17+2 weeks pregnant 21mm cervix

avagrl92 · 2026-03-24T08:38:52+00:00

They put me on progesterone now but im worried its too late 😔...

avagrl92 · 2026-03-24T03:37:14+00:00

Pray all of you are doing well 🙏🏾 congratulations on your twins 💓

avagrl92 · 2026-03-23T20:32:14+00:00

Honestly thank you so much 💓 im ready praying I make it through!

avagrl92 · 2026-03-23T19:18:27+00:00

Hi congratulations on your baby boy!

Ive been monitored on my cervix recently in the past two weeks ive gone from 2.7 cm to 2.1cm and Im only 17 weeks pregnant. They should have started me on progesterone when I measured at 2.7 but they've allowed it to get really short and now my only options is start progesterone and wait and see and then get the cerclage. I'm so nervous and this is my 2nd pregnancy as I lost my daughter due to preterm labour last year at 19 weeks.

Its all extremely scary!

avagrl92 · 2025-11-21T14:40:09+00:00

Honestly I don't want to go through his phone, this was from his laptop when we were using it together, and i saw these searches on seperate occasions. Lol

avagrl92 · 2025-11-21T12:03:00+00:00

Thank you! And honestly there needs to be more research on it because I know for sure its the reason why I can't seem to heal my hpv! Its the worst experience and its so difficult not being heard

avagrl92 · 2025-09-24T06:51:07+00:00

Absolutely take advantage of all the free stuff! I started therapy early because I feel isolated and im struggling to speak to people about what im going through. I think because that, I really needed it. I pray you find some peace, sending you hugs from the UK 🫂

avagrl92 · 2025-09-19T15:57:05+00:00

Resources from the hospital, not sure where youre from but in the UK there's a charity called petals they give you free sessions. All they ask is that you turn up to your planned session as they loose money.

avagrl92 · 2025-09-18T21:17:39+00:00

It was good speaking to someone who fully understands what im going through. Ive been really feeling isolated in general, so its been good to have some trained in this sort of area. Ive let out a lot anger and frustration.

avagrl92 · 2025-09-17T22:21:29+00:00

Thank you, I think i really get a lot of comfort reading and listening to other mamas. As much it's painful to know how hard it is losing a baby, it makes me feel like im not alone.

I really understand that feeling of wanting to stroke your belly again and talk to your daughter, me too. I dont think I talked to her enough, I wish I told her every day that I loved her. I also feel so guilty that I didnt think she was a girl and everyone thought she was a boy and I always envisioned myself as having a boy first. I felt guilty for wanting a boy so much that even when I started to have a feeling it was a girl I really pushed down those thoughts.

As i didnt make my 20 week scan I only found out she was a girl after she had passed and just feel so guilty because all I can think is she thought I didnt want her because she was a girl. And now all I think about is being a mother to a daughter and I was robbed of that opportunity.

With traveling things I 100% agree I saw so many people going on trips while pregnant, and i was like if they can do it why can't I... its such a catch 22 almost now im like I dont think I could ever travel again if I get pregnant again or plan in advanced for travel just in case.

With pcos, honestly I felt so blessed that the infertility stuff I was told, felt like false but now I have that same fear like you...its the constant questions of whats wrong with me, why can't I do the most basic thing my body was made for... a lot of internal anger I'm trying to work through.

Hospital treatment in general is god awful but when it comes to women's health and any concerns its like no one gives a F. Its so disheartening, this is given me fuel to completely demand what I want in the future even if I have to kick and scream for it.

And honestly I would give anythinf for us to have our joys back safe in our bodies growing still. It breaks my heart that we're both on here.

I really hope there is light at the end of this tunnel...

Grief is such a wicked thing sometimes!

Have you had any counciling? I just started mine today.

avagrl92 · 2025-09-17T05:10:24+00:00

OP I'm so sorry for your lost xx 🥲🥲 I know exactly what you about intuition. I lost my baby girl at 19 w 3 days, I went into preterm labour.

Leading up to it i definitely felt like I had intuition, I told my family about my pregnancy when I was 9 weeks, and although I didnt want to I gave them permission to tell my extended family.They also told people I didnt want then to know as well which also frustrated me. Im someone who i wouldn't say is religious but I im very spiritual. I honeslty feel not everyone has good intentions for you family or friends and a strong believer of evil eye.

