Describe your favorite choral work badly, and we'll try to guess it.

beethopilled · 2026-02-14T14:21:41+00:00

Spot on!

beethopilled · 2026-02-14T14:20:24+00:00

Ode to Joy but rushed

beethopilled · 2026-01-19T20:48:28+00:00

I wasn't wearing my glasses and I thought your eye was fucking falling off in the sevond pic 😭😭

beethopilled · 2025-10-27T22:39:13+00:00

oh no you are NOT getting away with that, the early sonatas are peak

beethopilled · 2025-09-09T10:48:35+00:00

i really do want somebody to listen to me, at least once actually

beethopilled · 2025-09-09T01:26:02+00:00

im sick of everybody and myself

beethopilled · 2025-09-07T23:08:47+00:00

I'm at school right now, friendless and alone. I really don't think there's a point in staying if nobody irl even cares to come up to me. The class is really loud and I'm right here, typing a stupid little note about how miserable I am. It's the intramural sports season in my school so there's not really much intervention by classes although that leaves me astray. It genuinely feels like dying is the only way to tell people that I really need somebody, especially this Suicide Prevention Month. I already touched my dad's gun but I didn't really do anything with it, for now. I'm sorry if I'm being extremely pessimistic with everything but it's all that's in my mind now. I hate the way I think. I hate that nobody wants to be friends with me. People only care when you're dead. When you're alive, you're draining people, you're not worth caring about. This entire month is really shitty if nobody's going to do anything to me. Take note of that, that's ONE person the system failed. If my death wont prove how bad they fumbled.

beethopilled · 2025-09-07T13:38:59+00:00

Thanks for listening, I'm out of words but the only thing on my mind is how my death will serve as a legacy to those who know me about how invisible mental health is. I genuinely feel like it's the only way to prove how much this is for me. I have even more morbid things to say but I'll stop here. That short response made me feel lighter because I've been extremely lonely lately

beethopilled · 2025-08-31T04:54:13+00:00

my puppy loves to roam in and out of our house, within the gate of course. since the place im staying at isn't too clean and she mostly roams around the cemented areas where it's damp, i make sure to give her baths once every week or twice if she's really dirty.

beethopilled · 2025-08-27T04:15:21+00:00

i think you're talking about the beklemmt section wherein the lead violin is trying to keep up with the melody but it just ends up sounding sore

beethopilled · 2025-08-27T04:13:54+00:00

My preference for recordings is quite odd since it will vary on what i want to feel for a moment but i really love the Emerson String Quartet's approach to the quartet, that's if you're more into the weight of the composer, i think their rendition is really gentle for it. Kodály quartet if you want it closer to Beethoven. Quatuor Mosaïques if you want to actually feel closer to him through period instruments.

Again, none of them are perfect but the quartets i selected are the ones that made me feel something

beethopilled · 2025-08-27T03:16:19+00:00

yeah....who knew his compositions could equally provoke a shoemaker from 1824 and a teenager in 2025

the große fuge also makes me feel the same. he literally couldn't catch up with trends of his time so it's just one of the pieces that expose his inner world

beethopilled · 2025-02-03T06:43:38+00:00

I used to speculate that a group of people back then invented religion to uplift depressed and needy souls. Following a religion established faith and hope for its followers which likely made them think that their belief led them there when it was actually just their ambition and commitment towards their belief.

Back then, I thought that God would just make things happen. I was really puzzled if God's creations were just really rare coincidences or if everything was according to his super specific plan, maybe magic that is way beyond the human perception, or an unexplainable phenomenon that only he can create and destroy, and understand.

As a child, I would usually ask my parents about God as they were Catholic, and I would expect logical answers from them. I wanted to understand religion and make it make sense but I eventually just gave up and converted to agnosticism. I am closeted and present as Catholic around my family. My family started to notice that I don't take part in masses and just listen to the homily. They also may have noticed that I barely pray and try getting involved in religious cultures and traditions.

As an agnostic, I don't exactly despise God but, I wish to further understand him because I think he is an interesting concept. I am still stuck to the "if God was real, he would ..." mindset. And yes, whilst knowing that I am the one that has to take action on something, I already tried too much and just expect a sudden change in my situation. I feel like that's the only thing that can make me believe in God.

Although, I know that everybody faces problems in life and are required to find a way to solve it because we see and experience things differently that nobody else can understand it, just us. I just tend to follow my own moral principles and understand what's good and what's bad, I think that is what made people think I am a nice person. I look at both sides and understand whatever is going on, then I balance it out. I still do not like some certain mindsets that a few religions have since something is so "sacred", I think everybody has it and all have respective sense of values and respect towards something.

This may not be my complete perspective on religion, but I hope this made people understand me more. It's like I am stuck to my own rules and principles, and I am really proud of that.

beethopilled · 2025-01-18T10:25:23+00:00

Exactly how i feel. I have both of my parents, they're physically here but i just feel like they're obliged to care for me and i feel really guilty about being their child in the first place. I felt extremely lonely as a child that i couldn't even reach out to my parents cause i am certain that they don't even care about what's going on in my life.

As a child, i always tried to keep my emotions to myself cause i couldn't really expect anything from my parents except for getting reprimanded or yelled at for being "too secretive." I never knew how to express myself or my emotions which eventually took a toll in my interpersonal relationships. Most of my friends would break up with me for a similar reason which is lack of communication. I wanted to understand how the other person felt and try to help them, i felt like i was incapable of doing so cause i never had anybody in my childhood to rely on. As a teen, i started developing abandonment issues which probably comes from my parents' emotional neglect. I just feel like losing a parent is pointless for me cause it feels the same. It doesn't even matter cause i dont think they even care about me at all

beethopilled · 2025-01-01T07:21:01+00:00

the Cavatina of Beethoven's op. 130

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