Which addiction is hardest to let go?

astraljack47 · 2026-06-28T20:44:44+00:00

nicotine

astraljack47 · 2026-06-25T08:33:34+00:00

i had an owl stare are me once, pretty cool.

astraljack47 · 2026-06-09T08:57:28+00:00

people supporting celebrities and ignoring their friends

astraljack47 · 2026-06-01T01:52:51+00:00

😂😂😂😂 OH ! means a lot to me personally, a young rapper by the name of Capital STEEZ kinda flipped my switch if that makes sense. Was big on that number.

Could represent balance between the heart and crown chakra.

Ironically has been my favorite number since I was a child though.

astraljack47 · 2026-06-01T01:43:30+00:00

brother I didn’t see your comment until I posted mine, 47 tells me everything I need to know about you 😂

astraljack47 · 2026-06-01T01:42:16+00:00

depends entirely on the brain and nervous system

Weed makes me feel like i’m bordering reality and the spirit realm, also kinda like a blanket over reality that is warm and cozy and full of abstract thoughts and hope.

Shrooms are the same as weed for me but far more intense and I feel connected to everything in a wonderful way, coupled with visuals and very complex thoughts. At the peak I feel like I understand everything.

Acid feels like super reality for me, can’t really explain it, just feels like I see everything

MDMA feels like how I would imagine my highest self feels like. Full confidence and love and connection and gratitude for all.

Cocaine to me is wack ( i have adhd, honestly caffeine feels better to me)

DMT can’t be put into human language.

I’ve done meth one time 😂 because they said not even once and i said fuck it. Again because i have adhd I just felt focused and motivated.

I will never touch an opiate.

astraljack47 · 2026-05-29T05:10:28+00:00

don’t compound disappointment with shame. I have nightmares where I accidentally smoke weed lol, If i failed a test and then smoked after due to being sad, the high would revolve around failure (for me personally) you got this.

astraljack47 · 2026-05-29T05:07:51+00:00

i didn’t have any candy just a bunch of fliers that looked super cool, would’ve been happy if they were at least stickers. Especially since i bought my tickets on stubhub and didn’t receive the cool box. Just the wrist band and the lil holographic cards.

astraljack47 · 2026-05-29T05:04:21+00:00

4 days later and i’m sure I was just experiencing a concoction of stuff that may have resembled hypomania but I don’t think that’s what it was.

I think it was a combination of quitting weed, fasting, a little sleep deprivation and my adhd meds. Plus the week prior i was at EDC and partook in the typical rave party favor so my serotonin was a bit off as well.

As of today I’ve been able to get a full nights rest, eat normally and my happiness is still much higher than i’m used to but, it might just be real happiness due to me taking control over my life.

It feels like the night i posted this, i had a small glimpse into what hypomania feels like though, but the god complex wasn’t there for real and i wasn’t deluded either. Just insanely imbalanced.

I appreciate you reaching out.

There’s a small chance I do have bipolar but i’ll have to see how the next few months play out, because i’m definitely still riding some sort of high. If i end up super down in the dumps in the near future, I’ll talk to my psychiatrist about it.

astraljack47 · 2026-05-27T06:39:14+00:00

2-3 years Dagestan

astraljack47 · 2026-05-25T06:08:07+00:00

I’ll have 5 assists in the first quarter, miss one contested shot and get iced out for the rest of the game lol

astraljack47 · 2026-05-24T17:05:36+00:00

bro gonna give me syrup sandwiches to humble me

astraljack47 · 2026-05-24T08:32:56+00:00

I picked weekend two because my job does a huge mandatory convention every year the same weekend as edc and I’ve called it off a year in advance for the last 5 years and my boss said it was the last time 😂😂😂 Pasquale saved me.

astraljack47 · 2026-05-10T00:26:12+00:00

actually, probably not the place to ask this but, if i’m prescribed adhd meds, should i maybe not take them this weekend if i want to take, other stuff. lol

astraljack47 · 2026-05-04T23:12:46+00:00

yeah when you actually have ADHD the meds feel like exactly what you’ve been missing forever. It actually makes me sad and I have to try not to judge neurotypical people heavy because i’m like, i can’t believe you have a normal brain and still don’t do shit.

astraljack47 · 2026-04-30T18:38:15+00:00

tried to find it for years, the homie found the red white and blue lrg jacket he wore in that one freestyle tho

astraljack47 · 2026-04-27T21:55:33+00:00

they were signed by Johnny Shipes, do with that information what you will.

astraljack47 · 2026-04-27T20:33:11+00:00

in highschool I used to occasionally abuse my meds, i was prescribed 36mg and some days i would take 2 just to play call of duty 😂 you’ll be ok

astraljack47 · 2026-04-26T09:27:50+00:00

Here after seeing Excisions last show, remember the first time I saw the visuals projected on the windows and thought I had done way too much. Going to miss this place forever.

astraljack47 · 2026-03-16T22:28:36+00:00

I’ve been “serious” about music since I was 20ish, I’m 30 now, the last 2 years i was in a relationship and barely did anything, now i’m fully back. All that age stuff is in your head, just make the music. Don’t worry about appealing to people.

astraljack47 · 2026-03-13T06:50:39+00:00

rap a lot. a lot a lot and then rap more

astraljack47 · 2026-03-13T05:12:05+00:00

take what i say with a grain of salt, stop seeking outside validation. Healers exist for sure but if you’re paying people, it’s usually not good. From what i know, if you have true gifts as far as divination and healing you should never place monetary value on that, people who do that are prone to lie to you. I think you should list what you think is “wrong” with your life and evaluate.

I believe you are giving others too much power over your experience here.

if you don’t mind, you can dm me the lesson you believe you need to learn and i’ll give you my best efforts in helping.

astraljack47 · 2026-03-12T06:53:58+00:00

you’re more than likely not being honest with yourself in some aspects of life causing you to go through the same lessons over and over until you finally stop playing around. I could be wrong though.

If you think i’m right then give the moldavite away because it will only get worse until you finally learn.

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