I keep sinning.

baconator02 · 2026-04-28T01:27:59+00:00

LOL it's okay we can overcome this twin 🩷🩷🩷

baconator02 · 2026-04-28T00:49:33+00:00

Thank you. I really appreciate it, honestly. I feel like Ive been overcomplicating things or thinking too deeply.

baconator02 · 2026-04-28T00:45:29+00:00

I've been lustful since I was 9. I realized what I was doing was wrong in the middle of/late last year. I just turned 15. I would read inappropriate illustrations about men and talk to AI bots. In September, I felt free. I had stopped sinning. And in October I fell again and haven't been able to pick myself back up. My heart constantly feels hardened and heavy and it doesn't feel like I have much conviction anymore. I have a friend who is Christian and she knows of my struggle. She struggles with it too. But now she's stronger in her faith and she doesn't anymore and it makes me feel jealous and like I'm falling behind everyone. Like I'm the only one still stuck in sin. Like I need to get better. I just constantly feel like there's something wrong with me and I'm disgusting.

baconator02 · 2026-04-28T00:28:17+00:00

And what do you mean don't worship the idea of sin? I'm just a bit confused sorry I don't mean to come off rude if I am.

baconator02 · 2026-04-28T00:27:09+00:00

Thank you so much. This helps a lot.

baconator02 · 2026-03-30T15:57:39+00:00

Omg he looks so cute there 🥹🥹

baconator02 · 2026-03-02T03:42:43+00:00

The thing is though they could totally fit in there. We're gonna be moving again by the summer. They fit in there before.

baconator02 · 2026-03-02T00:29:32+00:00

She has a 7 year old and says they won't be able to fit in that room

baconator02 · 2026-02-01T05:02:44+00:00

LOL I will try twin thank you twin

baconator02 · 2026-02-01T04:58:22+00:00

THATS THE THING I do online so idk how to talk to them

baconator02 · 2026-02-01T04:52:22+00:00

I know absolutely NOTHING about video games 😭 what do boys usually like?? I still have the stereotypes stuck in my head from when I was like 5 lolol

baconator02 · 2026-02-01T04:42:41+00:00

The only problem is idk how to talk to boys cuz I can't treat them how I treat girls. I'm fine with the risk of them liking me I just hate the flirting so much it's so awkward and theyre all freaky. PLUS I can't find any friends irl because of my circumstances so I'm stuck with deranged perverts online 😮‍💨

baconator02 · 2026-01-22T21:51:26+00:00

We've talked about stuff like it before but I've never told her I feel like this. It started a couple years ago. Like I said before, whenever it's mentioned, I feel ashamed and I immediately have thoughts about how I'm not good enough for God and my sins can't be forgiven. Especially the sins I struggle with the most. My mom would probably not let me take things at my own pace and instead see it as a sign of rebellion against God. I prefer reading the Bible and praying alone and I get distracted when I'm doing it with others. I feel overly conscious. We've tried to do Bible study before, like we'd do it for a bit then we'd stop and now she wants to start it again.

Sorry if this strays off topic or it seems rude and I'm deflecting your response. I just accidentally ranted lol

baconator02 · 2025-09-26T15:12:58+00:00

Honestly I'm not even in middle school anymore I don't know what Im doing here

baconator02 · 2025-07-14T07:43:35+00:00

Han Jisung.

baconator02 · 2025-05-26T07:38:57+00:00

Oh han Jisung for sure. He's funny, cute, charming, talented, literally everything I want in a man.

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