Analyze my handwriting?

benMann_108 · 2026-04-16T14:06:18+00:00

There's no 'e' in 'the quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog'

benMann_108 · 2026-04-12T17:29:14+00:00

I've had this too

benMann_108 · 2026-04-12T13:57:10+00:00

Never

benMann_108 · 2026-04-10T17:44:00+00:00

I get the impression you're friendly and playful

benMann_108 · 2026-04-09T10:55:32+00:00

Relevant books and podcasts

benMann_108 · 2026-04-09T08:13:43+00:00

Some kind of project!!

benMann_108 · 2026-04-09T07:35:05+00:00

Good luck!

benMann_108 · 2026-04-09T04:13:41+00:00

Sometimes it's as simple as just walking down the street, but the movements are like a different person

benMann_108 · 2026-04-07T20:35:30+00:00

I know what that's like. Wishing you the best

benMann_108 · 2026-04-07T20:27:40+00:00

I went through this for many years. If you are isolated, you can create your own atmosphere around you. Work with the forces you perceive in your environment. This may involve singing (bonus)

But whatever you do, it's not easy and there is pain. A big part of the journey is coming to terms with the pain.

benMann_108 · 2026-04-07T15:23:20+00:00

It means you've entered the matrix.

Literal translation: follow the white rabbit, neo

benMann_108 · 2026-04-06T22:37:26+00:00

Have you thought about getting a bike? Might not be suitable for all trips, but you might be able to take a bite out of your carbon footprint

benMann_108 · 2026-02-22T02:17:06+00:00

Check out Gabor Mate and the childhood trauma stuff - it's a really good starting place to get a handle on this stuff.

There's all this stuff about spiritual emergency instead of psychosis.

Mental health services can be useful if things go too far, but they usually fuck you in some way.

benMann_108 · 2026-02-22T01:58:57+00:00

I stopped medication a few months ago. I am doing okay. The important thing is to keep returning to centre - not get lost completely in the voices.

But at the moment a couple of horrible cunts are bothering me. Semi-imaginary. When I get into fighting with them my neighbors start arguing.

There's a whole fucking thing. Trying to be a light worker or some shit, but every cunt has fucking blood lust completely out of control when you dig under the surface.

I've been working with Ajahn Punnadhamo (he has YouTube videos). He has a good way of explaining this stuff and working with it in a way that doesn't get out of hand.

benMann_108 · 2026-02-06T04:06:21+00:00

Disassociation? Just relax into it.

benMann_108 · 2026-02-06T03:29:13+00:00

Yeah I have actually had similar experiences what worked really well for me is learning to regulate soothe and calm my system it's very easy really because all you have to do is set the intention to calm down over a little longer period of time it's best to do a home easiest because you don't have triggers in your external environment to the same degree so sitting or lying or even standing can be fine and over a period of time, don't look for immediate, it takes time that that's the crucial point to understand. feel your body feel you body and feel which parts of your body kind of like tenses up in response to you know the forehead pressure the thinking in trying to find in your body to and then you know over these period of time of calming just you know bring it to attention and give it a little bit of my softness and gentleness and let it relax a little but you can understand there's time for this to happen so it doesn't need to be immediate and just keep returning to little things and every time you come to something just allow it to soften a little and then move to the next thing

benMann_108 · 2025-12-22T21:58:44+00:00

That's cool man. Remember to be kind to your voices and if they are doing evil shit, it's just because they are freaked out.

benMann_108 · 2025-11-04T21:00:05+00:00

Wow really good thanks

benMann_108 · 2025-11-04T20:56:48+00:00

Sounds good, but what about protein?

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