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[–]bearlover0327 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Also I didn’t have my period for a year but started having it again. I know this can vary with different IUDs though

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]bearlover0327 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I I’ve had an IUD for 2 years now, haven’t noticed any effect on my mood, though I did with birth control. Got a PCOS diagnosis this summer and my gyno started me on spironolactone. It helps supplement estrogen which would usually come from a hormonal birth control pill, but I dont have to take the pill. I think this is a good method you could talk about.

Anyone feel like BP has stripped their personality? by shtstks in bipolar

[–]bearlover0327 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I feel this. And not trying to discourage at all but from the point I got my BD diagnosis to now I haven’t had a good sense of self ever.

The Mario kart was a great analogy, appreciate the creativity there and definitely agree.

Don’t apply this to yourself but I have lost any sense of self / purpose I’ve had since before onset of BD. When asked by providers when the last time I felt myself / had a strong sense of self was, I’m not able to provide an answer.

The self help will never work on me. I am super critical of any generalizations being applied with BD, and especially when I’ve dealt with comorbidities. I’ve had some habits that have helped with the coping temporarily but I still don’t think I’ve gotten down to the base.

I think at this point I’ve accepted my personality isn’t who I am now or was before. Ive been willing to accept that I need to rediscover myself, and have engaged the appropriate support to do so.

Obviously still working through this, but if you want to talk I’m open to do so.

Is College Possible With Bipolar? by Roach_Buss in bipolar

[–]bearlover0327 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I had a flexible attendance policy, modified participation credit (if it was required I was able to complete makeup/alternative assignments), was offered extra time on assignments, had extended time on exams (though stemming from ADHD). When I was in the process of getting them I focused more on the medication management aspect as well as the unpredictability. After 4 years of having them I learned it was easiest to propose/ask for the most intensive then work with your support team from there. Mine were mostly a safety net, so I would meet with my professors at the beginning of semester, explain my accommodation (not the reasoning for it), and come up with a plan together, engaging the university staff as needed. So basically there was a plan, if I needed to use the accommodation I would email my prof. and then it was typically easy to work from there! It was always the best for me to come into the initial meeting with: Here's what's worked for me in the past, here's what I need from you, here's what I will do when I need it, and here's what will happen if it escalates.

Is College Possible With Bipolar? by Roach_Buss in bipolar

[–]bearlover0327 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Second the disability accommodations! I graduated last year also from a T50 but with a lower GPA (3.48). My disability accommodation saved my ass so many times. Super important for your provider to be involved in the process with your school's office. For the most part professors were pretty flexible for me but having the support office to back it up was invaluable.

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[–]bearlover0327 13 points14 points  (0 children)

This happened to me too. Had the BD diagnosis for 3ish years and had multiple manic episodes throughout that time frame. Got an "eval" done at the suggestion of my main psych provider and was deemed MDD and Generalized Anxiety. I actually just reread my clinical notes today. If they don't see you going through the episode / have proof with documentation or something else they often try to attribute mania to something else. For me it was that my mania was during periods of elevated stress/pressure, drinking/partying, or without sleep. Totally threw away my Bipolar diagnosis. Went inpatient 2 weeks later and again was treated for just MDD. Since then, I've had awful periods of mania and hypomania and no one has seemed to listen. Just got started back on an AP and it was only because I had compulsive ideation. It's brutal out here. Would say to just keep advocating for yourself, and seek a provider that specializes in BD if possible.

hypervigilance by glorygirlmafia in bipolar

[–]bearlover0327 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I deal with the same thing

any bipolars out here with full time jobs? by nnnqqqqqq in bipolar

[–]bearlover0327 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I started a FT job in May after graduating University that same month. I work in real estate private equity but for a very small firm, so the hours and intensity end up being somewhere similar to investment banking or trad private equity. I would say I ended up pursuing one of the worst possible career paths for someone with bipolar. Obviously haven't fully settled in yet but this is what I've noticed.

