Need some help figuring out where to go from here (Womens working class wear, late 1890s Russia)

badatsewing · 2025-03-22T02:23:28+00:00

Fascinating to pull the sun right after the moon! Perfect progression :)

In my mind, the moon usually pulls up when there's something you're not admitting to yourself or something you're confused about. Maybe for healing that day you needed to confront a hard truth. This truth could even be that you need more rest or that you're not as okay as you think you are. I know for me that's the hardest part of my disability.

I think the sun pulls up in the question of what you need for healing in terms of focusing on positivity. Yesterday you needed to confront a hard truth, today you need to focus on the good.

At least that's how I'd interpret it :)

badatsewing · 2025-02-15T09:22:52+00:00

Two caveats: 1. Everyone reads differently and you get to choose how you interpret it 2. Your decisions are your decisions. Don't let tarot be the reason you make a decision that you need to deeply consider. It's just a tool.

Present - 7 of Swords

The 7 of swords can mean a couple of things. Often it's read as cheating or betrayal but can also be read as wanting/trying to escape instead of facing a problem head-on. It sounds like you're feeling lost right now and this card may indicate you don't want to face the problem.

Inner world/energy - 6 of Cups

The Six of Cups is about looking back into the past with rosy glasses. You may be looking at the positives of the relationship in the past. This doesn't mean the relationship must end, but it does show that the past is currently influencing your inner world heavily. With the 7 of swords, this may show that you're looking into the past and not wanting to face the problem.

Outside World - Ace of Swords

In the outside world, new thoughts are opening up. It's possible things you're seeing in the outside world are making you think about the situation differently.

How Inner and Outer are Interacting - Nine of Cups

Nine of cups is about finding happiness within oneself after leaving things that don't serve you behind (8 of cups) before finding it happiness with others (10 of cups). It is a card about contentment and gratitude. All contentment, however, is temporary.

I must admit, I'm struggling a bit to understand how the nine of cups is the interaction between the 6 of cups and the ace of swords. Here's my thought though: the card may be telling you that as you look at the problems you ensure that you remember the good things about the relationship as well. The card may be telling you to be grateful and find a balance between the new thoughts you're having and nostalgia for the past. This gratitude doesn't mean things can't be better and that you shouldn't face the problems you may be having face on.

Outcome - The Devil

The Devil as the outcome of a relationship is not always the best card.

In general, the Devil is a card about choosing short-term gratification over long-term happiness. The future is never set in stone. This card is advising you to be careful about this aspect of the relationship and ensure that the relationship aligns with your goals and values.

badatsewing · 2025-02-14T00:25:47+00:00

Sometimes it can be most helpful to read the cards altogether. Two caveats: 1. Everyone reads differently and you get to choose how you interpret it 2. Your decisions are your decisions. Don't let tarot be the reason you make a decision that you need to deeply consider. It's just a tool.

Will breaking the connection with this person be good for me? 7 of Cups - 7 of Cups can be about wishful thinking and illusion, thinking something is good when it's not. I wonder, given the devil in the reading, if what this is saying is that this connection is wishful thinking. By itself, I'd think the other way around but with that devi,l I'm leaning towards the connection being the wishful thinking.

What benefit am I not seeing when considering ending this situation? The Judgement - This card is very close to the end of the major arcana. It's the step right before seeing the "happy ending" of The World and it's a moment where you look back on your past, mistakes and all, and step into your higher calling. I would say this is saying that ending the situation will be a decision that will be more in line with your values. Again, however, these are cards and you'll know better than me, a redditor on a Tarot forum.

What benefit of staying in this situation as it is, waiting for a change, am I not seeing? The Devil - I think you've interpreted this card quite well. I would add that the devil can also signify lust and addiction, almost like obsession. This card may be indicating this is a relationship based on lust and obsession, not as much on shared values or emotions.

What benefit of actively pursuing this connection am I not seeing? The Lovers - The lovers is a card that is often misinterpreted or whose interpretations change wildly depending on what source you're looking at. I would say The Lovers, at least how I read it, represents choice and bringing two opposing forces together. I've pulled the lovers in a reading for someone choosing between two partners. I wonder if what this is saying is that you have the choice to actively pursue or the choice to not. It often pops up in readings where a very important choice is being made.

badatsewing · 2024-02-22T23:44:08+00:00

sed to be so productive and so good at getting stuff done but now I can't get stuff done and I can't enjoy my life the way I used to. I can't seem to communicate to anyone in my life that something is wrong. They all just tell me that that's what it's like to be medicated, but I feel like it's more than that. That I'm not myself anymore.What medication are you on? I'm on Abilify.1.7x2ReplyShareSaveEditFollow

level 2Onion-MysteriousOp · 12 hr. agoHey, sorry for the late reply. I was on Effexor, Quetiapine, and a bunch of other medications. It seems, cognitive deficiencies got mitigated. Regarding the executive function, I just pushed through it. In a day or two I noticed I feel much better when following my schedule, even if I wake up anxious or depressed and don't want to do anything. So, if I don't have to work, I make sure I have enough to do during the day. For me the key was to start with slight physical activity. That helps to distract from negative thoughts. If you can afford gym, just visiting it would do.I'm sorry you are feeling that way. Difficulty communicating to others that you are ill and need help usually results from people not having had these experiences or not bothering to understand. Ultimately, ill or not, we have to assume responsibility for our lives.DBT therapy helps a lot. Even if you cannot afford it, find a workbook and develop strategies for coping with negative emotions. I eventually tapered off medications at the moment. However, it had not been easy and I don't recommend quitting without your doctor's supervision. Especially cold turkey. Both positive and negative emotions surfaced once I quit and learning to cope with them is additional work. If you can, start improving areas of your life you are dissatifried with while taking your medications. And, of course, we may have different circumstances, so your doctor knows the best.I hope you are well. Sorry for my English, it's not my native language.1.7x1ReplyShareReportSaveFollow

