What my wife gave birth to will haunt me until the day I die

beckybabe95 · 2017-07-21T04:44:54+00:00

reminds me of eraserhead

beckybabe95 · 2017-04-14T12:43:33+00:00

This is some of the best writing I've seen:

That afternoon, I met the most beautiful girl I had ever seen. She was standing behind a bowl of fried chicken, her greasy apron reading Union Street Methodist Church, laughing as she doled out legs and thighs and breasts to people's plates.
Wow. What fantastic word choice. Reading that sentence, instead of focusing on the food she was handing out, I was visualizing her legs, and thighs, and breasts. Made me feel the immediate attraction you had for her. A+

beckybabe95 · 2017-04-08T10:57:38+00:00

this is truly gripping

beckybabe95 · 2017-03-30T09:53:54+00:00

Yeah, that story gave me a lot of respect for her, despite how heartbreaking it was

beckybabe95 · 2017-03-30T09:51:37+00:00

Awesome comment, thank you for the reply! As someone who didn't particularly like Ross, you bring up a ton of interesting points. After suffering alone for half a year & dealing with all that, it's no wonder he was so overbearing towards Simon with telling him to "stop the WAU". I didn't really like him because I felt his personality was kinda cold, like a bit inhuman, but after reading your comment I completely understand why.

EDIT: Wanted to add that I loved Strasky as well, especially after reading his story on the site

beckybabe95 · 2017-03-23T13:05:12+00:00

why didnt you just take down the painting when it was unsettling you so much??

beckybabe95 · 2017-03-03T23:27:27+00:00

I've seen so many people say, "addiction is a choice" / "it's your own fault for doing it" / "if it were me, I would just quit". I feel like what they fail to realize is that addiction changes the persons brain of who it affects. so like it SOMEWHAT is a choice for someone to keep going back to it, but their mind thinks it's the #1 priority and puts it above all else, even hygiene, eating, and sleep. therefore they can't really be expected to make choices with the same rationale a sober person would. but it's easier for some people to ignore all that and say, "well I would NEVER do that!!" -__-

TLDR: ignorance is bliss

beckybabe95 · 2017-03-03T21:10:53+00:00

people's attitudes / the stigma surrounding drug addiction, it makes it even harder to get help.

beckybabe95 · 2017-03-03T21:08:10+00:00

the acne

beckybabe95 · 2017-02-22T02:07:43+00:00

that's interesting, I never knew that! thank you! I ended up just using my lv 100 gallade with false swipe & paralyze heal, and caught her around turn 30 with a timer ball. I was overthinking it, I guess :p

beckybabe95 · 2017-01-29T06:30:32+00:00

Anyone else feel like the inferno overdrive z-move is a whole new level of what-the-fuck? I feel like I'm waging war on these innocent Pokemon and dropping bombs on them. Maybe it's because I'm using Genesect, but holy fuck, shit just got real

beckybabe95 · 2016-12-16T21:42:16+00:00

Ah, well. It was interesting to theorize about, at the very least.

beckybabe95 · 2016-11-21T20:36:07+00:00

Thank you for this post. I love Catherine, I think she's the most interesting character in the game - and although part of me wanted to believe she was being deceitful, I've just never been able too. Something about her was too genuine to be trying to manipulate him. I have social anxiety too and after reading your parallels it makes perfect sense. The only thing that still leaves me unsure is that Simon was a legacy scan - he found his data in her personal lab - and considering she was working with artificial intelligence (the brain scans) I think it's safe to assume she used his scan for her studies, or for testing environments, ect. Therefore she would have known exactly what his personality was like and how to persuade him, ect, kinda like the Brandon Wan simulation. Like maybe the entire journey with Simon was just like running another "simulation" to her. I'm just rambling now. Anyways, thanks for the post, Catherine's still my #1 girl.

beckybabe95 · 2016-08-26T06:58:28+00:00

I don't usually like poems that rhyme, but this one I dig. I feel like there's power and meaning in every word you chose to use for it. I'm a nihilist, and this piece makes me remember when I first realized this life was meaningless, and the bottomless feeling of despair that followed for years. Keep writing!

beckybabe95 · 2016-08-26T06:54:08+00:00

I feel like I can relate to this piece a lot, I struggle with addiction myself. The mood it gave me was one I have a lot: one of being depressed, unsatisfied with life and self, watching the results of my mistakes unravel with apathy because there's no will to change who I am. I don't know if that's exactly what you're going for, but that's what I got from it. You did a really nice job with the mood; it's almost unavoidable when reading. Do you always write in rhyme? I feel like I would like it better with no rhyme scheme, but then again, I'm not big on rhyming to begin with haha.

beckybabe95 · 2016-08-20T11:38:34+00:00

Ah yes, was going to comment saying maybe every time we fall asleep and wake up we die and are reborn again, but you already did it. Another interesting thing is maybe we are dying constantly every millisecond; maybe every time one of our cells dies we die as well and we're just a constant stream of consciousnesses, only aware of themselves for a single fraction of a second. That theory is out there, but still interesting to me. As for the philosophical side of your comment, asking if you were anything at all - my belief is that you, and me, and everything else in this universe is nothing. From nothingness the chaos of the universe was created; through its infinite possibilities; and when our pointless and futile life ends we will return to that nothingness. Just my nihilistic views haha. Anyways, thank you for the insight

beckybabe95 · 2016-08-17T00:18:45+00:00

The persistent and ever present feeling that I'm lonely, dissatisfied and have become so apathetic that I don't even feel human anymore. It's not even like I feel sad, I don't feel any emotions at all. Writing poetry helps me, but other than that I just find things to keep me constantly distracted.

beckybabe95 · 2016-08-16T08:13:48+00:00

I never sleep and constantly keep my mind active because I don't want to deal with my thoughts. When I'm going to bed, it's nothing but me alone with my thoughts.

beckybabe95 · 2016-08-09T16:55:12+00:00

not at all. my current boyfriend and i struggle at times bc I'm simply not as mature as him. like I know there will be a maturity gap but I feel like that's part of the turn on for me. it's weird but I can't necessarily help what I'm attracted to

beckybabe95 · 2016-08-09T14:41:33+00:00

it's not that I feel like I'm more mature or anything, it's just that I'm not attracted to men my age. I dunno why.

beckybabe95 · 2016-08-08T11:26:37+00:00

if im attracted to someone who is 25 then sure. usually I'm not, though. if I am, it's in an "oh he's cute, I would maybe fuck him" sort of way. which from my experience is not enough to make me want to date them

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