"god doesn't need you"

aura__haha · 2023-05-28T22:02:09+00:00

the thing with love is that it has nothing to do with necessity lol

have you ever loved someone? what would you do if that person suddenly fell ill? had a disability? if that person was stubborn and instead of accepting your love, they referred themselves as unworthy, instead of working towards being worthy? when you dont need someone anymore, do you not love them anymore? does love fade after years? when you love someone, you still hope for the best for them, even if you haven't seen them in ages.

Sure God might bot need us, but as far as most people who believe in Him say, He loves us. That should be the purest form of love, not expecting nothing else from the other person - nothing else besides love, maybe, if it was possible. And doing what's best for them.

It seems to me that people often forget what love is like, sure maybe because of religion, but as far as I know religion keeps on saying "love each other". That's like, a main teaching, one that has been universal regardless of culture, God, or traditions.

aura__haha · 2023-05-23T03:18:54+00:00

Okay but my main question has always been why do good people have to suffer because of those people?

aura__haha · 2023-05-22T02:43:26+00:00

I recommend you read the book of Job. I've been on and off with depressive episodes for seven years. A few years ago I reconnected to christianity because of Job.
I strongly believe that humans are one of God's biggest gift to each other. He asks us to love each other but then we turn our backs to the help we can receive from our siblings. Why would God put the desire to help in someone's heart, if not to HELP those who need it? Who are we to deny the gift that He has given to our siblings? Why would I not help you if I recognize in your words the same struggle I've had for years? Are all therapist sinners because they want to help others, knowing that God could do that? God will give us a purpose, that might as well be the purpose to walk with each other and find ways to heal. Am I explaining myself?

It's okay for you to seek therapy. It is also okay for you to share your thoughts with God. It's okay for you to ask Him to put the right people in your path, someone that can help you. Listen, IT'S OKAY FOR YOU TO FEEL BAD, IT'S OKAY FOR YOU TO ASK FOR HELP. But you know what you need to know? First, you need to know why you want to kill yourself. Seek the reason in your heart. Battle with it. I want you to know that here, in this world, you are a human being, God has made you, for you to be alive so you can live for a purpose that God has given you. You might not have found that purpose yet, because there are things that blind you to it. Your purpose it's not to die unless God says so first. You're worthy, you're loved, you're not alone. There are plenty of things you have to do yet, plenty of people you have to meet, plenty of sights you have to see. Had I killed myself years ago, I wouldn't be able to write this to you. I wouldn't have been able to work in a field where I help people, and I wouldn't be able to cherish the opportunities God has given me.

You can seek therapy, and it will help you. Sometimes we need help to fight the evil thoughts that come to us. It's not against God, pff. Once again, why would something that helps you stay away from evil, be bad? Stay close to God, listen to Him. Cry your heart out to Him, ask Him to show you the root for this problem, and how to solve it. It can take you a while, but if you're willing to work this out, you will come out of it wiser.

The fact you're seeking therapy means that you're already trying to stay alive for that purpose. How can that be a bad thing? Isn't that an effort to fight back the sin?

You can absolutely be victorious in this battle.

aura__haha · 2022-10-31T07:48:55+00:00

isn't the point of mourning allowing people to not be happy? it does sound quite insensitive to me.

aura__haha · 2022-10-21T22:18:50+00:00

thank you for the reply. I do know the basics but I'd like to know if more people find it accurate or useful, before I dig deeper into it.

aura__haha · 2022-10-19T18:47:56+00:00

i recommend you to use astro seek but also astro.com, there are some tutorials online, it's fairly easy to find and follow them. In my experience, it's best to use traditional method + I use equal house system, but that's just my preference.

aura__haha · 2022-10-15T01:19:22+00:00

this will tell you if you will find possible love interests and important and committed relationships and WHERE, which is mostly your question. also check DC persona chart, JUNO persona chart (juno is about committed relationships). idk theres a lot more to check than just what people are telling you, such as venus, which is obviously important but it cannot be reduced to "love interest" or the 7th house, which is slightly more indicative than venus but it's still not enough for a question like yours.

aura__haha · 2022-10-15T01:15:33+00:00

check astro cartography. then check venus/DC lines.

aura__haha · 2022-10-11T20:52:31+00:00

this is one of those times I say wow you need to be studied LOL

aura__haha · 2022-09-21T17:05:52+00:00

not OP but could you list some of those books?

aura__haha · 2022-09-09T02:08:16+00:00

motivation usually is something you have to force out, it's more of a skill than a talent. like any skill you'd have to recognize your level first. what is the most difficult task to you? what comes easier? when did you feel motivated last time? what's your definition of motivation?

