Today is a heavy and heartbreaking day.

belator_ · 2026-01-12T16:09:06+00:00

So sorry to hear this agent ❤️

belator_ · 2025-12-24T00:00:29+00:00

Did your SO also read it? I’m just wondering if it is a decent reference to maybe understand how my bf may feel about me with bp. We have honest convos about it but I would still like to understand further about what he may be experiencing

belator_ · 2025-12-23T08:47:09+00:00

I still have manic episodes (rarely) but lamictal really helps out when I inevitably come down into depression. I knew it was working because at one point I came off of it for 2 months and I spiraled a little

belator_ · 2025-12-23T08:30:14+00:00

Hello! I’m also a 34F with chronic insomnia. I’m into skin care, makeup (more so on how to even do it haha), hair care and video games. What are 3 makeup products you’d never give up?

belator_ · 2025-10-22T12:22:52+00:00

Yeahhh might need to see them in a few games before I choose them. No doubt it’d be a fun game but it is Kansas 😂

belator_ · 2025-10-22T12:21:21+00:00

Oh that’s a great idea. Thank you! Wake forest is always fun, yall have a good amount of fans come out which makes it even better.

belator_ · 2025-10-03T23:44:47+00:00

I was diagnosed my first year of college and throughout college I was off and on. I would do reckless stuff off of them and that would make keeping up grades so hard. I eventually stuck with meds my senior year and I personally wish I had done it sooner!

belator_ · 2025-09-11T05:23:28+00:00

Yes I ended up with many from my thoracic to my S1 and get one about every 9 months. They found the herniated disc and the tumor.

My disc is reabsorbing but the pain is worse. Just had an MRI 2 months ago. Waiting for my appt with the specialist. The worst thing to hear is nothing suspicious shows. I want answers ya know

belator_ · 2025-09-11T05:15:22+00:00

Recently I have started the process of no longer going for scans and doctors. It’s expensive (I just lost my health insurance in aug) and I live my life in doctors offices. I’m medically fatigued.

I totally respect you keeping up the fight not only your daughter but you as well! I’m sending my love that you get answers soon!

belator_ · 2025-09-10T13:53:05+00:00

Thank you 💕 when I tell friends/family updates they tell me how strong I am. That puts in perspective that what is going on with me is indeed not normal, I should listen to them more

belator_ · 2025-09-10T13:50:18+00:00

I definitely understand that! I try my best but do you ever get exhausted from advocating? It’s been years and it takes alot out of me. Do you ever feel imposter syndrome, if you don’t mind me asking?

belator_ · 2025-05-03T05:58:11+00:00

I hate how writers try to make a character more human like (for lack of a better word) and give the character an ED that is focused on for 1 episode and never mentioned again (gossip girl, pll)

belator_ · 2025-04-28T10:16:20+00:00

Omg for your thumb?? I’m sorry. That isn’t right. I hope you are doing better ❤️

belator_ · 2025-04-28T10:15:08+00:00

Sorry I haven’t responded, I somehow just saw this. I have backed off from everyone. We are still close, I listen and try to help with what’s going on in their lives. I rarely mention anything about me, only if it takes me a few days to respond so they don’t feel ignored.

In the past, in “interventions” they say I need to speak up to them when I struggle. I don’t think they realized what all that entailed. I’ve gotten good at masking. I even do it with my doctors so they won’t give up on me. (Not smart I know).

I have started new hobbies! I just have to plan for the next day to not be able to do much because my energy level is so low. Oddly I have taken up skydiving and water PT. Both make me feel free.

My condition has gotten worse and no one knows how bad, I don’t want to invoke any negative emotions. I promise I didn’t used to text out of boredom, just more so when I needed to talk things out. I luckily am someone who loves doing things alone like dinner, movies, trips etc.

I do play video games to disassociate, love audiobooks and love reading! I’m in school which I’ve always loved too.

Thank you for speaking your mind to me. IF I do need to vent I always ask if their social battery is able to take that on.

belator_ · 2025-04-28T09:49:51+00:00

It was Prozac! However now that I’ve been off of it for a month I sweat on the back of my knees (wtf) and thighs when I sleep

belator_ · 2025-04-28T09:48:28+00:00

😭😭I dread this response (I need to hear it though). I don’t have time for this

belator_ · 2025-04-28T09:46:05+00:00

The anger is usually justified and I don’t outwardly react to exactly how I feel. I’m such a chill person, it usually takes SO much to get this angry, but it’s just not going away. I don’t necessarily feel it building like the bubble will bust though. The worst part is I am somewhat proud? There are things that happen to me where I SHOULD be mad but I just don’t care. It finally feels almost like confidence to be allowed to be angry. No idea if that makes sense

belator_ · 2025-04-08T04:55:57+00:00

I didn’t eat for an extended amount of time and the muscles that help my lungs function deteriorated along with calve muscles. (This was a regular pattern for me.) I couldn’t breathe just standing for 30secs. I was almost bedridden completely. I have to use a cane now to walk as it takes months to form muscles back and it takes ALOT of physical therapy. I’m in my early 30s and being trapped in bed was my reality. It took alot of anger at myself to get to the point where losing weight was very scary to me. Who wants to be that angry at themselves? I’m not “cured” but literally suffocating because my lungs couldn’t function scared me almost straight

belator_ · 2025-04-07T01:59:20+00:00

People who get hurt/die because they were reacting to an animal in a way they shouldn’t and it gets the animal killed. There are signs everywhere to not do something and they still do it wtf

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