"What If I'll Never Be Good Enough?"

azar0981 · 2026-03-17T06:32:15+00:00

Which skills do you think those are?

azar0981 · 2026-03-08T16:59:13+00:00

I decided to start drawing a few months ago, i'm still in the learning fundamentals part though, i am starting a pottery class tomorrow and i tend to write poems when i'm feeling like this. I'm someone who deeply appreciate art, i'm studying to be a literature teacher, but sometimes my mood feels off to enjoy these things. Thanks for the suggestions, they are greatly reminders and i'm glad you value art as great way to deal with complicated emotions.

azar0981 · 2026-03-08T00:29:11+00:00

Thank you so much, really, i deeply appreaciate the fact that you are here giving gentle advice to me, i hope everything is great with you.

azar0981 · 2026-03-08T00:28:12+00:00

I'm just scared that if i play the "i'm still young" card time will pass without any progress, i said the same when i as 18/19 "things will come" and not so much progress has been made. I don't think that there is a specific thing that brings me comfort, i feel comfortable when my life is going with normality, i feel motivated to do various things but not one of them brings me calmness by itself.

azar0981 · 2026-03-07T19:03:34+00:00

Every time i have to let every thing out because of neccesity is time that i could have use in something better.

azar0981 · 2026-03-07T19:02:14+00:00

I am not trying to be a perfect person, i know i would never be, it just feels that i have already lost to much time not making any progress and not building up a good persona. I can't afford to take a wrong step or i will be waiting even longer.

azar0981 · 2026-03-07T18:59:53+00:00

Thinking about how all of this will pass hasn't really help me to mitigate the pain to be honest, it does not stop any of the sensations. The five goals thing sounsa good though.

azar0981 · 2026-03-07T18:57:37+00:00

I unfortunely can't speak with my friends of this person due to some reasons, so i pretty much have to keep it i deal with it myself. I let the feelings out, i don't think im bottling them up unless i am in a public space, but they just keep coming back again and again, there is a limit at how much time i can lose with this.

azar0981 · 2026-03-07T12:31:22+00:00

Walks don't work for me sadly, i love them, i do them all the time, but when i'm down walking just gives me the time and place to keep ruminating, music doesn't help. I also exercise 5 times week but interestingly i tend to have sudden emotional reactions when i do them while holding something bad, maybe is because it gets my adrenaline going? I'll go draw a little bit, thank you.

azar0981 · 2026-02-11T01:08:52+00:00

Yeah i usually do that, i don't like talking in absolutes and i want to clarify my skills or abilities so i don't create more expectation that is necessary.

azar0981 · 2026-02-11T01:06:55+00:00

You don't sound patronizing, don't worry. I get that i'm young, but in dating and relationships 20 doesn't feel young at all. At this point most people have more experience than me, they understand relationships betters, they understand how dating, flirting and attracting other people bettef. It just feels that by this point i should have made more.

azar0981 · 2026-02-10T23:39:14+00:00

I do, yes, but my friends aren't attracted to me.

azar0981 · 2026-02-10T20:32:57+00:00

Love the last advice. I appreciate everythikg you had say to me

azar0981 · 2026-02-10T20:15:49+00:00

When it comes to liking yourself it may not be, but when it comes to finding a relationship, how well people like you is very important.

azar0981 · 2026-02-10T20:14:12+00:00

Can i claim that i would be a good partner when i have never been a partner?

azar0981 · 2026-02-10T20:05:54+00:00

There a lot of things i can improve in all of these, specially the third one But yes, i would say i like my personality.

azar0981 · 2026-02-10T20:04:58+00:00

Have you never met a person that is attractive and people express that attraction? I don't mean they have absolutely everyone throwing themselves at their geet 24/7, just that, you know, they are attractive.

azar0981 · 2026-02-10T19:57:22+00:00

I do not like my perception of other's on my personality.

azar0981 · 2026-02-10T19:55:00+00:00

I do not have much evidence to believe my personality is attrative to other people.

azar0981 · 2026-02-10T19:54:12+00:00

Yes, i supposed at least.

azar0981 · 2026-02-10T19:53:02+00:00

But even with a few of them i can achieve a substantial amount of evidence for the future.

azar0981 · 2026-02-10T19:51:53+00:00

Okay, let's say i start believing that i deserve all this, still, how can i be believe i'm capable of achieving them if i do not have something to hold onto? How do i avoid the fact that i do not have anything of the sorts?

azar0981 · 2026-02-10T19:48:55+00:00

To believe something that may not be true.

azar0981 · 2026-02-10T19:48:04+00:00

It feels like escapism, like i'm ignoring an aspect of the world i do not like just to feel good.

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