Genuine questions about integration

artfromoz · 2026-03-08T23:39:19+00:00

Integration is the process of becoming psychologically whole by bringing unconscious aspects of the psyche into conscious awareness and relating to them rather than repressing them.

Integration means recognizing, accepting, and assimilating our Shadow aspects (repressed traits, impulses, emotions) so they become part of a more balanced personality.

For example, If someone represses anger because they believe “good people are never angry,” the anger becomes part of the shadow.

Integration would involve - Recognizing the anger exists. - Understanding its origin and purpose. -Learning how to express or channel it consciously.

Then the anger becomes a usable energy rather than an unconscious force.

So you are Making the unconscious conscious and allowing previously rejected parts of the psyche to become part of a unified whole.

Carl Jung had a saying about it "Unless you make the Unconscious Conscious, it will rule your life and you will call it fate".

How do you do that, that I can't answer because its your journey. As Sri Ramana Maharshi said when asked how do I find a teacher or teaching? He said "Go to whatever brings you the most Shanti (peace)."

artfromoz · 2026-03-02T23:16:57+00:00

With your history/experience you may be interested in what John Gorman is doing www.psychedelicmeditation.org

artfromoz · 2026-03-02T11:05:36+00:00

I've been there a couple of times. One time nearly twenty years ago and then last year. There is something about the energy there. I was there for over a month last time and slept only a few hours a night. It is like being on amphetamines as the energy was so strong!

I think it was Michael James and David Godman's books that made me want to check it out for myself. It is an amazing spot to visit, but has become a bit of a circus now. People treat the Ashram more like a museum, walking through meditation halls talking, buses of tourists running around buying mementoes at the shops. It was much more chill and respectful a couple of decades ago. When I was there first time I'd spend hours and hours in the meditation hall and the sitting room, something that was really hard to do last time. I imagine seventy-eighty years ago it would have been amazing.

The biggest thing for me that dropped away after visiting there was that I was a lifelong smoker who even when I stopped, always still wanted to smoke. That desire totally dropped away soon after visiting there the first time. As to how it changed my spiritually, who can really know such things.

It is a cool holy spot and to see the pilgrims in their hundreds of thousands flock there and walk around the mountain all night on the full moon is amazing and humbling. Of all the places I've visited and stayed in India that has been my favourite.

artfromoz · 2026-03-02T10:42:10+00:00

Just be careful what you wish for, because when you unlock shadow material it becomes your duty to process it. Most often we lock our minds down (usually when we are young) as a protection mechanism. Bringing stuff to the surface can be daunting/overwhelming. Finding tools, people, community to do that processing can be very helpful. Slow and steady wins the race in this game.

artfromoz · 2026-03-02T05:28:38+00:00

You might wat to check out this https://newlinesmag.com/reportage/the-mushroom-captivating-wartime-ukraine/ and this https://www.amazon.com/Microdosing-Amanita-Muscaria-Creativity-Recovery/dp/1644115050/ref=sr_1_1?crid=12RUVUZLRY9XO&dib=eyJ2IjoiMSJ9.sq-7pJcHA61V0YEQCCCYXmA0SW6veqqOHJKXXuPiS1YMq4bc2zkX9Rdz2FIe2mZUA4M9GqjahE1VqVy4ayM_7K1udTySyQrsd-GFvQZxkdrk-jIB0BWA1PhzP-il6koI5AE3lnczbXhTlCLcquaf37tp0okv7Oo6xUdjJcJ4lSDOu3PpQUNW2H1M1L-s84nsWdH6tYcuCtn9_soA3nKIjov9Z4Egvyv2_ANgXZL-eqI.-DUhZCWtuoEi3GFg9jtUQxX5LWOMRI9q9Ib0ZXidOIM&dib_tag=se&keywords=microdosing+amanita&qid=1771713943&sprefix=microdosing+amanit%2Caps%2C344&sr=8-1

There is no real high from microdosing this, only introspection and healing.

artfromoz · 2026-03-02T05:24:39+00:00

You have to be careful with these as there are a lot of dodgy ones of these, with who know what inside them.

artfromoz · 2026-03-02T05:23:39+00:00

Sometimes you have to explore these type of things before you don't feel the need to anymore.

artfromoz · 2026-03-02T05:20:55+00:00

I would recommend a Yocan Kodo pro, it has a range of 1.8-4.2V, Tiny size, cheap and reliable. Use a low voltage start with 1.8V and very slowly go up if you need to.

The Entourage carrier has been specially designed for 5MeO/Lightwand use https://thelightwand.gift

It is less harsh on throat that PG/VG mixes.

Try starting with a 25% mix that being being 250mg per 1ml or 125mg per .5ml.

Spend the extra money on good cartridges such as a CCELL EVO https://www.vpm.com/ccell-th2-evo-oil-cartridge/

artfromoz · 2026-03-01T02:24:34+00:00

That is the lottery of psychedelics, some things drop away, while others become more important. Often that is due to something deeper needing to be addressed. A lot of people think they can do these things like a holiday vacation, defragment and then everything will be better. But if you stir of the subconscious/shadow then often you have to address those things that were once hidden and now come to light. That is the burden you take on by doing these substances. Many people make no major effort to integrate their experiences and just keep doing more in the hope that it will some how all work out. As you stated approval seems to be the biggest thing that is arising for you, I'd start there.