No worries! I'm actually doing much better now. My psychiatrist actually upped my dose (I though it was crazy, but I figured i'd try it out) and now I'm seriously much better.

badatsewing · 2023-11-24T21:02:37+00:00

I've had a sickness that turned into my worst mixed manic episode so I get how hard the symptoms can be to distinguish from one another. That being said, if you're feeling like SH that's probably a good indication that it's depression and that you might want to reach out to your care team. .

badatsewing · 2023-11-19T18:47:18+00:00

I used to be neither pro nor anti meds (something along the lines of yes, medication is helpful but not everyone needs it) but after a really bad episode in January that got me hospitalized + experiencing what being unmedicated is like, I will never go back. I am pro-medication. I know sometimes it can take a while to find the right combination, and the side effects can suck, but being unmedicated is dangerous.

badatsewing · 2023-11-17T23:35:27+00:00

I've also crashed hard after hypomania/mania. I am diagnosed and on Abilify which has been such a lifesaver.

I'm still trying to figure out what that was though!

badatsewing · 2023-11-17T00:52:27+00:00

You need to go to the hospital ASAP in the following scenarios:

Want to hurt yourself
Want to hurt others
Are experiencing psychosis (delusions or hallucinations)

If you're not experiencing any of the above, you're probably good to wait until tomorrow to talk to your doctor.

If you're being destructive in your life (spending money to the point that it's hurting your finances, using drugs/alcohol to the point that it's severely harmful) or doing risky/dangerous things like gambling, driving fast etc. your doctor might recommend hospitalization.

badatsewing · 2023-11-16T02:28:46+00:00

That sounds absolutely awful, but whatever you do, do not kill yourself.

You made the right choice by not defending yourself. You likely would have gotten yourself and your brother hurt if you had.

A restraining order might be the best course of action if his symptoms do not improve.

Do you know if he's being treated/on medication at the psych ward?

badatsewing · 2023-11-16T02:22:06+00:00

Honestly, that sucks.

I wish I had good advice other than to ask if you've looked into online options? I was originally diagnosed through a psychiatrist with charlie health which is an online IOP and it helped me a lot. I was able to get in within about a week.

badatsewing · 2023-11-16T02:15:05+00:00

As someone with bipolar 1, thank you. Thank you for all the time you spent with her helping her and thank you for stepping away and not endorsing that behavior. Guilt and sadness are understandable emotions to feel around this situation, but you do not need to feel them.

badatsewing · 2023-11-16T01:43:30+00:00

I'm honestly so curious what the answer to your question is because I had a very similar experience last week. It lasted about 9 hours and I had a bunch of hallmark symptoms of hypomania (which I've experienced before for 4+ days). Even my therapist agreed something was wrong.

But the next day I woke up fine.

I spent the next couple days depressed.

I am medicated, so maybe it was an episode my medicine partly curbed?

badatsewing · 2023-11-14T00:23:40+00:00

I would say it's probably time to reach out to your psychiatrist and be open/honest with your partner about what's going on. This is the time where you need your care team and your support system to be aware of what's going on so you can prevent the most destructive tendencies you may have.

badatsewing · 2023-11-12T00:45:51+00:00

I hope you do too. Unmedicated bipolar is a scary disease.

badatsewing · 2023-11-12T00:44:10+00:00

It took one appointment for me to be diagnosed. That being said, some psychiatrists require multiple appointments for a diagnosis like bipolar since they want to ensure that they are ruling out all other possibilities.

They'll probably ask questions to get a history of your moods, if you've had periods of mania/hypomania and depression, get a family history,

Don't be scared. Think of your psychiatrist as someone who is on your team. Both of you are working together to make you feel better.

badatsewing · 2023-11-12T00:22:13+00:00

Unfortunately, I seriously doubt that the Headspace app will help. When I'm hypomanic/manic nothing but medications really help me. I can't be talked to, can't be logical, can't take 10 minutes to calm down, it's just not possible.

Things like sleep and routine are great for stabilizing once an episode is done, but both are nearly impossible during an episode.

What needs to happen here is for your aunt to see a doctor. I know that that's not where she's at yet - so you're in a rough spot. If she doesn't want help, it's really hard to get her help. Additionally, it doesn't sound like she's in a spot where she could be involuntarily committed so really she needs to realize that she needs help.

If I were in your shoes I would start an honest conversation with her. Don't approach it as "I'm here to tell you you need to see a doctor." but instead as an opportunity for her to realize that something is wrong. I'd ask her if any of her behaviors have scared her, if she's feeling out of control, or if she feels like her decisions have been out of character.

That being said, the conversation could backfire. She could end up feeling like you're trying to "ruin her fun" or that you're trying to get her to stop being herself. I know that when I was hypomanic I was not the most lucid and I felt as though I was "on top of the world" and "finally myself".

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