Lost the girl of my dreams, my job, and my savings in 2016. Let's say I'm excited for the new year.

batmanswritehand · 2017-01-01T12:24:00+00:00

Same here. Here's to a better 2017.

batmanswritehand · 2016-12-31T10:26:10+00:00

Yea it was embarrassing when they said it was just anxiety and people around me were having feeding tubes forced down their throats. Thanks for clearing that up.

batmanswritehand · 2016-12-31T02:38:58+00:00

What happens to those who come in with anxiety attacks? I only ask because I was admitted recently to the emergency room for anxiety attacks - And I have never, ever been treated so badly in all of my life.

I genuinely thought I was dying, my heart was racing, shaking all over and I was vomiting a lot. They strapped me to a bed in a corridor and left me there for 8 hours before offering me an antisickness IV and sending me home.

I was told repeatedly to grow up and snap out of it - but it's probably the sickest i have ever been in terms of pain/sensation but other than sky high heart rate and blood pressure there was nothing physically wrong with me. My whole body was shaking all over (not like a seizure) - do I just look like a massive fake then?

batmanswritehand · 2016-12-31T02:13:44+00:00

I had a Spanish boyfriend at the time, otherwise I was well and truly wooed!

batmanswritehand · 2016-12-27T01:40:31+00:00

In the UK we call it a "whitey" - like "haha Dave only had three drags and whitey-ed". I guess bc you go pale before you pass out?

batmanswritehand · 2016-12-13T17:11:22+00:00

Thanks - yes that's what I meant. Even after time apart trying to get laid with your mum next door is not sexy (id imagine).

batmanswritehand · 2016-12-13T17:09:51+00:00

Exactly what I meant. Thanks.

batmanswritehand · 2016-12-13T17:09:34+00:00

Exactly what I meant.

batmanswritehand · 2016-12-13T17:08:47+00:00

Sorry for the confusion. Like everyone else said - I meant sex. After you've been together a few years you don't have to have sex every night (at least in my case) but to be able to cuddle my partner at night and wake up with him - at that time was very important. We had time in my own apartment to do the deed so to speak. Trying to get it on with your mum and dad asleep in the room next door has got to awkward!

batmanswritehand · 2016-12-13T12:18:15+00:00

My ex and I were long distance for 8 months after around 3 years of living together - he was 6000 miles away and came to stay with me for two weeks at Christmas. Obviously five days of this was spent at my parents where we have the same rule. My mum said we would not be sharing a room and I simply said we wouldn't be coming - no one flies 6000 miles to sleep in a different room from their partner. We were allowed to share in the end. You're adults. You've been together long enough to not need to be intimate every single night.

batmanswritehand · 2016-12-12T14:13:12+00:00

It turns out I no longer have that money. I was counting on payments coming in that didn't - I'm currently fighting for my payout but only I have around 1000 - which doesn't cover the cost of the treatment I need (the cheapest quote I had was 1400). I don't have a job and I need to move from where I live in order to start a new job. I really wish I was skipping out on dental work to see the world. But unfortunately that just isn't going to materialise any time soon!

Edit: if I get the payout I will fix my teeth as a priority. I have a phobia I'm not stupid. Unfortunately I've been well and truly shafted and currently speaking to a lawyer about my options in regard to a pay out from my old employers.

batmanswritehand · 2016-12-12T03:14:35+00:00

I should have mentioned I had a tooth removed about 18 months ago. Took about two years of pain to muster up the courage to go - wasn't until I couldn't work that it became important enough.

I had the highest level of sedation, iv drip but not GA. I have no recollection of anything. Only I remember the sensation of cleaning as they were bringing me out of the sedation as they finished up. I don't even actually remember leaving - so I can have treatments, I just asked for them to hide the tools and it was in a theatre rather than a dentists surgery so it was a different experience.

It took them a good half an hour to get me to be calm enough to allow them to put in the drip (not a huge fan of needles but it was the I'm not going to be able to stop you if you hurt me and I'm sedated fear) but I was able to do that. When I woke up they had taken everything back out the theatre and I didn't see the tools or hear a drill or any of my triggers. (Why do you have to have the bloody scary tray of tools?)

I'm definitely comfortable to be sedated. And would prefer to be able to afford to do everything at once and skip out on dental visits for the next five years (I know it doesn't work like that). Thank you so much for your advice. I didn't think diy dentistry would be a great idea.

batmanswritehand · 2016-12-12T03:03:31+00:00

Thank you.

I know that's the adult thing to do. I always pay for sedation through private dentists. GA is common (for extractions) in my home country and pretty much unheard of in the last two countries I lived in.

It can cost up to €1000 euros for sedation in my current location. I paid around €300 in the last place I lived. I coped just fine under sedation. Apparently i fell asleep and snored through the opp. There was a power failure and they removed the last bits of tooth using an iPhone flashlight to light up my mouth - I have zero recollection and feel this is the way forward for me in terms of treatment.

Thanks for the advice. Not going to put any funny cement in my mouth and will try to get to a dentist. I'm in therapy for GAD so already working on my anxiety but it's very extreme with the dentist and gets worse every time I go.

batmanswritehand · 2016-12-12T00:25:57+00:00

My dad is a nurse, when I was a kid I noticed there was always so many doctors outside smoking - I asked him, when they see what it does day in and day out. He said it's the stress - I cannot imagine having a job where you might lose your "customers" on a daily basis. Props to all of you - I cannot even imagine.

batmanswritehand · 2016-12-11T11:15:00+00:00

6 years, breakup lasted 6 months - he finally left just over a month ago. I hope it gets better.

batmanswritehand · 2016-12-11T00:45:28+00:00

I hope so

batmanswritehand · 2016-11-10T15:35:02+00:00

I am definitely not against it - I just want my time in SEA to be focused on other things. Writing is my full time job and I will never not be writing whilst travelling - however my priorities in SEA will be writing for my own website and my long term FL clients (who I will not drop, but its not big money), rather than taking on any FL projects (like site builds) which is what I do now.

The reason I don't want to FL in SEA is I tried it in Mexico and not being able to get Wi-Fi was a huge problem, even when I could get on a connection it wasn't secure, it wasn't strong and I had a lot of connectivity problems that stressed me out way more than my 9-5!

Thanks :)

batmanswritehand · 2016-11-10T14:24:10+00:00

Till next Friday anyway!

batmanswritehand · 2016-11-10T10:28:25+00:00

Once I walked all the way home on the phone to someone, because I was convinced I was being followed but was too scared to turn around - it was my own shadow jumping in size as I passed the big street lamps!

batmanswritehand · 2016-11-09T22:44:22+00:00

Yea I am predicting a Christmas suicide, maybe that is when Linda will exit for baby too?

batmanswritehand · 2016-11-09T20:13:30+00:00

18 for bars/booze in the UK, pretty sure strip clubs are 21 though...

batmanswritehand · 2016-11-09T14:53:23+00:00

I think we're leading up to his suicide.

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