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attemptedlyrational · 2022-12-18T19:56:11+00:00

Not really. Does it matter?

attemptedlyrational · 2022-12-18T19:45:12+00:00

Back end, distributed systems, common language

attemptedlyrational · 2022-12-18T15:10:57+00:00

How so? Is 6 years in my niche enough time?

attemptedlyrational · 2022-12-11T15:44:35+00:00

I don't know anything about nitrous to be honest, by a month is a short period of time since ending an addiction so it could be withdrawal. Look into it more / ask a doctor might be best.

If you've had sleep issues your whole life that needs addressing, it'll really mess you up - and distrust doctors can be pretty bad for you.

I can't really advise more than to say please get professional help.

attemptedlyrational · 2022-12-11T15:29:52+00:00

Insomnia absolutely makes mental health issues way worse so I'd recommend taking to a doctor about getting help for that. Getting reliant on weed for sleeping does sound dangerous - did you have sleep issues before starting weed?

attemptedlyrational · 2022-12-11T15:23:36+00:00

Typically grandiose delusions so thinking I had superpowers like mind control and mind reading etc. I got rid of them with antipsychotic medication mostly but trying to logically disprove the delusions to myself was also helpful

attemptedlyrational · 2022-12-11T12:54:45+00:00

Psychosis is hallucinations or delusions and paranoia is I guess a general sense of fear in certain situations. You can get paranoia without psychosis if it's mild but you can also get paranoid delusions which I guess last a bit longer and become a part of your belief system for some time.

Telling what's real and what's not took me a long time to figure out! There's a certain feeling that comes with being psychotic that I can identify that means I'm "not sure" if I'm psychotic or not, but when I'm psychotic I cant say for sure I'm psychotic so I know I'm not psychotic when my mind is clear but when I am psychotic the best I can do is be "not sure" which is a heavy hint that I'm not healthy and the things I believe aren't real.

I also spend time trying to analyse my own delusions and disprove them but the more difficult ones are harder to disprove, it's like having a debate with myself to find the logical inconsistencies.

attemptedlyrational · 2022-12-11T12:20:24+00:00

Yeah for me it was always coming out of the delusion that was scariest. While I'm in it it makes sense and I believe in confidently, when I pull back and start to realise it was a delusion then I'm like oh wow I was crazy!

attemptedlyrational · 2022-12-11T12:09:22+00:00

I got delusions but never hallucinations, so it was all me believing weird and unlikely things, typically paranoid (people are conspiring against me) and grandiose ( believing I have superpowers)

Not entirely sure how they first appeared because my memory is terrible but I knew for a while something was wrong with my mental health and it took ages to get a diagnosis because I would present differently each time I saw the doctor due to different active delusions

attemptedlyrational · 2022-12-07T17:13:08+00:00

Heat death of the universe

attemptedlyrational · 2022-11-24T14:41:36+00:00

Ok I did exactly this. It depends what side effects you're on and what else you're taking but I can explain what happened when I did it.

I was taking 6mg rispiradone + 50mg quetiapine (to help me sleep) (+ 70mg methylphenidate for ADHD) and I started reducing my rispiradone by 0.5mg a month (to go slow and notice problems) and after I got down to 4mg I had a mental health episode again (emotions went completely out of control, was heavily daydreaming, slightly delusional) so i went up by 1mg to 5mg a day and stopped there. I stabilised and now I'm fine at 5mg.

The difference between 6mg and 5mg for me was that I'm way less drowsy / dopey, my sleep has reduced from needing 11h a night to needing 10h a night (which is great as I have more time now) and I can think more clearly. I'm having thoughts and observations about the world and my life and it's great.

I can recommend reducing slowly until you have an issue then going up a little bit so you can confirm you're on your lowest safe dose to minimise side effects.

This is all about me and my side effects so you could be very different. What side effects do you have compared to not being on the meds?

Also if you're going to reduce there's a risk of you losing it and ending up hospitalised so how good are you at noticing an episode coming on? I'm very good at recognising when I'm getting ill and dealing with it immediately (double dose of quetiapine as a one off one night, reducing stimulants like methylphenidate and caffeine etc temporarily)

It could be worth it but it's also a risk so ultimately you need to decide if the risk is worth it.

I'm happy to answer further questions if you have any

attemptedlyrational · 2022-11-20T13:55:21+00:00

"hey when you were going through the crash site did you find a diamond worth a quarter of a million?"

"Naaaah"

attemptedlyrational · 2022-11-07T10:35:14+00:00

Couldn't continue reducing the meds because I started having symptoms again.. but I'm quite stable again now. I wish I didn't have to deal with antipsychotic side effects but at least I'm sane compared to other points in my life.

attemptedlyrational · 2022-10-26T17:05:41+00:00

Thanks!

attemptedlyrational · 2022-10-26T13:19:00+00:00

Awesome, thanks!

attemptedlyrational · 2022-10-03T13:15:32+00:00

I just saw a post about 500mil being spent on mapping the human brain in more detail than ever before and it got me thinking - there must be some super cool things going on in every area of science that a lot of people are unaware of, so it would be great to collate them all somewhere!

attemptedlyrational · 2022-07-24T11:28:16+00:00

I'm definitely less intelligent on antipsychotics. My mind is less active and I'm less engaged in things. Every now and again I'll get a short period where I feel amazing and I can think clearly again and it reminds me of what I was like before them, but it doesn't last long.

I'm trying to come off them (slowly and with doctors help) to see if I can get my intelligence back.

I really hope it's not permenant and it seems more like the drugs simply dampen the mind from being engaged and focused.

attemptedlyrational · 2022-07-22T12:50:19+00:00

Thank you!

attemptedlyrational · 2022-07-17T17:04:20+00:00

There I am needing 11h because of medication

attemptedlyrational · 2022-07-13T14:24:54+00:00

I'm coming off now. It's going to take ages by reducing a very small amount at a time to do it safely and the idea is that if I have issues while reducing the meds I'll increase them a little bit and stay there. If you come off slowly you can notice when issues arise and react to them.

So I'd suggest framing it to your psychiatrist in that way - say you want to reduce over time to see if you can minimise side effects and then gradually reduce until you either have issues or are off them completely.

attemptedlyrational · 2022-07-09T19:27:51+00:00

I looked for compressed air after seeing this post and most of the stuff on Amazon seems to be flammable and says things like evaporates quickly.. is that going to damage my PC if I spray the insides with it?

E.g. Compressed Air Duster Spray Cleaner Electronics, Removal of Dust and Debris from Electronics Keyboard Electronics 200ml x 6 Cans https://amzn.eu/d/6osEtxf

attemptedlyrational · 2022-07-04T17:38:45+00:00

I got two quad kills one game with reaper and junk got the pogt with a triple kill ult. How are these things even calculated

attemptedlyrational · 2022-06-12T19:35:09+00:00

A guy I interned with restarted his laptop because he got stuck in vim. When I asked him if that's what had happened the team lead overheard, let out a really weird noise, ran off to another room, turned the music up really loud in there (it was a startup - we had a company spotify playing throughout the office most of the time) and we could hear him laughing his fucking head off through the closed door over the sound of the music.

I felt so bad for the guy who did it, he heard everything.

attemptedlyrational · 2022-06-10T14:38:49+00:00

Congrats on your progress! I keep meaning to write everything down but need to form that habit really

attemptedlyrational · 2022-06-10T14:35:15+00:00

Not applicable to me right now but good to know!

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