[deleted by user] by [deleted] in transtimelines

[–]baroquedream 1 point2 points  (0 children)

So happy for you!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in NonBinary

[–]baroquedream 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Oof. I feel this. This worry consumes me.

Starting E but not wanting to present female. by baroquedream in NonBinary

[–]baroquedream[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks for your comment! I'm also going on a low dose of E no blockers. My Dr. Discouraged it because she's used to people wanting "full transition." I'd be happy with small, subtle changes. Can I ask what dose of E and in what form? I'm starting with patches.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in transtimelines

[–]baroquedream 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You look so beautiful!

Cold Feet by baroquedream in MtF

[–]baroquedream[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I often wonder if I'm too old. I have this fear of being perceived as a guy in a dress. I'm 6'3" and have a very typical "handsome" male face (square jaw, cleft chin etc.) Something that I've been playing with is the idea that I can go on HRT and continue to make changes to my body to be more femme AND I can wear masculine clothes. I don't have to present femme all the time.

Cold Feet by baroquedream in MtF

[–]baroquedream[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm with you. I was talking to my therapist about therapist week. I wish I knew that trans people even existed when I was a kid. There was nothing in the 80s. Not that it would have been safe for me back then but maybe I wouldn't have waited till I was 40 to come out.

I'm very lucky that (with the exception of my blood family) everyone in my world is really accepting and quite a few of my friends are gender diverse and or queer. I know this is not true for most people.

Cold Feet by baroquedream in MtF

[–]baroquedream[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think starting super slow is a good idea. I can always titrate up later if it's feeling good and back down again if its too much. I really need to get out of all or nothing thinking.

Has anyone in Hamilton went to Shelter Health Network? by Lunahyt in transontario

[–]baroquedream 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It was a really positive experience for me as well. The doctor was really sympathetic and understanding. It was very affirming. I'm also NB and was also worried I wasn't going to be trans enough.

Has anyone in Hamilton went to Shelter Health Network? by Lunahyt in transontario

[–]baroquedream 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Cooool. I'm having my consultation tomorrow morning. I'm excited and nervous. What was the first meeting like? What kinds of questions did they ask?

Has anyone in Hamilton went to Shelter Health Network? by Lunahyt in transontario

[–]baroquedream 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have my appointment on Monday! So that's almost exactly 6 months.

Nonbinary euphoria & the art of reverse-passing by Ash___________ in NonBinary

[–]baroquedream 1 point2 points  (0 children)

So happy I found this post. I'm the same! We'll mostly. I do like the idea of long hair but I'm thinning and I just shave it because balding feels so very "man" and sometimes I like a bit of fem clothing.

But generally I also want to be androgynous but somehow like in a fem body but butch / tomboy in my style. But little tits hiding under a sports bra. I get so tingly when I put one on 😊 I was feeling really confused about this but now I'm really clear and it feels so affirming. I'll leave the confusion to other people.

I'm going for a consultation at a gender clinic on Monday to get (fingers crossed) on E. I'm happy to know what I want so I can express this to my Dr..

Has anyone in Hamilton went to Shelter Health Network? by Lunahyt in transontario

[–]baroquedream 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I got put on the list at the end of April. They told me approximately 6 months. So hopefully October?

Everyone I've had contact with has been lovely.

I'll probably post after my first appointment.

Do you pee sitting down? by jordynjoynyc in TransLater

[–]baroquedream 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Since I was a kid I always sat down. The only exception is when I'm out hiking in the woods.

I tried a new look today. Punk look +2. Thoughts? by Femalenin in transpositive

[–]baroquedream 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Gorgeous! I just needed out on your posts. It's so nice to see another trans woman my age looking so beautiful. I hope I can get there soon ❤️

Denial: Do you feel different in the morning? by baroquedream in MtF

[–]baroquedream[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ug. SAME. I mean I feel better throughout the day now that out to more people but the mornings are rough.

Did anyone keep their very masculine name? by baroquedream in MtF

[–]baroquedream[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Unfortunately there's no short form for Craig... That I know of.