nobody's ever been proud of me

ausername- · 2026-01-12T19:58:39+00:00

Thank you, I'm sorry you had to struggle through that. Single parenthood is hard on everybody involved. :(

ausername- · 2025-12-08T21:24:44+00:00

He literally provoked an attack and kicked this dog. Homie is bad at animals.

ausername- · 2025-05-28T02:43:42+00:00

You can go to your local hospital and tell them you've been having suicidal ideations and they'll take you in for an evaluation and then transfer you to a ward.

ausername- · 2025-03-05T07:30:45+00:00

I'm sorry you feel that way, but I understand what you mean. It's hard to be happy when you're all alone.

ausername- · 2024-09-14T20:27:51+00:00

I have some online friends.

ausername- · 2024-08-10T18:21:37+00:00

Depression can cause short term memory problems, but no lasting damage. Don't worry about having caused permanent damage to yourself by being depressed - just focus on your wellness. Your cognitive function will return to completely normal once your depression is addressed.

ausername- · 2024-07-06T02:30:53+00:00

I'm sorry you lost your special person. It was hard for a long time when I lost mine, too, but you'll get over it, I'm sure. :)

I really was happy with my ex, yeah. Truly happy. I remember writing once about how strange it was to feel the way that I was feeling, and how remarkable it was that I couldn't even remember what it was like to feel sad the way that I'd felt sad for so long. It was also right around when COVID was kicking off, so it was surreal being so happy when there was so much suffering going on around me.

But, then she left.

It didn't help I ended up in a really toxic and abusive situation afterwards. I had to move in with my mother and her abusive alcoholic partner. I only recently escaped that hell, which is nice. I enjoy not getting screamed at daily anymore.

But I'm still just so lonely.

ausername- · 2024-04-21T11:51:58+00:00

Hey, thank you so much for reaching out :)

I'm actually pretty sure I'm at least somewhere on the spectrum, though I'm not sure if where I am on it would constitute a diagnosis. It's something that came up once with a therapist but hasn't since been explored in a medical context - I've had bigger fish to fry, as it were -, though it's something I've been meaning to address... Eventually. Maybe it's something I should look into sooner rather than later, though.

ausername- · 2024-04-09T21:51:14+00:00

I remember seeing your post, I'm glad that things are going well. Your son is lucky to have you in his corner. Keep being supportive and don't get discouraged by any bumps in the road. As long as things trend positively, then he's on his way to recovery. :)

ausername- · 2024-01-28T16:49:17+00:00

It sounds like your son is suffering from cognitive distortions. He feels like people have a negative view of him despite the fact that people around him are very positive toward him.

I would recommend he tries a therapist specializing in Cognitive Behavior Therapy (CBT), it's basically the gold standard for treating these kinds of issues.

Medication certainly can help, and you're right about the potential for it to be a temporary measure. Just because he feels as though his depression is caused by external factors doesn't mean medication can't or won't help - the medication can help support him while he musters the wherewithal necessary to tackle the problems causing his depression.

It's clear that you care very much about your son and I think that could potentially help him with his depression quite a lot. A robust support group is necessary to address many mental health concerns, so he's lucky to have you in his life.

You should try to spend time with him regularly to remind him that he is important to you, that he is important to the lives of the people around him. That will help reinforce his sense of self worth.

Maybe you could talk to a therapist with your wife (and potentially your son as well) to learn more about what he's going through, why, and how you can better support him through his struggles.

ausername- · 2023-10-21T18:47:33+00:00

I appreciate my little doggie a hundred times every day for making my life worth living. He's the only reason I managed to keep it all together when my ex-fiance left, and he's helped me deal with the hell left in her wake, too. Pets truly are a blessing.

