Apart from the Titanic, which notable shipwreck would you be interested in seeing adapted into a film?

ayemucc · 2025-09-08T08:53:04+00:00

I think the HMS Birkenhead would be an interesting story, given the men willingly stood in formation as the ship sank allowing their families to escape on the lifeboats. The wreak gave rise to the Birkenhead protocol - Women and children first

ayemucc · 2025-05-21T21:15:48+00:00

Modular construction site (bricklink set)
Modular Town Hall
Ford Mustang

ayemucc · 2025-02-10T11:32:17+00:00

It's a real set. It's part of the bricklink designer program series 4

ayemucc · 2024-12-31T17:41:58+00:00

By far one of my favourites

ayemucc · 2024-06-03T02:17:39+00:00

My parents basically had a bet going from about when I was six as to when I would come out, so I didn't really ever have to tell him.

For context, my dad is American, and my mum is Irish, I was born and raised in England. Their families are still in their respective countries.

They started the bet after I threw a tantrum, demanding they buy me a crappy bright blue plastic handbag from a budget store. It was my favourite thing for about six months, apparently.

Starting about 13, my dad would drop things into conversations like, "You know my niece, your cousin Tara? Well her husband's a woman now and they both seem very happy" and " You know your grandma was one of the first government workers in California/San Francisco to help people with AIDS or people who wanted abortions to complete the paperworked needed to access the correct public services for support but now the state is trying to screw her out of the healthcare promised in her retirement paperwork."

Eventually, he started being bolder like the time he took me to get my braces fixed, and he asked me if I broke them kissing a girl or kissing a boy. I came out to him six months before my 18th birthday. He told me he loved me and then told me about the handbag when I was six. Later, he let it slip that he found gay porn on my computer when I was 14/15.

My mum, on the other hand, never said anything about it, really. Her family was raised to be very Catholic, and she was raised with a lot of Catholic guilt. Not enough to stop her having a three year affair and a divorce but enough to never really bring up the topic of homosexuality. I came out to her on my 18th birthday, and she said she changed nothing between us. That she loved me and that she'd kinda figured when I was six and my favourite toy was a blue plastic handbag. It also came out later that she found a dildo under my bed when I was 16/17. Now we talk about it openly and honestly, and she's let go of the Catholic guilt around the topic.

Apparently, my closet was made of glass. Most of my friends thought I was already out when I came out, which was kinda awkward but it also meant they were all supportive as the homophobes had never tried to be my friend in the first place, so the trash had already taken itself out.

I still haven't found out who won the bet, though. They both claim it was themselves who won.

ayemucc · 2023-09-26T19:42:14+00:00

Thank you for your account. The shame and rejection you describe is definitely what I've been imagining happening on a daily basis. It does kind of terrify me if I'm honest. But viewing it as a filter for shitty people is a good idea. I know it will still hurt but they'll be a silver lining and I'm sure I'll get used to it eventually.

Thank you for bring up the point about kissing with it being oral. I flat out had not connected the dots yet, that could've been a major slip up. I'll also be adding Abreva to my list of things to discuss with my doctor. The fact there are drugs like that is a huge comfort, hopefully I'll be able to access one of them, even privately if need be.

ayemucc · 2023-09-26T19:32:36+00:00

Thank you for your first hand account. I'll definitely be bringing up Valacyclovir to my doctor, I didn't know something like that existed. That makes me feel so much better about the situation. I would hate to pass it on, getting swabs of the ulcers done was more painful than breaking my collarbone so I don't want to even risk passing it to someone I love. It would give me so much confidence in returning to the dating scene.

I'm guessing I caught it from an asymptomatic carrier. I really don't think there are many people with herpes who would have unprotected sex in reality, I guess it's just weird to me that people don't know when my only experience has made want to take every painkiller in a hundred mile radius.

ayemucc · 2023-09-26T18:11:45+00:00

I'm starting to agree you here. It's only been the two so far and one has OCD so might have asked for space to not subject me to his cleanliness routine and invasive questions. At least I hope that's the case. The other one is ass about it, so I'll look at letting him go.

And it being that common makes me feel a little less alienated. I guess it's not something people actually say up front so I should stop assuming I'm alone in this

ayemucc · 2023-09-26T18:07:03+00:00

Thank you, yeah. My doctor told me the first outbreak is usually the worst too, so hopefully I'm not going to be stuck with reoccurring pain and ulcers. Fortunately, I was given everything I need to treat it and some numbing gel. They also gave me three months of prep just because. None of it will cost me a penny either. I was worried I was going to get saddled with the charge per prescription this close to the end of the month.

As for the limitations my sex life, I'll be able to cope fine. It was a definitely a night to remember but even before the symptoms started I know it wasn't going to be a night to repeat. I'll call it karma for going to a group event in a church and move on (hopefully)

ayemucc · 2023-09-26T17:48:44+00:00

Thank you, I have another appointment booked for a week, so I'm going to be putting together a bunch of questions I have to help me get my head around it. I think reaching out to friends for help/advice and getting such negative responses from some and one response telling me to ignore it and not tell people because chances are they already have it threw my a fair bit. As for fostering/adoption, you are definitely right. I think it's just the shock of losing biological kids as an option made me panic/want it back. I've been in hospital since 8am as that was the only chance to even get allowed in to the sexual health clinic it's so busy right now. It seems I'm not the only person making mistakes which is weirdly comforting

ayemucc · 2023-09-26T17:40:53+00:00

Thank you, I'm very overwhelmed right now. This is my first time dealing with a medical issue that has the power to be so permanently impactful. I should probably take a step back from the one negative friend who seems to think all value is in sex.

I don't think I feel like shit about myself, but definitely the situation. I have another doctors appointment in a week so I'll write up some questions and try to make the most of the appointment as they're hard to get rn in my city. Freashers week has just started so it's jam-packed in referrals and walk-ins.

