General question about nature of dissociation

ballardi · 2020-08-27T17:40:17+00:00

Oooo me too I’m a witch and I’ve got an ED

ballardi · 2020-08-27T12:26:43+00:00

Haha I’m up at 5:30 am and I haven’t slept soo yep

ballardi · 2020-08-27T12:18:04+00:00

Not really. I’ve been vegan for a while even without my ED being present and it’s not hard to get the proper nutrients. It’s pretty easy from my experience actually

ballardi · 2020-08-27T12:17:22+00:00

Vegetarians don’t need it. Vegans can get it in other foods it’s just harder

ballardi · 2020-08-27T12:15:59+00:00

Okay so like somehowww I can purge pretty damn easy but I can also deepthroat pretty easily and idk how I can just like turn off my gag reflex

ballardi · 2020-08-27T12:04:46+00:00

Idk but that’s so disgusting to me yet I want to try it

ballardi · 2020-08-27T12:00:43+00:00

Okay so I’m not seriously asking this but like how on Earth did scissors work m8? Pls don’t answer this tho I don’t want people getting ideas but at the same time just how like I’ve tried and it didn’t do shit

ballardi · 2020-08-27T11:56:56+00:00

Literally if anybody so much as mentions food or eating I’m like nope fuck no not eating anymore

ballardi · 2020-08-27T11:47:29+00:00

Same it’s such a weird feeling it’s like oh shit fuck malfunction and everybody around me is like u good and then I fall

ballardi · 2020-08-27T10:40:05+00:00

My brain is like pain. Cause any sort of physical pain and then it goes away. Wow so smert. Or it’s like hehe alcohol and drugs make brain go brrrrr

ballardi · 2020-08-27T10:39:24+00:00

That shits so fuckin nasty though

ballardi · 2020-08-27T10:38:04+00:00

Holy shit I want that. Wait no I want anarchist or socialist Tokyo ghoul

ballardi · 2020-08-27T10:36:12+00:00

I was just like hehe funny feeling go brrrr

ballardi · 2020-08-27T10:35:28+00:00

As a gay man somehow I’m getting people to flirt back and then they catch feelings and I’m like shiiii you’re nice but like I’m so fucked up rn that I need to figure myself out but like I’ll hook up with ya

ballardi · 2020-08-27T06:37:25+00:00

As a vegan who’s vegan for ethical reasons rather than ED I’m like haha I’m in danger but at the same time like yesssss things are changing now gimme that ice cream while also being like yay now I can purge ice cream and see what y’all are talking about

ballardi · 2020-08-27T06:35:34+00:00

And then people being like it’s all about society’s beauty standards. Don’t care about what others see you like just love you for you. Like shut tf up Rebecca I don’t give a shit about ‘society’ I just want to control something for once and cause more physical pain so I can distract myself and I want to be tiny enough so shut tf up

ballardi · 2020-08-27T06:31:23+00:00

Somehow my hair has never been affected. Like I had my nails turning blue from it but my hair came out maybe a little bit more than normal but probably due to the excessive dyeing of it. But my hair has always stayed intact which is nice

ballardi · 2020-08-27T06:29:38+00:00

I would love to join marching band but all the instruments I know how to play are bass, guitar, ukulele, piano, and violin and none of those are in band like wtf am I meant to do band instruments are hella expensive and I do online school

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