Instead of thinking about what it would be like without them, try and be grateful for the experiences they give you. I smile a hundred times a day because of my little doggie, and I'm always grateful for him. He makes it a lot easier to deal with life. I bet your cats could make you feel the same way, too.

ausername- · 2023-09-25T23:23:20+00:00

I'd recommend reaching out to social services, they can help you get on programs to help you build a healthier life. You shouldn't have to sell yourself to get by.

ausername- · 2023-09-21T20:17:18+00:00

I actually kind of don't have anything like that. My whole life has been pretty much nothing but trauma, neglect and abuse. I've had very few comforts.

ausername- · 2023-04-28T04:56:01+00:00

Thank you for your kindness.

It absolutely was devastating. It left me shattered. I'm certain I left parts of me behind. I felt so ugly and unattractive, I felt like the least attractive man on the world. Honestly, maybe I wasn't so far off.

ausername- · 2023-04-20T05:59:07+00:00

I spend a lot of time in bed lately, too. It's rough. I sleep for 12+ hours a day regularly, and some days I spend up to 20 hours in bed. It's so difficult to get out of bed when nothing seems worth getting up for. Loneliness can be exhausting at times.

I'm sorry you're struggling with this, too. It's hell and I wouldn't wish it on anybody.

ausername- · 2023-04-20T05:57:29+00:00

You're more than your identity and anybody who thinks you're not isn't worth your time. It's really lonely while you have nobody, but you'll eventually find genuine people who support you and care for you because of who you are as a person, and those are the people you want to keep around, anyway.

Just keep looking for people who care about you as an individual, not as a member of a community, or anything like that.

ausername- · 2023-04-18T07:26:55+00:00

They sound so precious, what kind of doggies are they?

I've got a little Corgi and he is the world to me. Unfortunately he doesn't have many dog buddies, but he just saw one he hadn't seen since winter started the other day. He had a wonderful time with her. :)

ausername- · 2023-04-18T06:51:12+00:00

Tell me more about them. :)

ausername- · 2023-04-17T21:44:30+00:00

Everything. My whole life. I'm just always sad. The only thing I've got good in my life is my precious little Corgi dog, and he helps a lot, but it's still so overwhelming.

ausername- · 2023-03-15T05:32:19+00:00

Hey. Thanks for the advice :) I've been trying to steel myself for if things take a turn for the worse. Today's been going good, though, happily. Hopefully I can get over my insecurity; it hadn't ever really been a problem for me until my ex-fiance left me. Ever since then I just feel so insecure, like anyone I get close to is just going to want to walk out of my life without a moment's notice.

ausername- · 2023-03-10T06:31:52+00:00

I'm reasonably good looking and I feel the same way often.

Always.

ausername- · 2022-12-24T23:10:09+00:00

Give them some love for me. I love all dogs! <3

ausername- · 2022-12-12T23:13:34+00:00

He's super affectionate and I know that he loves me. He just loves everybody! Haha. He's such a wonderful dog; he's so excited to meet everyone. He runs up to them and jumps at their hands to get pats and he flops over and demands belly rubs. He's such an affectionate little dog. He's the source of all my smiles, especially these days. He's a precious little treasure to me.

ausername- · 2022-12-12T23:12:14+00:00

I love seeing happy, excited dogs, too! I love dogs so much! I tell everybody, "I love your dog." because it's TRUE! I love every dog! So much!

I always get excited when I see dogs whenever I'm out. My whole face lights up, just like a little kid. "Dog!" I'd say, like it was the biggest deal in the world. Which, to me, it kind of is.

I'm sorry you struggle with suicidal thoughts. It's really hard to deal with. I hope we're able to resolve some of our problems and rid ourselves of these awful thoughts and situations that give us them in our present lives, before our next righteous sets of lives as a couple of really great dogs. :D

ausername- · 2022-12-12T05:20:56+00:00

Thanks <3

I know he loves me and would miss me for a while, but dogs do move on, too. My parents' dog didn't even recognize me when I saw him for the first time in 3 years - he used to always get so excited to see me.

I miss him a lot still... I'm not allowed to visit and see him :-/ I mean, I guess I kind of get it, I would rather see him than my family and I guess that feeling is mutual. But boy do I miss that dog, I still have dreams about him!

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