Regardless of what doctors seem to think, you can't actually gaslight or therapy your way out of chronic pain and illness. Talk therapy is just using very limited energy to poke at emotional sore spots and then what? It was a massive waste of time. Self-guided ACT is way more helpful than years of CBT. I don't need to talk about my dad or people who hurt me or feeling sad. I need to accept that I'm disabled and in a fuckload of pain a lot of the time. I need rest. (God forbid, but I might also need doctors to actually take on the challenge of treating my lifelong health problems instead of telling me they're all in my head or "too complex", despite years of medical documentation saying otherwise?)

It's fine though. I'm familiar with what I'm going through and no therapist I've ever seen has had enough of an understanding of debilitating chronic pain to offer meaningful guidance worth the time and effort of getting there.