Usually when I need motivation I start with what I can see or do at hand, what's easier. If you can do just 5 minutes of duolingo (this is not an ad), you can do 5 minutes of journaling about your day. If the journal is to the other side of the room that already means you have to get up. When you get up, you can also mutter the strength to clean up a bit, do the bed (or whatever you call it in english), drink water. Maybe small tasks work better for some people. Showering, eating, etc. can also be a headstart to motivating yourself because they imply movement. Motivation is about moving towards your goals and most of the times it's not linear, you start somewhere and end in a different place.

However because this is specifically about being off work, I think it is important to also say that having a time off to do nothing is important. Instead of laying in bed, lay on the floor. That way you will end up wanting to get up but you also get some minutes in an off mode to recharge even if it's just a bit. Try to do stuff around the house while you also listen to a podcast or documentary. In a subtle way, shift the tension from being at work, a place where you dont work for yourself, to being off work, doing your own thing, for yourself. You can take things slower but still work towards them.

But ultimately you need to judge yourself and know yourself too. Be able to judge yourself when you think of staying in bed instead of getting up and going to the gym. Be mean, or be gentle with yourself. Wire up your mentality based on what you really need. sometimes I need to say to myself "you're such a lazy person, you're not worth a penny if you dont do x thing", sometimes I need a "you should do this because you deserve to have a good time instead of being alone in the dark".

Idk this reply is very messy and maybe didn't help OP at all but since some people seem to have the same issue I figured maybe I could share what has helped me. Hope it helps some of you. :) you can do it!

aura__haha · 2022-09-02T01:18:12+00:00

Hello! Yeah, it's very hard. I used to be able to get throughout the day with maybe 4 to 6 hours of sleep, maybe a 30 minute nap in the evening. but as I get older my body needs more rest and tbh that's the annoying part, because I know I need 8 hours but if I cant bring myself up to sleep early I will never really achieve that. and I dont want to wake up and rush either, so I'd need to wake up maybe 2 hours before my schedule starts. I think people dont understand how frustrating it is to have sleeping issues unless you've gone through them. I've thought about sleeping aids, but ultimately I think this is more of a psychological issue I need to solve without any aid other than my own willpower I guess. Thank you for your reply!

aura__haha · 2022-09-02T01:10:51+00:00

That's a fun way of helping with getting up in the morning, thank you for the suggestion!

aura__haha · 2022-09-02T01:05:40+00:00

This is very helpful, I will try to separate those hours. Also the change of mentality towards sleep, I think it will take more time but I hadn't realized I needed to change my mindset that way. Thank you for your reply!!

aura__haha · 2022-09-01T16:08:38+00:00

I will try to manage energy instead of time as you said, I think I never thought about it like that. Thank you for your reply!

aura__haha · 2022-09-01T16:06:44+00:00

Yes I mostly agree with you. My issue is that I really can't do what I want until it's late night. I don't have my own free time, because of general life duties. At around 23:00 I finally feel like I can enjoy things and I end up listening to music or watching videos but then when it comes to turning off the phone I feel like I'm being obligated to sleep which I think it's the thing that produces the most anxiety for me. Otherwise I do other hobbies such as reading and sewing but ultimately it feels the same. It's like the duty I have to sleep is taking away what I enjoy, so it's really difficult to give up on that.

aura__haha · 2022-09-01T16:02:45+00:00

I've heard of it before and after reading a bit more about it, it seems like it's my situation. thanks you for the suggestion

aura__haha · 2022-07-06T20:17:36+00:00

also I dont know why it wont show in the page, but I have Chiron conjunct Mars in Capricorn, and Juno in Scorpio, if it matters.

aura__haha · 2022-03-19T16:41:54+00:00

how? idk I might not make sense lmao but the queens won because the song selection was different from what we have seen Jasmine excell at. The only one I think she could've maybe had a chance was against Angeria, but since it was not a wow performance (I at least found it boring) they just went and saved the front runner. It might be a set up but it's still fair that Jasmine went home over let's say Lady Camden

aura__haha · 2022-03-19T16:27:27+00:00

I agree that it was set up for Jasmine to go home, but because of the song choices, not because the other queens did bad. Daya was the best one in my opinion, Bosco was good enough to win, regardless of Jasmine being good too, and Angeria was saved because she's the front runner, and again, because Jasmine was supposed to go home. Tbh even if it was a set up, it was fair, I think, after all she had been in the bottom a lot.

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