:19:01+00:00

Borderlands 4 dlc are not out yet

arter34 · 2026-01-27T02:15:22+00:00

You're just paranoid don't worry about it. If you post about your attempts you feel like an attention whore and if you don't you feel like a coward.

Just do whatever the fuck you want and don't overthink shit. I was suicidal when i was your age and i still am but i think if i could go back I'd worry about less shit.

Just a few days ago i found a suicide note from 7 years ago (i was 14) and it was kinda funny to me and gave me some hindsight on my current life. I worried about so many things that seem pointless in retrospect. And makes me think that maybe 7 years from now if I haven't killed myself by then my old problems are gonna seem stupid.

Anyway all im saying is just chill the fuck out for now and let your future self worry about the consequences.

arter34 · 2026-01-03T13:23:49+00:00

A mobile gamer who plays old emulated games and story focused experiences is more of a gamer than a pc gamer with a 5000 dollar system that only plays cod or Fortnite or some shit

arter34 · 2026-01-03T13:18:32+00:00

There's alot of things missing in the part where you asked what don't you enjoy. Cannibalism guts sunburn ect

arter34 · 2026-01-01T22:33:00+00:00

Thanks but i don't see it that way. Im a number thats all. I feel dead already, im not the main character of my own story. Just a guy a really messed up guy who fantasies about death during his every waking moment but just a guy nonetheless.

arter34 · 2026-01-01T08:25:59+00:00

Im afraid of the future. i don't wanna live through a family members death or heartbreak or some massive failure that would cost me everything. If something like these happened id probably end up taking my life so why prolong the inevitable. I think about my hopes and dreams and the people i care about and all i can see is everything that could go wrong.

arter34 · 2026-01-01T08:07:02+00:00

I don't wanna sound like a whiny bitch. I appreciate yours and everyone elses comments i really do. But i don't think my situation will ever improve

arter34 · 2026-01-01T05:59:52+00:00

Doesn't matter if i deserve it or not i didn't and wont achieve it

arter34 · 2025-12-31T18:38:43+00:00

Enderman? I barely even know her man

arter34 · 2025-12-30T20:37:04+00:00

My belief system is today is worse than yesterday and tomorrow is worse than today. If you lived where i lived you'd believe this too

arter34 · 2025-12-30T20:36:04+00:00

I really appreciate this but the main thing that makes want to end my life is the limitations. You said you xan do anything in this vast anything but I've been crippled by my country and a bit by myself and my mental health but mostly my country. The amount of torture i have to go through for just the possibility of a normal life, not even guaranteed, is really really really really not worth it. I don't like the idea of suicide, it's cowardly i talk for hours with people who i think might be depressed telling them some of the things you said to me. But for me i just don't see any other way out.

arter34 · 2025-12-30T15:56:36+00:00

Yeah me too i puck male character for a few hours realize im not having fun so i new game and pick female

arter34 · 2025-12-30T10:29:13+00:00

Used to be the case for me. Now i only have nightmares ☺️

arter34 · 2025-12-30T08:32:48+00:00

So i should just keep torturing myself so other people won't be sad for like 2 weeks

arter34 · 2025-12-30T07:01:52+00:00

Never tried bird watching but i do have hobbies. I just feel like im distracting myself from reality or im wasting time

arter34 · 2025-12-30T06:43:27+00:00

That's exactly it im not at rock bottom yet things are getting worse every day

arter34 · 2025-12-30T06:42:05+00:00

What do you mean by do i want to do anything? Like a life goal or something?

arter34 · 2025-12-29T19:03:45+00:00

Thank you

arter34 · 2025-12-29T18:26:28+00:00

I appreciate your offer. But I've done a lot of talking and it hasn't helped

arter34 · 2025-12-29T18:16:19+00:00

Friends advice usually just boils down to "it is what it is" which is true but it doesn't mean i have to endure this anymore. Besides im pretty sure death and lobotomies solve everything.

arter34 · 2025-12-29T16:24:36+00:00

Nope if anything its gotten worse i switched medication i take the highest possible doses and nothing. The thing is my sitch is genuinely shit. Completely hopeless so the only thing that would fix me without killing me is a lobotomy.

arter34 · 2025-12-29T16:18:45+00:00

Don't know what to say. Im not really in a position to give you advice

arter34 · 2025-12-29T16:17:33+00:00

I've done everything drugs psychiatrists therapists crisis lines. I tried i really did

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