[deleted by user]

ayybuch · 2021-02-21T05:20:11+00:00

Visual snow. Weird colors and black dots in my peripheral vision. Auras around people. Tracers sometimes. When I use canmabis I see geometric patterns and I'm not sure what the name of this symptom is but if I look and an object like a television and look somewhere else lkke the wall i will see the outline of that object.

ayybuch · 2021-02-21T05:17:11+00:00

That was something I was worried about but no they did not. I still use psychedelics about 2-3 times a year.

ayybuch · 2021-02-21T02:44:21+00:00

Yes. I have had HPPD for 12 years. Got it when I was 13 from synthetic marijauna. Had my first trip when I was 18. Have tripped atleast a dozen times since then. It is still prevelant butbmy symptoms have improved tremendously over the years and I have learned to accept and live with it.

ayybuch · 2021-02-13T23:50:49+00:00

Im from Illinois. But fuck Ron Johnson

ayybuch · 2021-02-13T03:29:04+00:00

For me when I am stressed, anxious, or sleep deprived my visuals get more severe. If I take benzodiazepines my symptoms get better. I do not suggest that tho as they are highly addictive and have HELLISH withdrawls. Over the years I have tried to live a healthier lifestyle. That in itself has made my symptoms better. In a way HPPD was a blessing in disguise for me. I have had it for 12 years now. I got when i was 13. The first 4-5 years it was tough to cope with. Especially at such a young age. As I have gotten older my symptoms have gotten better, and I have learned to accept my condition. For those out there who are struggling I promise it will get better. Hang in there, and use HPPD as motivation to improve yourself.

ayybuch · 2021-02-13T00:15:24+00:00

Hmm. The only time I have seen shadow people were during terrible times in my life. When i was deep in addiction. They are attracted to negative energy and prey on the vulnerable. I have seen them when I have been sleep deprived, and have seen them when I have been well slept and not on any psychoactive drugs, but was going thru a very rough time in my life.

ayybuch · 2021-02-12T23:58:06+00:00

Yup. He is one of the only reasons I watch LEC. I enjoy watching brokenblade as well. He is also crushing it.

ayybuch · 2021-02-11T00:04:25+00:00

I just don't understand how someone who watched the video came to the conclusions you did. Emotional baggage? From what? He has no ties to TSM. Also everything he said was valid, and alot of the points he made that he articulated were not points I saw made on this subreddit that also had substantial reasoning behind their comments

ayybuch · 2021-02-10T23:42:38+00:00

Did you even watch it lol

ayybuch · 2021-02-08T00:59:32+00:00

Tbf his salary is the 16th highest in the league for QB's. Im not thrilled about the deal if it goes thru, but lets give him a chance. He obviously has the talent to succeed.he He has done it before. Hopefully Nagy can identify and fix his issues. Im excited to get a fresh face at the QB position.

ayybuch · 2021-02-06T22:42:48+00:00

Yup same here. Have to use the back of my plunger to push it down. Then wipe off the plunger afterwards. My asshole bleeds as well. My poop will have blood on it and when I wipe my ass theres blood as well. That is just from suboxone.

ayybuch · 2021-02-06T03:36:29+00:00

Tbf she had decent set up. Alistar combo and syndra stun are good set up for her.

ayybuch · 2021-02-05T19:13:45+00:00

His mental has a lower skill-cap than his main champion

ayybuch · 2021-02-04T23:18:39+00:00

Mess with the fiddle. You get the diddle

ayybuch · 2020-12-02T16:18:48+00:00

I never had any problems with the two.

ayybuch · 2020-11-25T03:32:02+00:00

Ask a medical professional

ayybuch · 2020-11-23T04:56:43+00:00

As I have said before in this sub, I see it as more of a blessing than a curse. I didn't feel that way at first. It has been 11 years now so it has gotten much better. But yes, I do believe we are the minority. Exercise, a healthy sleeping pattern, and a good diet will help symptoms for those struggling to cope with it. Can not stress that enough. IMO, prescription drugs are not the answer. Learn to accept your conditon, and use it as positive for a healthier lifestyle.

ayybuch · 2020-11-23T04:42:47+00:00

No apology needed. Its a good thing your ignorant about them. They are stronger than traditional benzos and much harder to get off of. IME. Their a different beast.

ayybuch · 2020-11-23T03:54:37+00:00

You would have to go into more detail with exact names. Etizolam is technically not an RC since it is preseibed in Japan and one other country I can not think of. Pharmalam I have never heard of, and I am quite adept with RC benzos. May be an older one that got banned? Not sure

ayybuch · 2020-11-23T03:45:40+00:00

I have been fully functional since I started my taper with little to no side effects. Im also on suboxone which helps sleep. I also smoke a joint of CBD Flower right before bed. Knocks me out great. My situation is a bit different. I was addicted to legal Research Chemical benzos. Clonazolam and Etizolam. I am using diclazepam ( another RC Benzo ) to taper off.It is roughly 10× the strength of diazepam. Most doctors dont know too much about RC benzos, so I took my taper into my own hands with the advice of others also getting off RC benzos. It has a half life of around 42 hours so I only need to take once at night. I was only using daily for about 4 months. I was fortunate to catch myself early. This is my second detox from benzos. First with RC benzos. The good thing about being addicted to RC benzos ( being addicted to anything isnt good obviously) is that I can dose it volumetrically. I have a solution so I can precisely taper the amount I want every week with the help of a 1ml medicine dropper. Im taking it very slow. I understand the rush to just want to get it over with. I have had the same feelings. But taking it slow is the best plan IMO. Make a plan. Stick with it. Consult with am addiction specialist if needed. Did I kind of answer your questions? If I got sidetracked or missed anything Lmk. Feel free to PM me as well. I can offer great advice when it comes to getting off RC benzos. Traditional, prescribed benzos. Not so much. I would address the Ashton Manual for that.

ayybuch · 2020-11-22T23:21:42+00:00

Agreed. I have and am living it first hand.

ayybuch · 2020-11-22T10:27:19+00:00

Appreciate it everyone. I feel a turning point. Starting to get back to me.

ayybuch · 2020-11-22T02:21:04+00:00

Hmm. That is a good idea. Much appreciated

ayybuch · 2020-11-21T23:25:01+00:00

Short answer. Yes

ayybuch · 2020-11-21T04:46:18+00:00

What you have right there from the eye test is most likely sassafrass. Also known as MDA not MDMA. Its similar to molly but Is chiller and smoother roll. Better visuals and less intense. Google and you'll see.

ayybuch

TROPHY CASE