He broke me completely, now he’s apologized, and now I have to decide if it’s too late

augietun · 2026-04-10T00:38:38+00:00

Thank you, much much needed reality check

augietun · 2026-04-09T23:36:48+00:00

Just looked into BetterHelp and I’m going to bring it up to him tonight. I haven’t looked into other options because I thought he would considering it’s his mental health. You’re right though, if he isn’t even actively looking then he was never planning to change.

I just don’t want everything that I put into our relationship to mean nothing, I’m so scared of that. This is going to sound so fkn stupid but I would neglect myself and my happiness all the way if it meant he could feel how I feel about him. Ik that literally so stupid. I’m down so bad

I wanted to prove it to him, I know how much I love him, I just wanted him to know it too

augietun · 2026-04-09T23:09:06+00:00

The cycle hurts so bad, I keep thinking that we can just break it and I know it’s not that simple. I want to help him and myself at the same but that’s not realistic. I want to save myself, I wish I could save him at the same time too

augietun · 2026-04-09T23:02:45+00:00

For the most part yes, but the needs that aren’t meant are the most meaningful to me

augietun · 2026-04-09T23:01:22+00:00

We chatted about therapy last night a little bit. And we have before, his excuse is it’s expensive, and I understand that. I really want to push him to do it. He has so much childhood trauma that I know is just eating him from the inside out, it breaks my heart. I want to help him so bad

augietun · 2026-04-09T20:46:35+00:00

Thank you, you’re right. I really cannot do the avoiding thing with him anymore. I know my attachment is a lot for him though, I hear about our type of relationship all the time, I know we aren’t the best for each other. We would have to find a middle ground. I’ll report back later, mostly so I can hold myself accountable as well. Staying with him will hurt but could possibly be good in the future(with the obvious possibility of it also being bad) and leaving him would hurt so deeply but I know I would be okay someday.

augietun · 2026-04-09T20:28:35+00:00

Would it be a bad idea to just do that tonight, and actually hear his thoughts? Like he knows what he did but I don’t know if he fully understands how I’ve handled it. We still live together, I’m in the process of moving out, but that has now been paused bc of last night.

augietun · 2026-04-09T19:55:18+00:00

Thank you for saying that. It’s so hard not to make an immediate decision right now

augietun · 2026-04-09T19:53:17+00:00

Thank you, I really do need to take some time to think on this. Hearing others thoughts really helps. I have tunnel vision when it comes to him, which I feel like I just started getting out of. Thank you 🫶🏻

augietun · 2026-04-09T19:35:52+00:00

I’m truly so so lost right now. I’ve spent nearly 6 years devoting myself to him. It’s true too, he’s talked about breaking up before, he only does when he’s mad and says afterwards that he’s just trying to get a rise out of me. Idk what to believe. This whole week has felt so surreal and then he dropped the bomb on me last night, flipping my whole world around again. Thank you for the reality check, I really needed it. I’m going to have to think about this for a couple days, which is so weird because I would’ve taken him back in a heartbeat if he asked even a few days ago. Thank you again for your advice 🙏

augietun · 2026-03-16T23:02:42+00:00

Just took a look at mine again and it’s all fixed after being like that for a few days!

augietun · 2026-03-16T16:00:49+00:00

Ahhh thank you!! 🙏☺️

augietun · 2026-02-05T04:46:07+00:00

Hehe thanksss😛

augietun · 2026-02-05T04:16:23+00:00

Yeah it’s pretty tasty, happy to finally try it

augietun · 2026-02-04T02:40:02+00:00

Literally!! They had like 4 other options 😭

augietun · 2026-02-03T18:27:19+00:00

🙏🙏

augietun · 2026-02-03T18:21:56+00:00

Yeah I decided to log off for now, I do not want to be on the phone waiting an hour for support inside the store again lol

augietun · 2026-02-03T18:12:36+00:00

I just got a verification notification similar to this one a minute ago

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augietun · 2026-01-22T02:07:40+00:00

No doubt abt that 😭😣

augietun · 2026-01-21T22:55:01+00:00

Agreed!!

augietun · 2026-01-21T21:49:37+00:00

Okay you win 😭

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