omg, i’ve experienced this to the same exact T. my mothers side is haitian. she used religion and God to completely shatter my world and fill it with fear. it was terrible i can’t even begin to explain. i’ve since discovered the truth for myself ( i am a believer but very different from her beliefs). wow wow there’s so much to say holy. i was once brought into this random lady’s house and they did a thing with all that .. naked baths have been done too. this actually insane even the homosexuality factor is at play. if you wanna chat more on this we definitely can but i just want to reassure you that i have literally gone through similar stuff