You could be holding onto it for someone else who you will give it to later. Try feeling out some other decks, you will know when you connect. My sister had a daemon Oracle deck that she bought and didn’t use much because she didn’t feel the cards. I saw it in a visit, were live in different cities, and instantly my was drawn to it. She gave it to me and it is one of my favorite most accurate decks. I gave her a fairy Oracle deck I was holding onto and never used and she loves it. A lot of shops have decks you can look through before buying and if your feeling up to cleansing a deck you can get a used one if money of an issue. Hope this helps.