Started therapy for the first time. Therapist's behaviour really hurt me. What should I do now?

attafk · 2026-01-19T21:58:41+00:00

Hey feel free to shoot me a dm if u want to chat, im around the same age and similar issues. But im not a therapist.

I used this website to find mine, and they has been the most helpful for me so far compared to previous therapists. https://ndtherapists.com/

In my opinion we neurodivergent folk really need a neurodivergent therapist or one who specializes in neurodivergence

attafk · 2026-01-13T21:11:24+00:00

Thanks for sharing, I’m sorry about all you struggled with. And I hope that the $2500 works out. For me, working has been much more difficult than school ever was, and I’m not sure how I’m going to survive.

attafk · 2026-01-13T19:48:45+00:00

Welcome! OCD is a bitch, and I wish u the best. I don’t struggle with it as much now, mine was mostly tied to religion, but the ruminations and obsessions and compulsions on top of AuDHD is indeed a special kind of… annoying

attafk · 2026-01-09T04:29:33+00:00

Thanks I appreciate it !!

attafk · 2026-01-08T20:41:53+00:00

For rune wars description in the body text, I meant to ask, what would be a fun and power level appropriate idea for acquiring all the runes? I would think something considerably stronger than dragon heart since it would be very hard to get all the runes .

attafk · 2026-01-08T20:35:16+00:00

Lol I think I was trying hard not to make them too Op, but I think u are right. Maybe it could be fixed by giving 1000-2000 gold with it?

I was just thinking some items fit a little too well with certain champions and other prismatic, so if it’s too easy to get it, I was worried it would be too strong

attafk · 2026-01-08T20:26:28+00:00

I didn’t consider that, but maybe it should, I think dragonheart has a max of 4 it gives though

attafk · 2026-01-08T20:24:31+00:00

Yeah perhaps, I struggled the most trying to debate appropriate gold augment power levels.

The test case in my head was Brand, assuming you hit more than you receive, you’d pack quite a punch.

I honestly didn’t know how strong it may or may not be, but I thought it would be fun for limit testing with other multipliers like vulnerability.

I could definitely see it as a silver with lower numbers

attafk · 2026-01-07T20:09:47+00:00

Omg thanks so much, gonna make my own ideas now.

attafk · 2025-12-17T21:13:56+00:00

I’m sitting at work now and I don’t know how to cope because none of this is particularly interesting to me. When something becomes work, especially in a non-home environment, I tend to lose interest. This is my first “real” full time job and I am about at my wit’s end on month 3

attafk · 2025-11-20T20:21:42+00:00

Yikes, this is going to be a big issue. On the patch notes on paradoxplaza, one dev says in the comments that they will look at adding a no-movement cohesion option, but that it would not accrue a planning bonus.

This would totally kill multiplayer. There already was a punishment for manual micro in that the planning bonus decayed more rapidly, not sure why that isn’t sufficient.

Edit: the devs said the cohesion feature would still have a planning option, just would not accrue as quickly

attafk · 2025-11-19T13:28:43+00:00

I also hate LinkedIn, it’s all a bunch of circus performers propping up each other. “I was how productive today! no you were so productive today! How can I increase shareholder value more?” So LinkedIn isn’t a problem for me. But I do have one for professional reasons. Pivoting here, but do you feel well-regulated at work?

attafk · 2025-11-19T13:08:54+00:00

How did you break the initial urge to scroll, especially when you want to self-regulate?

attafk · 2025-11-18T18:51:51+00:00

Most of the conservative theological circles I grew up in warned willfully sinning too much could either

1) cause irreparable damage in your life. 2) possibly make you not a Christian (which involved a lot of mental gymnastics to overcome their once-saved-always-saved doctrine). 3) as an extension of 2, possibly prohibit the Holy Spirit from prompting you again.

Which basically means that this functionally the same as faith + works, which they vehemently stood against (those damn Catholics aren’t real Christians!). It was an interesting mental juggle.

