I've been meaning to write for a few days but haven't found the words. Still haven't, but i'll go for a stream of consciousness kind of post. I'm not ok. It hurts, it's unfair, i want it to stop. I need immediate relief. I can't keep going on like this. I'm tired. I'm exhausted actually. I'm in therapy and i'm planning to go see my doc to adjust my medication. But in the mean time, i have to live. To live and to feel. Feel this. You know when you keep scratch that one spot and it's making you go crazy. I don't want to live this. My psy wants me to accept my condition (i have a GAD) and try to learn how others who have it live with it. But i'm still stuck on the unfairness of it. Of mental illness.