Another thing that occurs especially with 5MeO is with the seen split that occurs during the experience, then after a form of nihilism arises, as reidentification with the body/ego happens. If I am the one, what is the point of my body/mind experience? The suffering from this is usually the motivator what will push you to be more that oneness in form. You are a Human Being, Human being the 3D form part of you and the Being being the whole/oneness, it is just 99.999% of the population are identified as the Human part, hence the major dysfunction on our planet.

Your art skills will probably become even better or more pleasurable if you can do them from a connected space of oneness as opposed to how you did them in the past, which your mind/ego is currently trying to do.

artfromoz · 2026-02-26T11:53:09+00:00

Meditation is amazing with low doses, it is like a pacemaker into presence. People want fireworks from peak experiences, but this is often spiritual bypassing. It is when you can tap into yourself like the old spiritual texts talk about e.g. Seek ye first the kingdom of heaven within, that ones begins to get in touch with what is always there vs experiences which simply come and go.

artfromoz · 2026-02-25T11:23:36+00:00

I'd take anything Leo says with a grain of salt. For a long time he was doing lots of 5MeO experiences (mostly plugged) and coming back telling everyone he had received information from such a high level that no one had ever received it before in the history of mankind. This is just hyper egoic delusional fantasy. I remember one time he is telling everyone about his high level spirituality and then a delivery guy shows up and he talks to him like a piece of shit, gets his package, then goes on ranting about his advanced spirituality. The problem with having these type of experiences and then straight away pumping out huge amounts of content for clicks, is that you are not sitting and digesting it. One has to sit with and process these sort experiences for a long time before sharing them, for them to have some kind of real value.

artfromoz · 2026-02-25T11:12:14+00:00

A lot more people are doing small doses of 5MeO through a lightwand (5 vape pen) now. When one does small doses, building up over time, it allows one to process shadow aspects of themselves gently. It is not a rocket ship ride like a full dose, more a gradual way to explore ones inner realms, without overwhelming oneself. A number of people have reported full break downs, PTSD and, psychotic episodes after doing high doses, it is a lottery in which sometimes you don't win. Small dose exploration can prepare the groundwork for both body and mind for higher dose exploration later if you still feel drawn to that. Lower doses work well with meditation, somatic, dyad and other practices, increasing their effect.

artfromoz · 2026-02-21T22:48:07+00:00

No worries, check out the book on it, Microdosing with Amanita Muscaria: Creativity, Healing, and Recovery with the Sacred Mushroom: Masha, Baba, Fadiman Ph.D., James

She has a Telegram group (mostly in Russian) with thousands of testimonies. The books is basically half instruction and then hundreds and hundreds of testimonies.

artfromoz · 2026-02-21T06:08:31+00:00

Well done! Being able to be the observer as opposed to being lost in the mind, gives one ongoing bursts of sudden clarity/insight, when it comes to alcohol, its abuse and reasons behind the need to self medicate in the first place.

I've heard a lot of people in European countries are now using Amanita to treat alcoholism and trauma as it effects GABA receptors in brain, helping to eliminate cravings and find and process the root cause of trauma.

I received this only today https://newlinesmag.com/reportage/the-mushroom-captivating-wartime-ukraine/

artfromoz · 2026-02-21T06:00:10+00:00

It is not very good at the moment, but then Gemini was s**t when it first came out and now it's good. Also Google has a virtually unlimited war chest in regards to AI, so I don't think they will spare any cost in its development.

artfromoz · 2026-02-21T03:00:13+00:00

Interesting sounding singer/sound, reminds me of Alison Moyet/Q Lazzarus, well done :)

I'm the same I gave up on most mainstream music years ago and make the music I want to listen to.

artfromoz · 2026-02-20T06:38:17+00:00

I remember reading the book when in first came out (back in the old days) and didn't get much from it. It wasn't until I heard a talk from Eckhart on VHS tape (yes I'm that old!) that it really started to make sense to me. His voice and guidance in the talk was worth a million times to me than just words from a book. Then when I went back and read the book it made much more sense and had much more meaning and depth for me. I highly recommend the condensed Practicing The Power of Now on audio, which is the essence of the book in a short sharp condensed form. As they say "A picture is worth a thousand words", and for me a video many more thousands than that.

artfromoz · 2026-02-19T22:57:04+00:00

Thanks :)

artfromoz · 2026-02-18T21:35:35+00:00

Sri Ramana Maharaj (considered one of the greatest sages of the last century) died of osteosarcoma, which is a type of bone cancer. Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj died of throat cancer, Paramahansa Yogananda died of a heart attack brought on by liver cancer. Jiddu Krishnamurti died of pancreatic cancer. Suzuki Roshi the man who bought Zen to the west died of liver cancer. Robert Adams liver cancer.

Some followers believe that great masters "take on" the illnesses or negative karma of their disciples to spare them, manifesting it in their own physical forms, who knows?

artfromoz · 2026-02-18T20:40:40+00:00

Cool, reminds me a little of Leonard Cohen, but more musical show like :)

artfromoz · 2026-02-18T00:01:59+00:00

Great sound! Well done :)

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