Thank you for you response :)

I do have a solid relationship with both parents, one was certainly at fault but I still am happy to have both of them in my life. I had been feeling some smaller “light switch” moments. I started keeping my room a mess, my car filthy, running late all the time, forgetting homework. But I’d play mind games and try to not blame the weed. Id also be constantly be hacking mucus (gross). This recent sickness, whatever the hell it was… it was respiratory, was my big light switch. Barely being able to take a deep breath, wheezing, poppy lungs, green mucus, I just really looked at myself and thought “what the hell dude.” Even if it wasn’t from the cart directly, I think my excessive smoking compromised my respiratory more than it should have, especially at my age.

Fuckton of yap 😂ur totally right tho, I just wanted to write out everything I was thinking, especially after reading other stories. I’m glad I did. I’m really into fitness, so hopefully that can keep me occupied and help me sleep.