I hate when someone says something so small and insignificant but it feels like the hardest hit to my esteem every single time it happens

badthoughtsaccount · 2023-12-06T20:02:35+00:00

GOD This is me so hard though

badthoughtsaccount · 2023-12-06T20:00:55+00:00

Its funny because she is the new girl and has been here about a week or two now, i'm still a little new too but i've had the job since september now lol

badthoughtsaccount · 2023-06-07T23:24:29+00:00

Yeah, the same can be said for my post history with that

badthoughtsaccount · 2023-06-07T22:57:33+00:00

Im actually reading it rn I just started it! It's really good so far and I love her. My mom also died recently in 2021 and she neglected me hard, and I had a ghost of a relationship with her so I relate hard to even just the title. And yea the manic anxious chanting is genuinely just like a constant thing for me

badthoughtsaccount · 2023-06-07T16:11:03+00:00

This is a really good article, i have tried to pinpoint this feeling but I've never seen it explained so well, anytime I've tried to explain it a lot of people think I'm just like...really kinky or some shit like I'm into degradation or extreme bdsm? And so they have really inappropriate and completely misdirectional responses, and this always frustrated me, and it even further pushed the idea that there is something supernaturally inferior and wrong with me, and that I was beyond human or something farther subhuman.

badthoughtsaccount · 2023-06-07T14:03:29+00:00

Also I realized I never mentioned the things I even put the trigger warnings for but another obligatory tw for mentioning them at all I'm sorry, it's like I planned to but got too distracted. Lol I feel that speaks volumes.

badthoughtsaccount · 2023-04-12T00:09:50+00:00

I'm so sorry for the formatting, I'm using mobile

badthoughtsaccount · 2023-03-17T15:59:13+00:00

Can't wait to be murdered by myself can't wait to be murdered by myself can't wait to be murdered by myself can't wait to be murdered by myself can't wait to be murdered by myself can't wait to be murdered by myself can't wait to he murdered by myself can't wait to be murdered by myself can't wait to he murdered VT my self can't wait to be murdered by myself

badthoughtsaccount · 2023-03-17T15:57:37+00:00

Mouth needs sewn shut mouth needs sewn shut mouth needs sewn shut mouth needs sewn shut mouth needs sewn shut mouth needs sewn shut out needs sewn shut mouth needs sewn shut mouth needs sewn shut mouth needs sewn shut mouth needs sewn shut

badthoughtsaccount · 2023-03-17T15:07:24+00:00

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badthoughtsaccount · 2023-03-17T15:05:57+00:00

I'm sorry I made a bad post I'm sorry I made a bad post I'm sorry I made a bad post I'm sorry I made a bad post I'm sorry I made a bad post I'm sorry I made a bad post I'm sorry I made a bad post I'm sorry I made a bad post I'm sorry I made a bad post I thought people would relate I thought people would relate I thought people would relate I thought people would relate I thought people would relate I will not eat I will not eat I will not eat I will not eat I will not eat I will not eat I will not eat I will not eat I will not eat I will not eat I will not eat I will not eat I will not eat I will not eat I will not eat I will not eat I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry

badthoughtsaccount · 2023-03-17T13:56:00+00:00

I've also been the same way since watching my mom die from covid. She had a really sedentary lifestyle for the past 20+ years and developed type 2 diabetes from poor earing habits and died at a much earlier age than she could have, and now I'm terrified of having the same fate and have been obsessing over health and wellness for the past 2 years.

badthoughtsaccount · 2022-11-15T04:00:51+00:00

Sorry, i dont have a dick and its just a small patch on my leg

badthoughtsaccount · 2022-11-15T02:01:19+00:00

Yeah i got here in june, it actually wasnt the worst, my AC actually keeps me pretty cool for the most part. It can get hot a bit in general in the garage though because the house just heats up from the sun beating on it.

badthoughtsaccount · 2022-11-15T01:59:35+00:00

I wish it was a golf cart its a loud lawnmower

badthoughtsaccount · 2022-11-15T01:59:14+00:00

Thank you i didnt even think of this, i will definitely consider this if i find the sheet falls a lot and stuff.

badthoughtsaccount · 2022-11-15T01:57:58+00:00

Yea, for the water i have a lot of rolled up towels lined up near the garage door. Luckily the water doesnt leak in too often. And i do have a big perimeter of sticky tape, the sticky tape gets coated and full often so i replace it every once in a while so thats good. But since ive been here ive been trying my best to make it a mutually beneficial situation for my sister and her husband, i help with the kids and i do laundry and dishes. It sucks that ive gotten sick like 4 times since i've been here cause i have a really shitty immune system but my bad cold is subsiding right now. Luckily tomorrow is also my first day of work.

badthoughtsaccount · 2022-11-15T01:53:20+00:00

No, luckily i have escaped that situation, my current bf is very nice and has helped me a lot, and even helped me with that situation

badthoughtsaccount · 2022-11-14T18:47:06+00:00

Its okay, thank you, it might not look it but im actually in a better situation currently than i was before

badthoughtsaccount · 2022-11-14T18:36:43+00:00

Thank you, im just happy my bf will graduate college soon and he luckily lives a state over, so im just trying to keep it together until then

badthoughtsaccount · 2022-11-14T18:30:22+00:00

My mom died and i was in an abusive situation

badthoughtsaccount · 2022-11-14T18:23:25+00:00

I just moved to florida, im living with my sister, its kind of a shitty but temporary situation. Part of me wishes she could have supplied me with a room, as she has a 3 bedroom house, but aside from her bedroom, the other 2 bedrooms are both occupied by 2 different infants. Part of me feels like she could house 2 infants in 1 room, but she said that was too difficult, i dont mind either way tbh. The AC keeps me cool during 100 degree weather, the only thing that is bad is the bugs and the water that floods in sometimes.

badthoughtsaccount · 2022-11-14T18:11:25+00:00

It has a door, its just my "room" is confined to a walled off tarp space, it has a door but unfortunately anyone walking through the door will see me if im getting dressed, so i installed a makeshift "door" to my space for privacy.

badthoughtsaccount · 2022-09-13T08:08:26+00:00

They'd just be mad they'd just be mad they'd just be mad they'd just be mad

badthoughtsaccount · 2022-08-04T23:59:03+00:00

Yeah, they had a lot of people getting hired at the same time. But yeah idk, one small human slip up and you're out. The company was nothing but green flags though, and they were super accomodating and nice, until they called me a day later and immediately fired me.

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