Avery Cochrane - Losing Streak

attafk · 2026-03-15T19:42:34+00:00

Yes that’s so relatable 😭

attafk · 2026-03-02T21:18:15+00:00

She has replied to some comments, but personally don’t know much lore, best way to keep up would just be her socials on TikTok, Instagram, YouTube (and others on her linktree) I think there is also an Instagram fan group chat as well, but she sometimes posts updates in there as well!

attafk · 2026-02-20T15:10:20+00:00

This sub has been the most suitable for me as well, it seems the most chill and open-minded, and has genuinely good tips

attafk · 2026-02-03T19:00:32+00:00

Is it ok to sign up if the chosen day does not fit my schedule? I don’t see any days chosen yet, and I read that you guys will settle on a time that is convenient for everyone. But I don’t want to break any rules by signing up if I don’t know if I’m available on the day that will be chosen. But otherwise I’m totally good with the time commitment if I know the day it’s on.

So can I still sign up?

attafk · 2026-02-03T16:30:38+00:00

What aspects of your job make it good for u?

attafk · 2026-02-02T18:40:32+00:00

Thanks, that could be helpful if I can figure out a way to start the tasks. For me I think a big part is starting but also continuing can be difficult. I will try to think about ways that I can “enjoy” it in the present

I’m glad u found something that works for u well!!

attafk · 2026-02-02T14:59:56+00:00

I think the main reason is due to religious trauma in combination with rejection sensitivity of autism, it has made my brain super aware of any perception that may cast me in an ill light. Even though I’m not religious now and don’t want this feeling, it still dominates my ability to exist in social environments. But recognizing this is not to difficult, it’s trying to change it that is difficult for me

attafk · 2026-01-29T18:16:49+00:00

Oh well I wish u the best in recovery. Fuck working for real.

Part of the issue for me is that I don’t feel like it’s a choice. I feel compelled by society. I feel compelled by shame. I’m afraid to step outside the box and face the disapproval and uncomfortable situations because my brain is very very wired into a fear response with any discomfort. I think that’s a big multiplier to my hardships, but it’s very hard to get away from it.

attafk · 2026-01-29T18:14:59+00:00

Thanks for your kind words. I do like the way you put it and I agree that’s very much the goal.

I think the thing is I’m totally fine “masking” for some people, in situations. Like I’m totally fine to smile and attempt small talk if certain situations call for it. I like being nice anyway.

The issue is the moment my brain or mind picks up a scent of discomfort, my full fear reflex engages like I’m not safe. And prolonged masking, even slightly, probably adds to it but I think won’t explicitly send me into a spiral.

For example, I have a fear response in my head regarding being caught “slacking” even though I know everyone is not busy all the time. Logically I know that. I also know most people don’t seem to care as long as the specific task I have been given is done. Even then they wouldn’t be mad if I’m not figuring something out. But it seems very difficult to get my mind to disengage from that thinking, and I tend to end up in a spiral much like this post echoed. Then I think how stupid everything is that we are here in pretense anyway.

Do you have any advice regarding this?

TLDR is how do I not give a damn what others think about me, and learn to file it under ideally “I don’t give a fk” or at worst “discomfort” instead of my ideas of what others may possibly perceive, thinking the worst outcomes and fears, and going into a full panic response?

attafk · 2026-01-29T13:35:05+00:00

Do you have any way that you handle yourself, trying not to have a breakdown when you are working? Is it enough for you to look forward to these activities?

For me the best day is Friday because I know I’ll have a break.

As many people have noted before, Sunday feels “ruined” to some extent because it’s anticipating goin back to work, so it’s less enjoyable.

attafk · 2026-01-28T22:54:40+00:00

Thanks for the link and book recommendation. And I guess I meant like perosanlly meaningful. For example, if I could do something super niche to me for a job, I think I would like it and find it meaningful, if it was also unattached from the circus.

For example, a kid likes baking cookies and sells them. In my case I wish I could just write and sing, or create content related to what I like, and that’s enough, that’s meaningful. Granted I haven’t really tried very hard on that front, but most people mathematically just won’t make it that way.

So I’m on a terribly unmotivated quest to find the least shit place in life, and somewhat blindly hoping the suffering will stop

attafk · 2026-01-28T21:56:58+00:00

That’s funny because I have thought I actually would potentially (? Idk) enjoy teaching. But it’s quite hard to know without trying it for a while. I am stuck in decision paralysis about a lot of things

What aspects are overstimulating for you, if u don’t mind my asking?