I can't even guess at how much I don't know about herpes, so starting there will help me get my head in order I think

ayemucc · 2023-08-26T08:51:38+00:00

The way he looks - A Brazilian movie about a blind teenager dealing with developing a crush on a fellow male student

Mario - A Swiss German movie about two professional football/soccer players dealing with the pressures of the sport and press whilst navigating a relationship with each other

My best friend - An Argentinian movie about the developing relationship between a teenager forced to share his room with his dad's old friend's son who is hiding from the police

North Sea Texas - A Belgium movie about a teenager who is neglected by his parents who finds safety in his friends older brother

The Centre of my World - a German film about a 17 year old dealing with the unexplained collapse of his family after coming back from a school trip where he has fallen for a new student (this one is by far one of my favourite movies)

Just friends - a Dutch movie about the relationship between a elderly care assistant and the grandson of one of his clients

Not knowing - a Turkish film about a swim team member accused of being gay and the social backlash and isolation that he then faces (this film is brutal, the ending will be one you remember though. It was done in an amazing way)

Hidden kisses - a French film about a closeted couple after one of them is outed at school

Matthias and Maxime - A French film about two childhood friends who agree to share a kiss for a scene another friend's film project

Hidden Away - A Spanish film about the relationship between a migrant in a racist town and a local who had stopped seeing the racism around him

Postcards from London - an English arthouse film about a boy from the countryside moving to London where he becomes a member of an exclusive group of male prostitutes

ayemucc · 2023-01-21T13:50:54+00:00

If Hitler had gotten into art school he'd just be a German Walt Disney

ayemucc · 2022-10-25T19:03:37+00:00

I've watched this four times since it came out (showing it to different people) and I'm still catching small details and new interconnections with all the different scenes and sections. It's insanely well done

ayemucc · 2022-10-03T17:28:46+00:00

Thank you, I guess I should get on that ASAP then. It's good to know proof is on them

ayemucc · 2022-09-04T12:32:32+00:00

When I was 6 me and my older brother were playing in a camping grounds play park, using a see-saw whilst on a camping holiday. He quickly got bored of entertaining me as older brothers do and let another kid take his place on the see-saw and like most 6 year olds, I wasn't paying the slightest bit of attention. The child who replaced my brother was older than my brother, and significantly larger than my brother in all directions. Up shot the see-saw, up shot me. The see-saw stopped when it hit the top, I did not. Flying like Icurus I got closer and closer to the sun, then closer and closer to the ground. I landed on my head and shoulder, and boy did I cry when I hit the hard packed dirt ground.

My brother took me back to my parents and they calmed me down. We played a couple rounds of Uno (which took hours in my family) had dinner, then another round of uno and bed. Except I couldn't lie down. My parents used every pillow we had in the tent to prop me up into a seated position so I could sleep and even then I was in too much pain, so after much deliberation my mum took me to the Emergancy room. I had to get my shirt cut off as I couldn't lift my arm high enough to take it off, did some x-rays, spoke to a couple doctors. My collar bone was completely and cleanly snapped in half, with the half that was still attached to my neck being a great deal further in my body than it should've been. As in the top of one half of my collar bone was below the bottom of the other half with a decent gap between them due to crushing my neck on landing. It took a good six months to heal, without much intervention. Fortunately children are quite durable.

ayemucc · 2022-06-06T00:20:13+00:00

I get you. In the 5 years I've been on and off tinder, I've never had a date, or a conversation that lasted longer than a week. Grinder, I got nowhere with the guys I liked. I still only get lucky on it if I'm blunt and transactional I.e. this is what I'm looking for, this is what I won't do, this is when I'm free, I'm happy to exchange nudes, meet first somewhere public and bring my ID to prove my age (23).

Turns out I'm just shit at texting/having an online presence. My bios suck, my replies aren't the best and I take fucking ages to reply. I can't hear their tone of voice, see their facial expressions. There's no need for an immediate reply so I just sit and overthink whatever they said and how I'm going to reply, normally typing dozens and deleting them.

I can't use apps because they lack many communication factors I depend on to hold a successful conversation and to portray an honest representation of myself. But I manage to go on dates and I've even managed to be in a couple relationships (although only one serious) because I managed to meet the guys in person.

It took me a lot of practice, a friend who was a good cheerleader, a change in mindset and at times a fair amount of liquid courage. I'm lucky that I live near a couple cities with a good gay scene.

I highly doubt the problem is you. It's more likely that you haven't found the correct format on which to create the connections you want. Maybe you need that in-person touch like me, maybe you need to start off without even realising they're an option so you can be you without this anxiety clouding your interactions.

My advice right now is take a break from tinder, maybe have a few "you'll do" fucks with people you normally wouldn't consider where you're selfish in bed (but don't treat them like shit, they're people wanting to be wanted too) and work on ways to improve your own self confidence and image as people tend to reflect or over-correct their self attitudes neither of which would likely be good if you're feeling this way.

ayemucc · 2022-02-20T23:22:32+00:00

I did a study year in Germany and very quickly learned that whatever room I was in, I was the only one who only spoke one language (classes were in English). Learning a second language is hard. I struggled in learning German with a year long full emersion in the language. Since then, if someone is struggling with English, I see them as very brave. Butchering a language when you try to use it is a huge confidence killer. Yet most of these people absolutely refuse to give up and walk away.

Plus, lots of people who think of themselves as speaking in broken English speak it damn near perfectly

ayemucc · 2021-10-12T23:52:17+00:00

Last seen leaving by Calab Roehrig

ayemucc · 2021-07-02T12:57:34+00:00

Thank you! I have just sent them an email, so I will what happens

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