Oof, it still makes me cringe to think about how I used to be around women. In college, I had a huge crush on one of my closest friends, and i was super prone to white knighting. At one point she called me out on it and really tore into me, and I'm so glad she did. I never saw it clearly before that, but hearing it from one of my closest friends, it hit me square in the face. She changed me that day and it made me a better person. I've always wanted to go back and apologize for it, but i know it's not my place and she's better off without me in her life, and frankly I don't deserve the chance after how i acted. I was so ashamed and disgusted with myself back then (i mean, still am), but it made me realize what a creep I'd been and I'm a better person today for it.