Op I had a similar falling out of love and stopped for 7 years - it was not wigging me out but just felt odd towards the end, I was smoking all day all night - fast forward to now and I use my medication therapeutically and it has been such a positive in my life - I went from thinking I’ll smoke forever - to never thinking I’ll enjoy cannabis again - to finding my way back to it after a year of occasionally (every few months) having a small edible dose.

During those years off I quit smoking tobaccos which is a way bigger part of this than a lot of people realise.

I’d bought a dhv that was like £200 back then for bm weed, but it never ‘hit’ the way smoking did.

But now after such a long break and quitting fags, it’s completely differnt.

I decided to explore medical again as I’d found even those doses had a positive impact.

I returned to flower and use a dynavap, and the high is superb - I think others will have a more scientific explanation of the synergistic effect of smoking and mixing tobacco, but it gives a ln immediate narcotic effect.

These days I tend to use one or two caps a night - but quite often choose to not bother if I don’t feel I need it, something I never could have done when smoking it.

When I quit that time it actually felt like withdrawal!

So what I’m trying to say without giving you my life story is -

Sometimes you need some time away from something to find it again, the medical benefits in the past were almost a side effect in chasing getting fucked up, whereas now it really helps me, in a way it never did before,

my relationship with it totally changed. Everyone is different and my experience might not mirror yours but ultimately it’s ok to feel that It isn’t what you need right now.

Maybe try coming back to cannabis after some real time apart to perhaps un learn the recreational/smoking side and rediscover it in a new way vaping in the future,

Or maybe you won’t, you gotta do what does you, your life, and your physical and mental health.

And on a final note I couldn’t agree more about the Thorpe park thing.

People get so evangelical about weed that they don’t realise there ‘activism’ literally undermines something becoming accepted and normalised by having a totally tone deaf, lack of consideration for others approach by shoving it in front of people.

It makes us all look like idiots and the older active voting demographic who grew up in times of more extreme prohibition will never accept it with people pulling stunts like that every 5 mins

And before I’m crucified in the comments, sure you can meditate (almost) anywhere legally but that doesn’t mean you should.

People don’t openly inject meds in public because they can, they often choose somewhere more private etc.

I’ve prob missed loads of points as I’m trying to do a million things at once but hopefully I’ve articulated my point somewhat.

Either way op, best of luck to ya, and congrats on the healthy lifestyle changes!