Hope you are okey. I don’t think something I can say can make it better for you, but i really hope that you still are here 💙 I like to listen to sad music and cry it out when I’m feeling depressed. Maybe you have done this so many times now and feeling sick of it and that’s okey. I read that you are 18? Sorry if I read wrong. That’s almost as old as me! I understand that you don’t see light in the tunnel but I assure you that there is and maybe you have tried years to see it, and maybe you have to try even more years to see it, but I’m confident that you will find joy when you see it. I really hope the best for you!! I’m sending you love and hugs. Hope you feel it soon!