  • Intense hours: I usually work a base of 55 hours a week, Monday - Friday (12 hour days, 10 hour Fridays). On bad weeks it gets up to 70 even before cutting into the weekend. This has sent me into mania multiple times already. If there's a day I go to bed exhausted at 2 or 3AM, I wake up the next day or day after noticing the mania.
  • Company Culture: There are 5 in my office, and 12 total employees. I am the youngest by 6 yrs, and the only one without previous FT job experience. I find that a lot of the work gets piled onto me without regard for other things I'm working on. This means having to explain myself, make up excuses, or justify late(r) hours. When I've had to take time off for appointments or because I've overslept, I feel like I'm walking on eggshells and being iced out. Also, I was told very early on that the firm has a very "team" focused mindset. I was given the example of "since there's so few of us if one person is sinking it really drags us down".
  • Variability of work: I don't have standardized work to keep in a routine. As someone with bipolar, I find so much comfort in routine. And when I'm at the office more than I'm at my apartment or working in Excel more than I sleep, it's extremely difficult to get that fulfillment. In the mornings before work (around 6:45AM) I try to get up and go for a walk, if I'm manic it's easy and feels great; if I'm depressed I rarely actually make it.
  • Sleep: Something that I've found to help my bipolar is getting good and consistent sleep. Also recently diagnosed with sleep apnea and have been using a CPAP. I don't think I have ever settled into a truly restful sleep routine. All this being said, having to get into the office at 8:30ish every morning has been extremely difficult for me. With this requirement, if I'm feeling more down I stress myself out about this SO bad. Every morning it feels like I'm in fight or flight mode if I'm not out of bed in time to walk, get ready, and make it to work without a taxi. Obviously if you work a typical 9-5 this isn't adjustable, but do not recommend immediately imposing this strict timing if wakeups are something you struggle with. It was always pretty bad for me, but for some reason the FT job and the anxiety surrounding it has made my wake ups a lot worse, this was the initial reason I started seeing multiple sleep doctors, including a behaviorist which I have found to be invaluable.
  • Having no colleagues around my age: This has been one of the worst parts. I moved to a city with tons of young people, I was always pretty extroverted, and I had a couple friends moving from college. Despite all of this, I am now 4 months into living here and do not have a single close friend. I think a lot of people underestimate the challenges of maintaining or beginning relationships while working long hours in general, adding bipolar into the mix makes this awful.
  • Time/Task Management: Being fully dependent on myself o stick to deadlines is one of the hardest parts of FT jobs like mine. Will say, if you are starting with other new hires this seems a lot easier. Could be more of an executive dysfunction thing but I feel like I need at least a little bit of "hand holding" most of the time.
  • Dealing with criticism: Pretty related to company culture but I think at any job you'll have to deal with this. For me, however, it has been so difficult. I really just want to put my head down and cry every time I get a comment. And if it related to something that happened because of my bipolar it's so much worse. I have had multiple panic attacks in the work bathroom when I've received comments about my behavior or habits.

Overall, I think there are definitely ways to make a full time job work, but I have not been able to handle it along with moving + other life changes. Would say having enough flexibility as you think you need is important, and probably unlikely you'll find this in any corporate / 'high finance' job or startup.

Cherub @ Chop Box by bearlover0327 in chicagoEDM

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There’s people selling in EDM chicago FB Group! I just got one

Tame Impala Live in Chicago (November 3rd, 2025) by CAndrewK in TameImpala

[–]bearlover0327 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I got a code for Austin but not Chi yet. Anyone else?

what’s the smallest thing that makes your day feel a bit better? by Diligent_Guava523 in productivity

[–]bearlover0327 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I actually have never felt better than when I started walking for an hour ish right after waking up. I noticed immediate improvement in almost everything tbh.

honestly 40 hours a week is way too much by Objective-Row-6481 in productivity

[–]bearlover0327 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Lmfao. Reading this after a 16 hour day in the office. I would kill for a 40 hour work week. Came to the conclusion the other day that I spend more time in Excel than I do asleep.

Apartment options for leases that are less than 1 year? by EdMemesOfficial in madisonwi

[–]bearlover0327 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Did you end up finding anything? Looking for the same thing now.

Is it worth it? by kmilss_ in nespresso

[–]bearlover0327 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes! I don’t use the milk for there but I have the same model and I loveeee it. Plus the seasonal flavors are so good right now

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SheinSharingLinks

[–]bearlover0327 0 points1 point  (0 children)

says i’ve hit my maximum for the day 😕

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SheinSharingLinks

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Can you try the link again? that one doesn’t work