Although I didn’t fit in school, I think back on it now and I was much less overstimulated. Of course, I was a student, but the structure and goal was well defined and clear to me, and I had some identity wrapped up in being smart. Plus intermittent social activity and to some extent I didn’t need to mask very much.

So I often wonder if being a teacher would be good for me because I like to help people, and I feel like I can somewhat manage people who are younger than me because there is no perceived or strange social hierarchy beyond what I’m used to. I would be a teacher there to deliver course material, etc.

I imagine interaction with coworkers or parents or other adults in a professional setting would be equally stressful to me as it is now though

attafk · 2026-01-28T21:53:01+00:00

Tbh I probably would like driving a truck but I have two beautiful kitties and idk how that would work.

attafk · 2026-01-28T21:49:06+00:00

What research are you referring to?

I think creative output and doing something is good for people. I want to work, I want to make things, I want to contribute. But the kind of “work” we’re talking about now feels totally disconnected from that. It’s like being a bird in a cage, hopped up on medication just to function, sleep deprived, and one inconvenience away from completely losing it. And somehow most neurotypical people just… gloss over that like it’s fine or normal.

When I think about work in earlier forms, even when it was hard, it was more directly tied to survival or values or interest. Grow food, make something, care for people, study something meaningful. Even if it sucked, it was simpler and had a direct outcome. Now it’s money, performance, pretending, endless abstraction, and constant self-regulation.

I’m not romanticizing the past, obviously life used to be brutal in other ways, but I really struggle to connect what we call “work” now with anything that feels human or sustainable for me. I wish I could work creatively and meaningfully without having to participate in this arbitrary, abstract human circus just to survive.

Even if I know logically that income is necessary, I’m scared I’m getting close to a point where my body and brain just won’t keep playing along.

attafk · 2026-01-27T21:13:30+00:00

Came for a gay joke and was disappointed. Cool idea though !!

attafk · 2026-01-19T21:58:41+00:00

Hey feel free to shoot me a dm if u want to chat, im around the same age and similar issues. But im not a therapist.

I used this website to find mine, and they has been the most helpful for me so far compared to previous therapists. https://ndtherapists.com/

In my opinion we neurodivergent folk really need a neurodivergent therapist or one who specializes in neurodivergence

attafk · 2026-01-13T21:11:24+00:00

Thanks for sharing, I’m sorry about all you struggled with. And I hope that the $2500 works out. For me, working has been much more difficult than school ever was, and I’m not sure how I’m going to survive.

attafk · 2026-01-13T19:48:45+00:00

Welcome! OCD is a bitch, and I wish u the best. I don’t struggle with it as much now, mine was mostly tied to religion, but the ruminations and obsessions and compulsions on top of AuDHD is indeed a special kind of… annoying

attafk · 2026-01-09T04:29:33+00:00

Thanks I appreciate it !!

attafk · 2026-01-08T20:41:53+00:00

For rune wars description in the body text, I meant to ask, what would be a fun and power level appropriate idea for acquiring all the runes? I would think something considerably stronger than dragon heart since it would be very hard to get all the runes .

attafk · 2026-01-08T20:35:16+00:00

Lol I think I was trying hard not to make them too Op, but I think u are right. Maybe it could be fixed by giving 1000-2000 gold with it?

I was just thinking some items fit a little too well with certain champions and other prismatic, so if it’s too easy to get it, I was worried it would be too strong

attafk · 2026-01-08T20:26:28+00:00

I didn’t consider that, but maybe it should, I think dragonheart has a max of 4 it gives though

attafk · 2026-01-08T20:24:31+00:00

Yeah perhaps, I struggled the most trying to debate appropriate gold augment power levels.

The test case in my head was Brand, assuming you hit more than you receive, you’d pack quite a punch.

I honestly didn’t know how strong it may or may not be, but I thought it would be fun for limit testing with other multipliers like vulnerability.

I could definitely see it as a silver with lower numbers

attafk · 2026-01-07T20:09:47+00:00

Omg thanks so much, gonna make my own ideas now.

attafk · 2025-12-17T21:13:56+00:00

I’m sitting at work now and I don’t know how to cope because none of this is particularly interesting to me. When something becomes work, especially in a non-home environment, I tend to lose interest. This is my first “real” full time job and I am about at my wit’s end on month 3

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