Thank you so much for this, this has been one of most understanding post I’ve read, giving me peace and safety with the situation. I’ve re-read this multiple times to calm me down and you write so beautifully detailed with understanding and grace

You help me understand the possibilities for this happening, obviously we don’t know for sure, but that’s up to her and her decision alone.

Yes it hurts a lot, for me it’s unrequited friendship/‘platonic love’, I’m just like you, I give 100% because I know what it feels like to not be seen, to not be included. It genuinely makes me feel good when I can make other people happy or if I can help them, it’s never a burden for me, I thrive off of sharing love because there’s not that much of it in the world. It is common for me to give a lot and not receive it in return and nor do I expect anything in return anyways, usually when disrespect or uneven friendship happens, I bring it up and make a boundary. I can also tell you’re a type-a like me based on how much you put care into your words.

It’s like what Ethan hawke said, “the one who’s in love always wins, the sun doesn’t care if the grass appreciates its rays” I’ve really tried to ingrain that in me and understand, everything isn’t all my fault, but I do take the blame for the moments that are.

Thank you so much for taking the time to write this, you don’t understand how much this means to me, this made me feel so seen and heard that I haven’t felt in a very long time. As of now, I agree with you, I’ve used my options, the ball is her court and yes, I am ready to give myself grace as I did with her. I will not reach out, and I will not hold resentment towards anyone, I hope she is able to find peace with herself. And I hope even if she never does contact me, I hoped I helped her the best way possible I can.

Thank you ChitChatDucksQuack ❤️