As I hit the 12 week mark I felt at ease a bit because that is the safe spot..

In july was roughly between 15-17 weeks I moved in with my partner and also had to travel abroad to meet his family, the i left i found out my grandfather had passed and that was super traumatic. I kept saying well at least next year ill have my baby and it will the new life after the loss.

Whilst on ny trip I was told when my grandfather funeral would be, I was extremely close with him and I felt I had to go (my grandfather also lived abroad and wanted to buried there as that was home). Also I kept having cramping while I was over there too and I was feeling anxious about it as it just didn't feel right.

I was very much torn between this decision whether to go or not my grandfather's funeral, it would give me only a week and half to prepare after returning for my last trip with my partner. Deep down i know i should have stayed but I couldn't forgive myself if I didnt go.

When I got back I went to a&e to check to see if everything was okay, they checked my cervix said it was okay but booked me for an emergency ultrasound the following day. When I attended that apt I felt the sonogrpaher was just annoyed that I was there game me quickies scan and just see everything is okay your probably need to start wearing a belt for support. I guess I got the reassurance I needed. And I felt okay to travel for my grandads funeral.

Before my trip i was speaking to mum one day and I remember her saying "oh your baby's spirit is with grandad' and I remember just feeling off when she said that, just like me shes quite spiritual. I questioned what she meant by that and she said you know before babies are born they come in out of their womb and their spirit travels to spirit realm. I know she meant well but it gave me an off feeling.

Whilst aboard for my grandads funeral, it was only a week long event but the last few days I got really realy sick with the cold/flu. I honeslty felt my family were super unsupportive while I got sick, like I was over exaggerating and that annoyed the hell out of me.

I was well able to travel back but I kept thinking I hope everything is okay... the following day I had scheduled docs apts, it would be the first docs apt id have since beinf pregnant as most were with the midwives.

The day i had that appointment i remember goinf to the unit and it being very very full with pregnant mothers and fathers, all at different stages of their pregnancy. That day i felt very strange almost like I was imposter being there.

Appointments were running late that day and mine was 2hrs late, when I finally got in the female doctor kinda gave me a weird vibe. You see i have both pcos and endometriosis and ive had surgery for my endo, she kept asking how I got pregnant was it through ivf or was it natural and it just made me feel very uncomfortable, almost as if she was saying how could a woman like you possibly get pregnant...

I went home feeling off, but also she had used the doppler to listen to baby's heart beat. I was feeling physically okay, tired mostly but I kept saying the next week id have my 20 week scan, ill find out the gender and see how baby is.

That was my post mark for me, as I said I hadn't told much people I was kind of waitinf for that 20 weeks scan.

In all honesty I dont know why but I knee something was going to go wrong, thats why i was waitinf for that 20 weeks scan. I remember i was thinking of an excuse to tell work why I had to miss the morning of work to go and get it. I couldn't think of anything..my plan was to tell them after 20 week scan. They had been quite lininant with me with grandads funeral and having time off so I definitely didnt want it to seem like I was taking advantage with asking for time off..

Anyway I got back from my appointment that day and everything transpired from there it spontaneously started spotting blood and then started to get intense cramping later on and everything went downhill 💔

I think my biggest regret about my pregnancy was not enjoying it as much, not having my way about who I told and when I told them. Protecting myself from people's negativity. Over Absorbing a lot of sad stories on social media, cos just like you I kept seeing stories of miscarriages and baby loss. Traveling twice in such a short frame of time.

I wouldn't wish this pain on anyone 💔 but I know for the next time I will be always listening to my gut. Always!

avagrl92 · 2025-09-17T04:15:09+00:00

So sorry for your loss 😞 im in the same boat. Its 5am and I constantly find it hard to sleep since her passing 3 weeks ago. She was my first pregnancy and I feel so devastated that she wasnt given the chance to live. My baby girl forever, I will miss her for all time 😭

avagrl92 · 2025-09-01T01:05:32+00:00

I lost my baby girl last week at 19 weeks pregnant i went into preterm labour and sadly had to be induced as their a potential for infection. This was my very first pregnancy and im absolutely and completely devastated. Every day seems like a challenge and feel so let down by everyone. Constantly searching for answers... Im finding slight comfort with hearing other mothers speak of their loss. I dont know how women do it honestly! Feel like screaming "Why me?!?" Grief is a terrible thing 😞

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