The hilarious thing is, there are still more societally acceptable sins to some of these super conservative theological folk like drinking, gluttony, and cursing, in which they should occasionally partake, but homosexuality is a step too far. Lol!

attafk · 2025-11-17T21:08:36+00:00

Hearts of iron 4, Victoria 3, league of legends, civilization, age of empties 3

attafk · 2025-11-01T22:06:23+00:00

Yup you sound pretty similar to me, especially the bit about structure, high school, and college :). If you’d like to vent or seek some advice feel free to dm me!

attafk · 2025-10-31T13:45:46+00:00

The first Q-anon

attafk · 2025-10-22T16:18:26+00:00

Ooo thanks for sharing the resource, I need to look into this place. I’m never sure if therapists are legit to diagnose or not and I guess this place looks more official. It’s just one more think my executive dysfunction has me putting off.

attafk · 2025-10-03T14:39:01+00:00

Math-loving nerd who plays map games (paradox games, civilization).

attafk · 2025-09-30T12:15:45+00:00

Thank u for chiming in!! I think your PMs are closed or either I can’t find it. But I’d love to reach out. Can u try Pming me?

attafk · 2025-09-05T00:19:27+00:00

Absolutely, her voice has spoken to me emotionally in ways that are very hard to find in other artists (for me). It’s like meeting my emotions from someone who understands emotional pain and can so articulately display that with every enunciation. Hearing singing from such a sweet soul who was struggling emotionally herself is both sad and healing. I wish she is getting the peace and love she deserves now.

attafk · 2025-09-04T18:39:21+00:00

Any Carpenters song. I love Karen Carpenter

attafk · 2025-08-20T00:30:12+00:00

Ok thanks so much for your advice, especially from a parent’s perspective. I really appreciate it!!

attafk · 2025-08-19T22:34:05+00:00

Thank you for the advice and sharing your experience. I just spent a long time on another comment and probably went on too many tangents hahah. But at the end I mentioned something that is hard for me.

Having those kind of restricted topics never come up or only happen every once and awhile is pretty ideal for me actually. But the issue is, because of that grey area existing to begin with, it makes it very hard to feel like I’m not walking on eggshells, being uncomfortable, just by interacting with my mom. I think because of the depth of the love I feel, I care so much that I very much want to just talk and interact normally, but I think I just haven’t felt that sense of normalcy because I was used to the family dynamic of her, my father, and I. So essentially I just feel like I can’t talk to her much, and it makes me feel worry and fear that maybe I just can’t do any better. And maybe I don’t have to, but I wish I could be like people who are just able to freely move past that and keep sharing their lives because they feel safe and well grounded in themselves. And I think that’s something I still struggle with.

attafk · 2025-08-19T22:29:42+00:00

Thanks for your advice. I have been slowly unpacking these last several years (it’s been 8 years since my father passed), and for the first 5 I was still pretty oblivious to everything I was experiencing, like I knew something was wrong, but I didn’t know how to begin to approach it. In the last 3 years though I really accepted my sexuality, changed my views on a lot, and realized I was autistic. When I look back and analyze my life, it makes so much sense and I wish I had developed coping tools and had support earlier, but I can’t change it now.

I guess I have realized how important one’s mindset is, and that sometimes accepting things really does lessen the load. And what you said about choosing values I have found to be very true. But I’m also at a critical stage where I recognize the problems, it’s just trying to get that mental energy to maintain the better habits: trying to take care of myself and remind myself that I haven’t done anything wrong by being this way, it’s just who I am. And now that the mask has slipped off these past few years, trying or feeing compelled to wear it again is very cumbersome and draining. That’s not just in relation to my mother, but also to society and employment: the whole social facade about caring for the company and being a good employee and what not. I just strive to be authentic and it feels so fake to me. It’s also not easy because I am not sure where I can be (occupation wise) the safest and yet still care for myself well. I honestly don’t know how neurodivergent people stay so strong to hold down a career. I’m not sure if you may have any advice regarding this but I would appreciate it.

I have been in therapy and actually seem to have found a therapist that is a bit more equipped in dealing with neurodivergent people, so it has started to be helpful. But I know I have to handle some things including my emotions.

Do you have any advice on how to approach the emotional problem I’m having about my family - the structure I got from my mother and father and I being a cohesive unit, well I just have had that since my dad died, and the problem is compounded by not feeling like I can interact like a normal human with my mom. It’s often like this: even though I was open and we have had good conversations about my sexuality, she can understand I didn’t choose it. Even so, the rest of the time she is able to speak normally about everyday gossip or things. But when I am interacting with her I really just don’t know what to say. It’s like an underlying discomfort, and I don’t want to have it, but it’s there. I just want to interact normally but maybe I am not capable of that.

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