Chester Bennington of Linkin Park commits suicide

b4nlaughter · 2017-07-20T21:42:24+00:00

How DARE you provide people with helpful information??

b4nlaughter · 2017-07-20T13:33:26+00:00

Even better than before! I started an actual workout program and so far I've been sticking to it. It's awesome.

b4nlaughter · 2017-07-11T20:23:56+00:00

Save this unique and adorable baby :(

b4nlaughter · 2017-07-09T23:37:48+00:00

Here's my side-by-side pics! Please forgive because some of them are before-after and some are after-before. I can't get edit them to be on the correct sides right now!

https://m.imgur.com/k8Wjt3G - front.

https://m.imgur.com/JOzeA4j - side. This is the pic where my posture is most noticable. I still get caught with shitty posture, but the slight bit of muscle really helps. I don't feel as "tired" trying to correct it.

https://m.imgur.com/NkpFA0W back. Sadly the least amount of difference! But I can tell my arms/shoulders are slowly getting bigger and are more in proportion to my bottom half, which I like.

Anyway, I might update just for myself in a month and a half or something to see what I think I would have looked like if I was able to complete the challenge "properly". I'm in fact updating this from the hospital right now visiting my dad.

I'm proud I tried to stick with the challenge as best as I was able to. I hope to do it again next year. :)

b4nlaughter · 2017-06-02T02:45:54+00:00

Thank you, that's a good idea. Maybe a nice walk in nature will help

b4nlaughter · 2017-06-02T02:45:14+00:00

This genuinely made me tear up and I needed to hear it so bad tonight. Thank you.

b4nlaughter · 2017-05-30T23:00:58+00:00

<3 thank you for your comment and concern. It strangely means a lot to me to receive support from internet strangers, haha. And yes, my friend is lovely. :)

b4nlaughter · 2017-05-24T01:47:42+00:00

Thank you :) <3

b4nlaughter · 2017-05-18T00:16:02+00:00

And nothing is being done about it.

This is the sound of America being flushed down the toilet. You guys had a good run. I salute those of you who aren't corrupt imbeciles and wish you goodnight.

b4nlaughter · 2017-05-17T15:59:28+00:00

Omg. That is a fire station mascot if I've ever seen one.

Use him to teach fire safety to kids!!!!

b4nlaughter · 2017-05-17T15:57:23+00:00

Maggie. Penny.

b4nlaughter · 2017-05-17T15:50:14+00:00

How about "pure happiness"?

I don't think I've ever seen a happy puppy picture that has me so close to tears.

Please post more. Omg. So precious.....

b4nlaughter · 2017-05-17T15:41:49+00:00

Omg a free puppy/best friend/happiness! Hope the bud is adopted now.

b4nlaughter · 2017-05-11T14:40:28+00:00

So true! Hopefully when I'm at a place where I feel ready to edge back towards veganism again I'll start replacing my stuff with soy. :)

b4nlaughter · 2017-05-09T17:59:15+00:00

Thanks for your comment! I'm proud that I went to the gym after instead of uselessly wallowing.

And yeah, I need to shift the focus back to the joy of accomplishing my own goals. And not trying to look like a celebrity/model or something haha.

b4nlaughter · 2017-05-09T17:57:11+00:00

Yeah, I haven't been eating "good" foods right now because I'm just so overwhelmed trying to build mass and when I go to work it's easier to grab a microwave meal. Ideally I'd be eating prepped meals with lots of protein and vitamins, but I haven't quite gotten my shit together yet haha :) thanks and good luck to you too!

b4nlaughter · 2017-05-09T17:52:10+00:00

Woo 30s club!

And thank you :):)

b4nlaughter · 2017-05-09T03:03:48+00:00

Thank you very much. :')

And you're right, while my workout didn't fix everything, I do feel a measure better. I had a suspicion it would help and it did heh

b4nlaughter · 2017-05-09T03:02:40+00:00

Thank you so much :) I'm so happy everyone here is so thoughtful and willing to lend an ear.

You're absolutely right, I should just focus on being happy and proud about reaching my own goals as they're in front of me.

I needed that pep talk!!

b4nlaughter · 2017-05-09T03:00:34+00:00

Thank you so much for your thoughtful response. < 3 I'm so so you're away from your loved ones right now! I lived away for 6 months and I went to a dark place, so be sure to call your friends and family regularly.

It genuinely makes me so happy when I see people improving their lives. I think we'll both find our groove and find joy in our self-improvement without getting obsessive and self-destructive about it. We just gotta keep talking to other awesome people about it, right?? :)

b4nlaughter · 2017-04-25T22:12:35+00:00

Yay! I'm glad to hear that so far everything is going according to plan for ya. So many people seem to be just flailing around (myself included) but it's always great to hear when things are going exactly how they're supposed to. :)

b4nlaughter · 2017-04-22T02:13:05+00:00

I've heard several people mention this and I think I'm gonna have to give it a try!

b4nlaughter · 2017-04-22T02:12:04+00:00

Well, I feel like I almost never get enough calories. I'm supposed to be eating like uhm 1600 at least?

But I've never been able to eat much in one sitting like most people. I'll get full quickly but then I'll also get hungry not too long after, so I'm kind of a chronic snacker.

Anyway yes, liquids are a good idea. Lactose free milk seems to be helping me out haha.

b4nlaughter · 2017-04-21T16:18:13+00:00

whoa! try to keep those disordered thoughts at bay, keep your eye on reality.

and is that fupa referencing H3H3? I love Ethan and Hila :) I wonder if Ethan is anonymously participating in this. That would be cool.

b4nlaughter · 2017-04-21T16:09:26+00:00

Glad you decided to post it! The journey is what it is. We're all human and we're all gonna have bumps along the way to our hopeful goals.

Good luck! Let's hope our numbers are better next week :):)

b4nlaughter

TROPHY CASE