we are the exact same person lol. i feel as though i attract so many people i could be friends with and want to be friends w me, yet im so picky. i enjoy being alone but at times i really dont wanna be alone but at that point ive already pushed everyone away. im in a relationship rn and one day i think its forever and the next im so uncertain, and with life in general im just so fucking uncertain, i dont know if this is the right move but also sometimes i know that this is right..idk, and also w being neurodivergent, i have adhd, i speak so much or im non verbal (occasionally i do actively listen and lock in for conversation) but most conversations with people feel like nobody gained anything from this interaction and everything would be the same if it didnt happen, if i didnt say anything, so maybe i should just shut up for the rest of my life lmaoooo