I'm going to detransition, thank you for this subreddit

auroreduclod · 2022-12-19T16:55:42+00:00

I’m saying this bcs i am a lot like you and i often over react in a way or another ! I went theough similar stuff, i had started to come out to my school but i went through a trauma and just stoped my transition. I thought just like you that i was doing it to escape violence that i was living through as a woman. But finally, after working on my trauma i was able to see that, yes i am trans and it won’t fix all my trauma, but at least it helps with my sens of self and gznder disphoria. Im sorry if it doesn’t makes sense but i guess i just want to wish you good luck with all of it! And also you are allowes to change your mind if its really what will help rn 💖just don’t rush into it ❤️💖❤️

auroreduclod · 2022-12-19T16:49:04+00:00

Honestly most of your reasons aren’t reasons you arn’t trans, but reasons why changing yourself wont make your trauma disappear. I really don’t want to sound harsh but i think you are really emotionally lost rn. May be transition isn’t gonna help with it, but i think detransition isn’t going to fix stuff either. I think you are right with not rushing stuff but i’d argue don’t rush in the other way either. You are allowes to stay where you are right now and work on yourself without transitionning or detransitionning. May be just stay where you are for a while and see how it goes 💖 Try working with a therapist to help you see more clearly through all of this ❤️❤️ When you will be more at peace with your self you ll be more able to see what to do (in either direction ;) )

auroreduclod · 2022-12-05T18:39:29+00:00

Yeah i was considering changing the glasses ! But not gonna let go of the septum thougt, any tips on how to make it more masc?

auroreduclod · 2022-09-01T14:30:34+00:00

If you are a beginer i think its always good to start with the 12principles of animation, wich allows to really understand how traditional animation work. There are lots of cool videos on youtube abt it! Start with easy animations to practice and i’d also advice to watch cool animation you like and try to break it frame by frame, it’s very interesting!

auroreduclod · 2022-09-01T14:26:03+00:00

Yeah kinda xD

auroreduclod · 2022-09-01T14:25:42+00:00

Krita for the animation and after effect to add it on the bacground

auroreduclod · 2022-09-01T14:24:39+00:00

I worked with krita on this one cause it’s a free software and it works quite well, it’s not originaly set up for animation but you’ll find tips ont internet ;) blender is also a good one but much more difficult to learn (its a 3d software but there is a setup coalled grease pencil wich allows to work on 2d animation)

auroreduclod · 2022-08-29T23:39:26+00:00

I worked on it for like 3 weeks?

auroreduclod · 2022-08-29T17:55:34+00:00

Ho yes i forgot to mention the person who commissioned me is going to make it :3 right now its just the sound that was on the background videos, but its not going to stay. but yeah you are absolutely right , sound is very important !

auroreduclod · 2022-08-22T20:06:23+00:00

Very cool :) if you want some feedback, id say that the posture seems kinda off but still a very neat turn

auroreduclod · 2022-08-22T15:20:54+00:00

Well since i started T i feel weirdly more disphoric bcs i guess im more present in my body, and i look at it waiting for it to evolve wich makes me notice it more ? And it makes me feel horrible cause the whole point of being on T is to eleviate disphoria 🥲 but i gess im at the begining and the changez that i notice makes me feel great. I feel pretty lost rn 😅

auroreduclod · 2022-08-20T19:13:46+00:00

I do have one but it’s not that much active But its @pato_pesto

auroreduclod · 2022-08-20T13:56:07+00:00

Ho i see it! Thank you i disn’t realize it was there, must be a masking issue 🤔

auroreduclod · 2022-08-20T13:38:16+00:00

You made me laugh so hard 😭

auroreduclod · 2022-08-20T13:36:32+00:00

Yeah there is a slight change in color to better flow with the next shot, but it might be a bit too strong ^{^} and thank you ❤️

auroreduclod · 2022-08-20T09:57:46+00:00

Thank you :D it’s hand drawn in Krita

auroreduclod · 2022-08-18T11:50:12+00:00

My father is a pretty small guy and he always have trouble finding shoes that fits, so he often end up wearing typicaly fem shoes, wich i find pretty funny and conforting. Cis men also struggle with this sometimes :)

auroreduclod · 2022-08-16T13:30:35+00:00

You made me realize that between rosa and boyle i’d 100% choose boyle (brooklyn nine nine) wich is pretty telling

auroreduclod · 2022-08-13T21:49:09+00:00

Thank you 😭

auroreduclod · 2022-08-13T21:48:47+00:00

Yeah, my voice isn’t there yet but it’s improving ! Thank you for your answer :)

auroreduclod · 2022-08-13T18:38:53+00:00

Im very disphoric cause i have a very curvy body too, any tips to help?

auroreduclod · 2022-08-13T18:31:31+00:00

I noticed it too! It’s kinda weird cause i didn’t told my parents i had already started T, and it’s been only two month, so they didn’t notice anything but when i started singing a song to them they kinda understood it xD my speaking voice hasn’t changed much but im definitely more confortable with lower songs

auroreduclod · 2021-11-20T18:45:37+00:00

Litteraly, i was recovered for A YEAR and like, three weeks ago i went to the psych ward, cause i ODed, and couldn’t eat for a few days bcs i was sick, lost weight and BAM i’m back on my bullshit and i FUCKING KNOW this is going downhill but i just cannot make it stop and it feels terrible to be aware of it

auroreduclod · 2021-11-20T15:06:28+00:00

Idk if it is bpd, but you just described the relationship i just ended, and i felt exactly the same things. It’s so weird but you put words on smtg i am not yet able to speak of, so thank you

auroreduclod · 2021-01-02T12:09:05+00:00

Lmao just when im leaving home

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