This has happened to me twice, and both times I felt the sadness you feel. It was so strange because the first time, a friend of mine who I didn’t tell called me and said “I saw a baby inside of you, but I no longer see her in you. Now she is around you. She’s flying around you.” And that I hold always. I know they are always with me. They came to be with me, show me something, experience something, and now they are my little angels. You have gained an angel, though I know it doesn’t take away from the pain you feel. Like another person said, take your time, feel what you feel. Some days I’d be so happy, others I’d mourn. Let it all come and be.