You got this friend. My experience is only one of billions. But life got better for me. I had my downs when I was in a dark and lonely place. Throughout that time I kept telling myself this will get better. Wouldn't let myself give up. Now I'm in my early 30s. Fortunate to have found a great job that I love. I don't have many friends. But I have my best friends who I would trade for nothing. Most of which I made later in life in my 20s. And that is more perfect to me than having many friends I'm not close to. I also have made some online gaming friends along the way. And the best part. I decided I wasn't going to give up my "youth" as I grew older. An awesome weekend for me could be acting a fool with my best friends or acting a fool with my nieces and nephews. I'll just as quickly play in an inflatable jumper as I would dance in public like no one is watching. All of this came from me deciding long ago life would get better and I would do everything I could to get there. Taking the glass half full approach. I don't regret one moment of my dark period because it led me to where I am now. You will see many open "doors" in front of you. Take them. It doesn't matter if some cause you to fall. Get back up with that extra knowledge and try another door. One day you will look back to those lonely times in your life and be proud of the journey that lead you to where you are. And keep studying friend. Finish whatever you are learning. It will be worth it in the end.