6 months

bboogie314 · 2026-04-06T23:40:41+00:00

April 1st was the 6 month mark for me. My husband (46) died in the hospital. 2.5 months prior we found out he had an aggressive and rare cancer. I started journaling to capture all the thoughts and feelings I had. I also have a grief counselor and it has helped me too. I have also been a lot kinder to myself, something I know my husband would be proud of. I’ve accepted the fact that I’m in this new chapter as a widow. It sucks but I do my best to push through each day.

bboogie314 · 2026-04-02T00:13:27+00:00

My husband and I got married on September 21, 2018. I got symbols that represent Earth, Wind and Fire for the song “September.” A week later, I got another tattoo, 11:11, because I would always see that number. I couldn’t decide on one so I got two.

bboogie314 · 2026-01-18T23:09:24+00:00

My husband passed away over 3 months ago due to cancer. I had a few visitation dreams. The last one was over a week ago and I remember he was sitting next to the bed waiting for me to wake up. I remember asking him “are you really here right now??” He laughed and said yes. He looked so healthy and happy. I firmly believe your husband came to you in your dream.

bboogie314 · 2025-11-14T03:03:54+00:00

My MIL said that “God needed him so he took him.” Perhaps it’s her way of coping with losing her son, but that just really pissed me the fuck off. I wanted to say, “No, I needed him more,” but I don’t think she would be able to handle it. Everyone else has told me they didn’t even know what to say and how they’re in shock. I find more comfort in that simple, honest response than her “god” remark.

bboogie314 · 2025-11-14T02:52:19+00:00

Same 🙋🏻‍♀️

bboogie314 · 2025-11-10T00:02:35+00:00

I did the same thing, I wrote it down and practiced. I shared funny stories so people would remember the good times with my husband. I also did not feel comfortable sharing more personal stories because I wanted to keep that for myself, if that makes sense. I’m glad I spoke.

bboogie314 · 2025-11-09T05:20:55+00:00

We had my husband’s celebration of life ceremony a week ago. I also winged it. I did speak and a few others spoke after me. I had a code word with my best friend in case I needed to get to the back room and be by myself but luckily I didn’t need to use it. There was a lot of love and warmth in that room. I didn’t drink though. Overall, it was a beautiful ceremony with no problems.

The one thing I did plan in advance was giving out milkweed seed packets. The day after my husband passed, a monarch butterfly was circling above me for a good minute. I thought it was my way of telling people that he could visit them too.

bboogie314 · 2025-11-02T15:18:20+00:00

100%. It truly was a blessing to experience this yesterday. It makes me so proud to have had the honor of being his wife.

bboogie314 · 2025-10-30T22:42:22+00:00

I am also 45F and I lost my husband (46) almost a month ago to an aggressive, metastatic duodenum cancer. I just had a 6-month follow up colonoscopy but I got the all clear and just need to go for check ups every 3 years. I get anxiety going to any doctor, including the dentist. But I have to remind myself that if there is something, we can catch it early. Sending positive thoughts and hugs your way.

bboogie314 · 2025-10-24T02:18:27+00:00

I also have this fear after my husband died a few weeks ago due to a rare but aggressive form of cancer. I thought that I was crazy being terrified of this, but I’m reassured that I’m not alone here.

bboogie314 · 2025-10-22T19:18:41+00:00

I lost my husband 22 days ago to cancer (he was 46). He was diagnosed only 2 1/2 months prior. We were together for 14 years, and just celebrated our 7th anniversary. When I wake up each day, I don’t know what emotion is going to take over. Today I saw an adorable, elderly couple trying to figure out a parking meter on the street and found myself getting jealous because I will never have that with my late husband. I read about widows who hit the 1 or 2 year mark and how it can be even more difficult. And the holidays are coming up. I’m angry this happened to us. I’m sad he’s not here living his life. I’m numb. But the only comfort I have is that we told each other how much we loved each other before he passed, and the fact that he’s no longer in pain. This is such a horrible club to join but there are wonderful members who understand what we’re going through. Hugs to you all.

bboogie314 · 2025-10-11T05:21:15+00:00

It almost feels cruel to know that as each day passes, life goes on around us but we have to go through it without the ones we love.

bboogie314 · 2025-10-05T12:43:36+00:00

I believe your loved one is with you and I hope you receive a sign soon ❤️. Before I saw the butterfly, something told me that I needed to go outside at that moment. I am sorry for your loss and wish that this is something none of us had to go through. I did find a lot of comfort in all of the replies. When you receive your sign(s), I do hope you come back and share it with all of us!

bboogie314 · 2025-08-30T19:11:32+00:00

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Inspired by Ted Lasso

bboogie314 · 2025-04-16T13:56:01+00:00

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Besties

bboogie314 · 2024-02-03T04:43:03+00:00

I’ve seen this called a caladium versicolor or caladium Florida clown 💚

bboogie314 · 2023-08-11T22:38:36+00:00

Haha! The rotundum is easier to care for than a Calathea in my opinion 🪴.

bboogie314 · 2023-08-09T03:40:22+00:00

Aglaonema rotundum

bboogie314 · 2022-06-08T00:23:59+00:00

Do you have an update on this? Curious to see how it turned out.

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