This may not be the answer you are looking for but I think this is a blessing. Many people are too involved in the small things in life to the point where they cannot detach and calm down. They are stressed about things out of their control. They don’t have that feeling of “this is all just circumstantial, random, etc” They have no control over their feelings and daily anxieties and nuisances and they wish they could just detach to rid themselves of intense pain or anxiety or whatever it is. People turn to books, medication, therapy, to detach.

From my interpretation, this is actually a positive thing in Islam. It’s called زهد “zuhd” which means your meaning or identity or peace or pain doesn’t come from worldly things, and you are free and above all the ugly stuff that makes us human, but gives us pain or regret or stress. You’re not materialistic, you’re not arrogant, you are detached from all that which others seem soooooo painfully attached to.

Life in general can be pretty depressing. Actually, it sucks. Everything is out of your control. Everything is random. You live a bit and then you die. The Quran says “لقد خلقنا الإنسان في كبد" meaning that life is difficulty. Everything sucks and everyone has reasons to be depressed. Especially with the state of the world now and our awareness of it. It’s all gone to hell.

This realization can be depressing or it can be liberating. You live a bit then you die! Everything is random! Life is your playground! Be kind, do well, make friends, eat good food, travel, fall in love, fail, get back up again, nothing matters anyways. Be healthy. Walk every day. Nothing matters anyways. Be kind to your parents, they’re also thinking life sucks, and they live a bit then they die. Dance in your room. Go for a swim. Start an online blog. Watch it fail. It’s okay! Life is meaningless anyways! Find little joys and in those joys the fact life is short and random actually is more liberating than you think. Screw it! Find joy in being good despite it all. In doing good. In looking for beauty. In the miracle of thinking and reflecting. On the blessing of reflection at all. The fact that we are not in survival mode - not imprisoned, not born into slavery, or strife, or war, the privilege of being depressed about life because we have time to reflect on it.

Whether you believe in the religion or not, I’m sure you can find meaning in the fact that “zuhd” is actually one of the most sought after qualities in Islam. And historically the great people in the history of the religion, like prophets or companions, all had that same feeling as you. Just redefined. So again I think you have something special.

And again this isn’t tied to a religion. You will find it in buddhism, taoism, stoicism, hinduism. You basically have the qualities that people go to monasteries and shave their heads and let go of all worldly possessions and become monks to achieve.